I sat with my friend Jan, downing my third glass of wine. She was struggling to cheer me up which, normally she is very good at.
"I haven't been in a real relationship for over six months. Shit I haven't even fucked anybody in that time. I can't afford to go out or pay my bills, live sucks."
"If I make a suggestion you have got to promise me you will never mention it to any of our friends. It is very extreme but it just might be a possibility for you."
"Go on it sounds intriguing I am all ears."
"Do you promise not to judge me or be offended by what I am going to say?"
"Jan we are good friends, you are my best friend. Just spit it out and I promise it will be ok."
"I have made good money doing something that I am sure I could get you into if you are interested. It sounds really bad but hear me out before you reject it. I have been paid very well for making very specialized porn films. The guy, Ben, that makes them, is actually a really nice guy. The filming is done so that you cannot be identified, it is shot with only him present and he does not even screw you."
"Now you are really confusing me. You are paid for making a video, a porn video, where no one fucks you. How does that work?"
"The videos are spanking videos. They are kind of scripted and he tells you exactly what is going to happen. I will not lie to you it hurts like hell but you can stop things at any time and he understands. If you chose to stop he pays you for what you have done but obviously much more if you finish the scene. I have done three videos with him, the money was great and he has always treated me with great respect. He is looking for new, girl next-door models and I am sure you would be perfect. Do you want me to arrange a meeting with him with no further obligations?"
"I am fascinated by the idea. I don't know how I would be with the pain but if he is as nice and understanding as you say I might be happy to consider it."
The meeting was arranged for the next day at the pub. My head was in a spin all day. I had never been spanked but there was a little bit of me that was intrigued by the idea. Jan agreed to introduce us and either stay or leave us if I was happy. I was almost disappointed when he turned out to be a very normal, even good-looking, guy with one head on his shoulders and a nice smile.
"I like to think that the videos I produce are high quality. I only use beautiful women none of whom work in the porn industry. I work alone usually with four fixed cameras. If a model is worried I have allowed them to be accompanied by a friend, but I prefer not to. A model is completely free to stop the scene at any point but any payment is greatly reduced if this is too early in the shoot. The payment depends on the scene to be recorded. I ensure that models cannot be identified. Do you have any tattoos or birthmarks that I would need to avoid showing?"
"No nothing I can be identified by. How do you disguise the face so it cannot be identified? Do you kind of block it out after filming?"
"No I don't do that as the model would not be guaranteed that it is done. I use a mask that leaves the eyes visible but covers enough of the face to make identification very difficult. The eyes have to be kept uncovered as they show what the model is feeling and that is vital. If you are interested I would need to see you naked and ensure that your body is as wonderful as it looks. I hope that is okay. Are you still interested?"
We discussed the level of payment that would be possible. I nearly choked on my wine when he told me the range but said the first shoot is always a relatively mild scene and therefore paid at the bottom of that range. I tried to be cool but I would have been considering accepting if he had been offering a quarter of the money. Jan did tell Ben that she could guarantee that my naked body was perfect. Much to my surprise, with a questioning smile, he said he was happy to take her word for it. He asked me whether it would be difficult to explain to anyone the marks that the spanking would leave. I confirmed that no one would be likely to see them, as I was not in a relationship.
Jan left saying that it sounded as if we had much more detail to discuss. Ben laid out details of a scene that would involve a mind spanking over his knee a strapping with me secured over a horse and a short caning in two positions. He said payment would be a quarter if I completed the spanking, half if I completed the strapping and full if I completed the scene. I realized I was getting very comfortable with Ben and trusted him rather more than I would have expected.
It was the following Saturday lunchtime that he showed me into his studio. The natural light showed a room that had an area like a lounge, another like a bedroom and a third more like a gym but with various punishment equipment. He said that he liked to shoot the scene with as few pauses as possible so to try and keep in character. Between elements of the shoot we could both just be ourselves. He said not to be afraid to resist, swear at him or object strongly. He would take that as being in character and only stop if I said, "stop".