I know it's not right. We've talked about it so many times- I know you want this... But when you're so deeply sleeping, your hair haloed around you on the pillow, and your silk mask is blocking the low early morning light, you seem too innocent.
As I lift your hands, I'm careful to move you slowly. I guide your hands through my rope, thoughtfully looped and tied. I thread the ends through hoops on the bed frame, keeping them loose as not to wake you from any pressure. I repeat the motions to capture your ankles. When the lines are ready, I pull them hard in one swift motion. Your arms and legs fly away from you in a quick burst followed by a frightened cry from your full lips.
"Hush now," I soothe. "You can't talk your way out of this."
Your breath is rapid as you stammer in confusion. I take my scissors and cut up the seam of your nightie, earning a strong complaint. Just as I had hoped. With two quick snips, I cut off the matching panties and stuff them in your mouth to silence your growing anger.
"Now that's more like it," I say as I run my hand over your now naked hips. Your muffled groan brings a smile to my face- but this isn't about me, now is it?
I rummage through your toy drawer, the one I know you hope is a secret. As I had expected, I find your favorite toy unwashed from your goodnight orgasm.
"You filthy thing," I admonish as I turn the toy on. Your stillness gains a tension as I imagine your thoughts, your shame, rising up within you at its familiar sound. I pull the shredded panties out of your mouth and stuff the toy uncomfortable in their place. Your cheeks blush red around the mask as you suck the remains of your juices off the toy. I pull it from your lips and replace your make-shift gag.
Tracing the wet toy down your body, I watch as your saliva evaporates off your hot skin leaving goosebumps in its wake. I run my fingers up between your thighs, just to make sure you're as excited as you sound...
"Mmm..." I'm not disappointed. A muffled squeal tries to break out of your mouth and my fingers come away slick.
I trail the toy lower and lower. I watch as your arms and legs start to fidget and pull against the restraints. I stop the tracing of your curves, setting the toy to vibrate against your nipple.
"I can't have you escaping on me, not after all the planning I've done," I joke as I carefully take up the slack in the ropes.
Satisfied, I snatch up the toy and shove it inside you harshly. I can't tell if your hips are trying to recede from the intrusion or rise up to meet it. Either way, it doesn't work and I watch your discomfort at the tight squeeze. Taking another length of rope, I reach under you to fashion a belt around your waist. I ignore your sounds of growing need while I tie the toy in place, keeping the length buried deep inside you and the vibrating ears firmly on your clit.
"You have a choice to make, my pet. Make some noise for the settings you want." I click through the different combinations of thrust and vibration, listening intently for your desires.
"I see... you want a nice steady ride. If only you knew how long you are going to be here."
You try to say something, but I have my own agenda. I turn both of the settings higher and let myself smile at your stifled sounds of enjoyment. I take a second to set up my laptop before I lean in close to your ear.
"I need you to keep count for me, sweetheart. When I get back, I'll ask you how many times you've come."