alexia lays in the furs in the darkened room and thinks that the night is the hardest time. During the day she is busy, but the night ... those nights when she can't sleep are the worst. Stirring softly, she pulls the thin furs closer to her and snuggles. There are nights she has sisters to curl up to and can feel the body heat radiate from them, but not this night. she wonders if she will ever be one to be sleeping at the foot of a Master's furs, or in His arms, while a girl is left behind like she is now.
her face turns to the small crack high in the wall that allows the air to circulate. If she angles just right, she can see a moon in the sky. Sometimes, two of them appear. she longs to see all three. Longing is something she is becoming familiar more with as the lonely days pass.
Softly, she mutters, "White silk girls have needs too."
alex flings herself to lie on her belly; one arm tucks under her head and cradles her. she tries to deny the feelings that wash over her when she is alone. she tries not to feel vulnerable. she tries not to feel the need that fills her heart. Need. she knows it is greater than 'need'; she knows it is fire that is consuming her. Pent up to erupt, to seek release from a body that has been untouched. alexia moans into the pillow of hair under her face. she will never be opened. she will never be good enough. If she towers one more time ~ if she watches her sisters nadu as she kneels pristinely ~ she is going to scream. she is going to throw herself on the first Master (well, maybe not the first; but, definitely, the best looking Master) who walks into the room as she slides her legs shut tightly. Do Masters not realize what happens to a girl when her legs are closed tight as she kneels?
The girl is unaware that her body is moving slowly. she thinks of how she was chastised today by the first girl for failing to put the vulo eggs in the cool room. alex meant to and was going to. she had to stop to tease nidia, and then they peeked through the crack of the open door into the Hall. The two Masters did not see them as They talked, but the girls grinned as they gazed upon Them. Dancing eyes, alert to being spotted, slid over the muscular legs and large hands that waved in the air as They laughed and drew pictures in the air with strong fingers. alexia's eyes wandered to the apex of Their thighs and her smile became smaller as raw desire replaced it. nidia jabbed her and pulled her from the door, whispering softly that she was to go to the older Man's furs that night. alexia looked at her and softly stomped one small foot. That is when the first girl came in and saw the eggs on the counter; she tugged alexia's ear and pulled her to them, scolding her sharply for her inattentiveness.