After spending the day visiting places that reminded me of you, it ended with an early dinner at a restaurant you frequent. You were away camping, and I felt safe in the city, a welcomed break from your mental bondage. I however found myself missing the feeling of you lurking and watching. Waiting.
I hadn't heard from you since you made me smile with a "good morning, Beautiful." And then crushed my dreams of being used and serving you for the weekend with the news of you going away. You could've told me sooner so the mental punch wouldn't have been as catastrophic, but that would be too unlike you and not as satisfying. Your sadism has no limits and keeps me on my toes. And I enjoy feeding it. Gifting it with pieces of myself as I break beautifully for you.
My friend carries on with conversation about one of Taylor Swift's new songs. We attempt to dissect the meaning of the poetic lyrics as we eat our hot pho. The heat of the broth warms my body, and the fresh herbs satisfy my nose.
Instantly I feel the familiar pull you have over my soul, and it's like I feel your eyes taking in my body. Horripilation erupts over my flesh like your fingers are tracing up my legs. I look over my shoulder and all around searching the faces of everyone, but yours is absent. I question my sanity because there's no way it's you.
I turn back around and try to get lost in conversation again, but I can't focus and just give empty replies as I try to shake the sensation of my clit pulsing. You have my mind and body so tied to you I'm now imagining your presence. Feeling you in a room you're not in. I want to message you and tell you that, but I'm attempting to give you your time and space away. You deserve the relaxation with all of the stress you've been under. That'll probably change later because I will have to tell you about my day, and how thankful I am for you. I was a bit bratty with my replies when you busted my bubble. They were completely ridiculous and unacceptable. Through out the day guilt sat with me in the back of my mind, punishing me every chance it got.
Turning to my friend, I dismiss myself to go to the bathroom to recenter my mind and meditate you out of it. I warn her I'd be a bit because I needed a moment away from the carrying voices. She gets me and doesn't question things.
I open the door and step into the small space that separates the bathrooms from the rest of the place. Tranquility instantly sets in as the door shuts behind me making everyone disappear. I only look straight ahead with tunnel vision and instantly see the sign for the women's. My guard is down with the belief that my senses are lying to me.
Just as I reach for the handle you grab me around the waist in a crushing grip. The palm of your free hand covers my mouth before I can scream. Fear shows its familiar face before you settle it with a dose of your voice. "Hello princess." My body melts instantly against yours and comes to life for you.
You walk us backwards towards what I'm assuming is the men's bathroom removing your hand from my mouth to open the door. "Make a sound and I'll fuck you in front of everyone out there." It's a ridiculous threat, but I'm finally learning to not put anything past you. Just when I think I'm getting better at predicting your patterns and methods, you find joy in proving me wrong.
The smell of citrus hits my nose as you push me through the door. At least it's clean and smells nice in here. Roughly, you grab my arm and pull me into a stall. You have my body crashed against the door once it's locked, and my lips in an aggressive, crushing kiss. You pull my skirt up in a frenzy, your teeth nipping my lip when you feel panties instead of the expected bareness. "You aren't supposed to be wearing these." You growl. But there was no way I was strolling through the humid city without them.