With My Master Baytor 03
On leaving Master Robert's house, I did not go straight home as first intended, but decided to take myself out for dinner. Climaxing just once after a week of abstinence had left me feeling horny and dissatisfied. To console myself, I went to a small Italian place I'm fond of and ordered their Dijon chicken with fettuccine, one of my favourite dinners. The creamy mustard sauce livens up the chicken breast and also goes well with the pasta. The food and a glass of white wine improved my mood considerably, though it did nothing for my case of blue balls.
I sat there, eating slowly, sipping the wine, and thinking about my new situation. On one hand, I liked my new mentor, trusted him and hoped to learn from him. He impressed me as a good teacher who knew his field well, and also as fine human being. But on the other I was frightened - scared shitless, if I was honest about it. The man meant business, and if I worked with him it would change my life. It was doing so already: If I were not feeling sexually frustrated, I would have gone home, jerked off, spent the evening working on the draft report that had to be finished and submitted by the end of next week. I would have wanked again before going to sleep, had a good rest and gotten to do a good day's work on Friday. If I wanted company, I might have found a playmate over the weekend - one of several existing 'friends with benefits,' or a new one if I felt like it - gotten my rocks off peacefully and then done some more work. My deliverable would have been finished and delivered on time, and my clients would have been happy and signed off the milestone and payment.
That still had to happen somehow. I could not afford to ruin my reputation. But it would not be so easy now. The rhythms of my life had been broken, and it would not be so easy to find new ones. I would have to discuss this issue with Master Robert when I saw him next, and maybe get him to lighten up a bit, and let me progress with him at my own (much slower) pace.
I saw the danger without needing a mentor to point it out to me: If my addiction to wanking was broken, I could easily fall into a different addiction. What Catholics call 'self-abuse' - may be the least self-abusive that there is. Drugs are worse, Alcohol is worse. Even video games are worse. Sex may be addictive, but it is at least self-limiting - for males, at least. We can only cum so many times a day.
So what was I going to do? I would get through this next week somehow, with cold showers and exercise and maybe an emergency visit to mentor in the middle of the week, at the price of a flogging, if he cared to give one. I would also work hard, and finish that report. When I saw menΒtor next, we would work out some rules I could live with, or I would quit and go my own way - maybe go on as I had been, maybe use the cage to discipline myself. I could be my own keyholder. I could look for a more indulgent mentor or see a shrink if I felt the need. Another week, or half-week plus flogging, of chastity wouldn't kill me. I called for the cheque, paid it, and drove home feeling much better. Only one glass of wine with a full dinner was safe enough.
Back home, I dove into that report I was writing, and actually made some progress. But my mind was elsewhere. I kept thinking that my fantasy had come true - that my auterotic activities had come to the attention of an authority figure and had been taken out of my hands. That my cock and balls were now locked under hard steel, accessible only with a key which I did not have - held by a strict disciplinarian who might take a cane to my backside before he would let me cum. That idea was still as erotically charged for me as it had always been, but it was now terrifyingly real. From masturbating several times a day whenever I felt like it, I'd been cut down to once a week, on Thursday afternoons, under a mentor's supervision and subject to corporal punishment when he felt it might be good for me. Contemplating my new predicament, I would have been in full erection, had the cage permitted. As it was, my glans could only push helplessly against the cup that held it, learning its lesson of submission. "No, dickie boy! You don't control me! With my mentor, I control you now! You will cum when we allow, and not a moment sooner!"
Or so I wanted to think. Actually, in my mind I heard it answer, "You wish! Let's see how much will power you have Monday morning, after a horny weekend, when you're refusing to pay Mentor Robert's price for some mid-week relief!"
In fact, by Monday morning I was a wreck. I had forced myself to work, and the report I was writing was coming together, but my eyes looked swollen and my hands were shaking. I hadn't had a decent night of sleep. I wrote an email to Mentor, explaining how desperate I was and begging for an emergency appointment. A few hours later, when the phone rang, I grabbed for it. "Hello?," I almost shouted, as if it were a cry for help.
"Good morning, Dan," my mentor answered calmly. "How can I help you?"
"Thank you for calling back sir," I said to him. "As I wrote to you, sir, I need my cage off, to relieve myself. I've gone a week and a half now, wanking just once - on Thursday when I saw you." I hear myself babbling, but couldn't stop and calm myself.
"That's too long! I must be able to work, sir! My client expects his report on Friday, and I have to have it finished by then. I can't work properly when my balls are turning blue, sir. Please let me come in, so you can unlock my cage and let me wank, sir. I'll take whatever penalty you think is right."
"Then, let's talk about some new arrangement, sir. Something I can live with. I want your discipline, sir, I really do; but it can't be more than I can live with."
"All right," Dr. Thierry told me. "Swing by at 6 PM this evening, and collect that key; then you can be your own keyholder for the rest of the week. I won't have time for you tonight or tomorrow, so we'll talk on Thursday. I too want an arrangement that you can live with, that won't interfere with the rest of your life, but that will teach you something. For now, don't wank more than you need to. We'll have to agree on how often that is."
I had expected some argument, but there was none. I had expected to feel the cane a good few times when I went for the key, but apparently that would not happen either. I'd have to wait to learn what sort of arrangement Dr. Thierry had in mind.
Knowing that I'd be able to relieve my swollen balls this evening, made it possible to relax and get some work done. I now knew that the report would go in on time, and had learned that my mentor would not allow my working life to suffer. He seemed to understand that my work required more concentration than I could muster with a terminal case of swollen, aching balls.
That evening, as he handed me the key, he said, "Enjoy yourself, but please try to abstain Wednesday night and Thursday morning, I'd like to have you at least a little horny when you come for our meeting on Thursday afternoons."
"Yes, sir," I answered. "I can promise that." And I kept my word. It was going on 7 when I got home with the key, and I did myself four times before turning in, not even bothering to put the cage back on, after I'd taken it off. Tuesday and Wednesday I wanked twice, still not wearing the cage. After my second shot on Wednesday afternoon, already naked and dripping wet, I re-installed it, thinking as I did so, that it would give Dr. Thierry a read-out of my activities. Wondering what he would say (or do) about them, I fell asleep, actually looking forward to our second meeting.
Thursday, at exactly 4 PM, I again used the beautifully wrought knocker of hand and bottom to let my mentor know I had arrived. In just a moment, the door opened and Dr. Thierry gestured me to enter. "Greetings Dan," he said, smiling at me. "Are you feeling better?"