All sexual activity involves characters over the age of 18.
Hi, my name is Angela. My husband's name is Greg, and this is our story. I offer it in the hope that it may find someone, someone who can benefit from our experience. An experience that I admit is not for everyone. But I also know we are not unique. We are happily married, but it took work to get here. It takes work to stay here too, but that's true of every marriage. The differences lie in the areas that need to be worked on. For us, it's spankings. Specifically, my spankings. I need them, and hopefully after you read this, you'll understand better. If you recognize yourself, I'm writing for you.
I was raised as an only child in a very traditional, mid-west, conservative family. Dad worked construction and Mom was what they called a "homemaker". Like I said -- traditional. Greg grew up in San Francisco, with an older sister and parents who were liberal, which I guess was also somewhat traditional; at least normal, for their place and time.
We met while I was still living at home, attending community college. Greg was staying with his aunt and uncle while working on their farm, helping them out, and making a little money while trying to figure out his path in life. We married right after I got my associates degree. By then Greg was working construction, and even while I was looking for work, we were able to swing a starter home close to my parent's house.
We felt we had a great life and a happy marriage, but in truth, we were on auto-pilot, coasting along on the momentum of our stable upbringing and newlywed bliss. It was one of those moments of bliss, in fact, that raised the first flag for me.
We were in bed, or rather on the bed; in Greg's favorite position, fucking me doggy style. I say it was Greg's favorite position, but it was mine too. It was his because he's an ass man and can't get enough of gripping my hips and pounding into me from behind. It's my favorite position because I
love
to be pounded hard. I love to be possessed; owned by my man. Taken by him and used the way he wants. So we do it that way often, but on this day, he said something new.
"God, baby; I love this ass! So nice and plump, so big and round. I especially love the way it jiggles when I slam into you. Those little ripples in your butt cheeks when I pound that sweet pussy."
Now, I've always been a full-figured girl, and I knew I had a big butt. But I'd always taken pride in how firm it was, how tight - even muscular - it was. I never knew it jiggled when he pounded me! I never knew he watched ripples run up to my hips. I didn't say anything at the time, but I was mortified.
The next time I was alone in the bathroom, I turned to the mirror and took a critical look at my ass. It still looked good, the perfect complement to my boobs, which always attracted more attention, at least whenever I chose to deploy them. I raised up on my toes, admiring how my cheeks tightened. But when I dropped back down onto my heels, my whole ass jiggled. I grabbed a cheek and shook it. It flopped around embarrassingly. I gave the side a smack and the shock wave rippled all the way to the crack of my ass.
How had this happened
?
No sooner did I ask the question than the answer came to me - I had let myself go. Gotten lazy. I resolved to do better, to establish a workout routine and stick to it. It lasted less than a week before I began backsliding. By the end of the second week, I was back to my old patterns, lying around the house, procrastinating exercise; even neglecting housework.
Greg didn't see any problem. His upbringing didn't include any aversion to domestic duties. I slacked off, and he just picked up the slack. It took my mom to call me on my behavior. She visited us for an overnight stay, and it only took her 3 hours to flag me on it.
"Angela, I thought we raised you better than this! What on earth has gotten into you -- you're a mess! This place is a mess! This would never fly if you were still under our roof, as you well know."
I was devastated. Her words were harsh, but even worse, she was right. And I knew it. I felt so ashamed, I could feel myself crumbling from the inside out. I looked down, allowing the tears to fall directly from my eyes to the floor. Luckily, mom was willing to hold me, and I poured it all out onto her shoulder.
"I... I know, Mom. I'm sorry. I don't know what's happened to me. I don't want to be like this! I'm trying, but I just can't keep myself motivated."
"Well, you know what would be motivating you at
our
house, don't you?"
"But Mom, I'm 22 years old! I'm too old to be spanked!"
"Well then, you'd better hope you never have to live under our roof again, because you'd soon learn you're mistaken about that."
I was floored, speechless. They hadn't spanked me since I was 16, and I lived with them until I was 21. Had I really been living with that sword over my head the whole time? Mom and I had gotten a lot out in a short period, and we both seemed content to have some quiet time to reflect on things.
When Greg came home that evening, I wanted to talk to him right away. I had tons to tell him, and even more that I needed help working out. I just didn't want to say any of it where my mom could hear. Once we turned in for the night, I knew something Greg didn't - he wasn't getting to sleep anytime soon.
"Honey, I talked with my mom today, and she made me realize some things about myself. I've been slacking around here Greg, and it's not fair to you. It's not who you married. More importantly, it's not who I want to be. I need to have my behavior corrected. I need to be spanked. And I need you to do it."
"What?" He was incredulous. I honestly think he thought he had heard me wrong.
"I need to be spanked. I grew up being spanked, and mom made me realize that even after I thought I was too old to be spanked, I still lived in fear of it. When I was young, it was mainly the pain I feared. There was an element of shame at first, but after a while I got used to it and only felt embarrassed if it happened in front of my friends.
But when I got older, I became accustomed to the pain, and it became more about the shame. Dad always gave me my spankings, but when I got older, my mom always made sure to witness it. That's when I noticed the change, but I wasn't embarrassed to have mom see me. I don't know what it was, but I started to feel deep shame around that time."
"So, you're telling me you need to feel shame?"
"No. I don't know... I don't think so. It's complicated. I don't think I can explain it. Maybe I can find someone who can, I don't know. I just know that I need spankings regularly, both maintenance spankings and punishment spankings. I need them to keep me centered. To keep me on track. I'm asking for your help, Greg."
"I can't do it. I could
never
strike a woman. It's been drilled into my head since I was old enough to make a fist. No violence against women, ever. Hard stop. I'm sorry."
"I understand honey, and I feel the same way. Except I would add 'in anger'. Never strike a woman
in anger
. In this case, I'm asking you to do it, out of love. I want you to love me enough to give me what I need."