Friday, about half five, early November, she had phoned me from her car. Told me she was now travelling home to an empty house with an empty heart - she'd been dumped, dumped callously: a cursory, emotionless message left on her voicemail. And already halfway to his large house in the country...
"I-I don't want to go home," she had blurted out, sounding almost in tears.
I had been the follower of her kinky escapades shared freely on her profile, ridden vicariously the roller coaster ride of her loves, her career, her social life, had commented humorously, wittily, and insightfully on her blogs, and had gradually become her online friend, her confidante. And sadomasochism, domination, submission, obsession, the intensity, the aesthetics, the lust, and drama of it all drew us in together... possibly, I feared, like moths to a flame...
"Come to mine, don't be alone..."
*
Ryde Harbour. Ryde Harbour at night.
I had been talking of Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, and Ayn Rand; she of the artists that moved and inspired her, that fed her knowledge and further keened her near genius intellect when I had quietly observed her long auburn hair being blown gently across her elegant features in the chill November breeze. I had watched her brush back the strands from her face and had concluded that she was kind of beautiful, realized that I wanted her, realized that I now sought to hurt her in a way that only she would have wanted to be hurt...
I had seen the yachts tugging gently against their moorings, the dark water of the harbour, almost lacquer black, rippling in the sodium lights. I had gazed across at the old pavilion, now a bowling alley and beyond at the night-lit streets rising gradually up on the easy slopes. I had perceived the totality of my own small vision, the town and everything as on canvas, but not as an artist would have it, frozen in time, but rather as alive and dynamic painted in moving colours upon the canvas of oblivion.
She had wheeled around and kissed me on the lips, catching me unawares. And I in turn caught her hand. She was tall and willowy, her blue eyes now plaintive.
"I'm getting cold, let's go back to yours," she said in her distinctive, yet fading, South African accent.
I pressed my mouth softly against hers and kissed her.
"Okay," I replied.
I waited for her to light a cigarette before slipping my arm under hers and strolling back, like lovers, to my flat.
Destiny beckoned...
*
Game on.
I ordered her to strip naked in front of me whilst I sat on the blue sofa.
She had said nothing, merely obeyed, yet had stared at me, almost disconcertingly, the whole time with her large blue eyes unfocussed and had slowly unbuttoned her white cotton pinstriped work shirt before slipping it off and allowing it to drop to the floor. She then bent down and removed each of her knee length shiny leather boots before pulling off her long black tights. As she straightened up, I just said: "Bra, next."
All the time gazing at me, she put her long bare right arm behind her back and unhitched the clip of her black bra. Now loose she pulled it off exposing her small white tits to me, her nipples engorged and erect.
I didn't say anything -- I didn't need to -- and she now stuck her thumbs in the band of her scanty black knickers prior to pulling them down swiftly and stepping out of them.
She was naked in front of me, her arms by her sides and vulnerable -- the way I liked a female to be.
"Do you like what you see? Do you approve? Am I good enough?"
"Yeah, I suppose so," I responded with a smile that quietly reassured her that I was still playing the game.
"I'm sometimes a bit self-conscious about my body."
"Why?"