He comes home at the usual time from work.
I'm up on my knees on the mattress, legs apart, hands clasped behind my head, ready for him when he opens the door to the room. Stark bollock, just the way he wants it. I do this as soon as I hear the front door. But it's not his habit in the afternoon to come straight in and use me. I hear the toilet flush, then the shower, then noises from his bedroom, then the kettle boiling, and the telly goes on for a bit.
It's all as usual, even though I know he's pissed off. I know from how he left the room last night. He had thrown me against the wall, slamming the door hard behind him, left in the dark.
Then he went to work this morning. He never opened the door to the room and he never got his cock serviced like he usually does.
Home from work now, he hasn't come in. All I can do is wait now, kneeling, stark bollock, listening to him move, waiting for his mood to hit me.
An hour or maybe more passes. The telly goes off. It's quiet for a while. I think he might be sitting on the couch, brooding, thinking. Then he makes his move.
The door opens, slowly and deliberately. He stops in the doorway. My head is bowed down, but I can see he's in his tracksuit. I focus on his hands at his side, waiting for them to move towards me.
But he just stands there silently, for a good, long while. I feel sweat dripping from my armpits. When he's like this, I know it's going to be bad, difficult. It's going to last a while. He's angry, and he wants me to know it.
I've learned not to speak until spoken to. I want to soothe him by saying 'sorry sir,' but I've learned to wait, to be silent, not to speak unless I'm sure he wants to hear it.
Finally, he speaks, "You and I gonna have a little chat."
"Yes sir," I respond. There's a sharp, strong slap across the side of my face and head. I can feel his anger in that one sharp, strong stroke.
"Did I fucken tell you to speak?"
I stay silent, maintain my posture, staying open to him.