Hello, again friends. l hope this finds you well and satisfied, it's Mrs. again.
I was not sure where to place this and if you are looking for that thing that will rock your boat odds are you could do much better. But if you have any interest in the personal side to all of this then please read on.
l was surely the "Blushing Bride" of sorts. Not the perfect description but it's close enough. This means as to sex my husband not only taught me everything l know but he has always been the leader. l know he would enjoy me taking charge from the very start now and again and that is my regret, remorse, and guilt all rolled into one. He deserves far better from me and l know it which just makes it worse.
I'm not saying we or l am vanilla, quite the opposite as some of you might know by now by reading some of our things and most of them are from fact. (blushing once again over here) but again l always choose to just follow. l don't feel it's laziness on my part, and when l do it's always just hinting at my wishes, and luckily for me he never fails to pick up on what I'm hinting about.
Sorry if repeating but there's no problem when things are turned up to a ten. l have no problems with saying l need him in my ass or whatever sparks my passion at that moment. Not to be stuck on a single subject but l can't tell you how many times l wanted to text him while he was at work. "I'm in the mood for anal, you'll find out in who's ass tonight in bed" See that wasn't hard to type, l guess it's the send button that is giving me so much trouble.
Sorry, he is gone for a few days and l am feeling despondent at the moment.
l would love to hear back with your thoughts, especially those from other females. Is it just me, because sometimes l feel that way?
The above was sent back for being too short, so you can blame the Editors for your continued torture (wink) seeing I have to add let it be this and maybe l should of from the start.
Please do not think anything my husband said or did was against my will, l assure you it was not, and then some. Just opening the doors that l would have never had the courage to do so on my own. Now it seems every day something is rolling around in my head, the longing to do this or that again, and what is even better if my husband came up with something new? My husband calls it "keeping me peaked" and l think he means not only my interest but sexually also because if you have great sex you normally just want more or that is how l am. Occasionally I think of the old (what if) and that reminds me of how lucky I am because l just stumbled upon my life which l love and the man that gave it to me. That sounds corny but take my word for it as many of my girlfriends have said they wish they had what l have with my husband it's all him for the most part.
l feel without my husband I would most likely be content with the sad routine many wives have the once-a-week attempt that lasts a total of five minutes and never changes, mostly ending with a lie about how much they enjoyed it. My heart goes out to them not only for the sex but he is amazing with everything including a husband, dad, and grandfather. Life can be tough but especially since we started out so young, married with a child and both of us seventeen with no real help. Now after many years, l can not complain, not one bit.
l wrote this not to get anybody's rocked off but to help myself and others like me to push back at whatever is holding them back.
To help get me past the word count here is what could happen if l found the courage to press that send button. The following is a conversation in my head for the most part.
