Over the next week I struggled to accept that neither Whip nor Dan would allow me to serve them until they were satisfied that I had recovered fully from my ordeal. My greatest challenge was accepting that submission to them would involve allowing myself to be taken care of. I would have to wait until they decided that my body had fully healed.
On an unusually warm day I was finally given permission to return home. I was instructed to call to check in before going to bed that night, but once I was alone again I started to feel creeping doubts. After all, this still seemed too good to be true. Feeling so close and so vulnerable became overwhelming. So I didn't call that night. Then to add insult to injury, I turned my phone on silent: big mistake.
Around midnight I heard a loud banging outdoors and responded by pulling a pillow over my head. The bangs gave way to a series of clicks and scrapes. Still, I thought I was dreaming. As if on cue, the pillow was yanked off my face while my body was lifted into an upright position. Realization dawning, my eyes grew wide with surprise. There was a fearsome fire burning in Whip's face.
"Em, I'm going to ask you one question and you are going to give me a straight answer. We are not playing games. Are you ready to serve me? If you say yes then I am taking you to my house for training until I am satisfied with your behavior. If you say no, then we can walk away right right now."
I couldn't read his expression. Was I seeing anger, disappointment, hope, or all three? My eyes widened in shock and disbelief. Filled with intimidation, I took a deep breath to steady my nerves. "Yes sir, please give me a chance to serve you."
"Good," he replied, as in one fluid motion he lifted me up and carried me to his car. His expression on the short ride to his home was so intense that I was afraid to say anything and sat stock still. When we arrived once again at his home, he grabbed me firmly by the arm and led me to a guest bedroom.
"You'll sleep here until you earn the privilege of being by my side again. You will stay in this room until I fetch you tomorrow. Do you understand?"
"Yes sir, I understand."
* * *
The next day Whip opened the door to the bedroom and I said "good morning."
"Don't speak unless you are spoken to," he instructed curtly. "Remove all of your clothes, then come here and kneel in front of me."
I was surprised to find that my pussy lips were becoming slick as I obeyed. A rush of calm warmth washed over me as I kneeled before him and instinctively lowered my eyes toward the floor.
He patted my head, "good girl, now put your hands behind your back." As I did so, he slid his hand to grasp the back of my hair, and pushed my face against his jeans. "Rub against my dick and smell my sex." I complied and was rewarded by a low sigh escaping from his throat. "Now crawl behind me."
As instructed, I followed him on all fours. We stopped in front of a closet that I had not seen before. Taking a key out of his pocket, Whip unlocked the door to reveal a vast collection of toys, implements, and items that I did not recognize. Afraid to look up, partly in fear of disobedience and partly in fear of what I might see, I tried to keep my eyes cast downward. "We'll start easy," he said. "Have you ever felt a cane before?"
"Yes sir, a long time ago."
"Good, then we'll go with that."
He continued past the closet and I crawled behind him as he went down a short stairwell and into a room filled with strange furniture. At first glance it resembled a mix between a home gym and a sex shop. Reaching out to grab something on a hook beside the door, he asked, "Have you ever worn a choke collar before?"
"I'm not sure sir, can I see what it looks like?" I asked.
In an instant he grasped my neck and held it tightly. It took all my effort to breathe. "You are intelligent and you will speak like an intelligent person. Now think before you open your mouth and use the grammar that you are obviously capable of."
Hot tears of shame and fear welled in my eyes. He loosened his grip on my neck and I gasped for air. "I'm sorry sir," I choked, "may I see what it looks like?"
"Yes, you may," he replied, holding the collar in front of my face. He slipped the chain loop around his wrist to demonstrate and pulled on it; as he did so, the chain tightened. "The more you struggle, the tighter it gets. Lower your head so I can put it on."
I did as he instructed. The cold metal making me his prisoner. He gave a gentle tug on the leash, leading me to a waist high bench. "Bend over the bench, legs spread."
I obeyed and was rewarded by his hand caressing my sex. His fingers rubbed between my slit and made fleeting contact against my rising knob. I moaned and then shrieked as he pulled his hand away and brought the cane down hard against my ass. Red hot pain seared my nerves and then faded to a throb. I took a deep breath in anticipation of the next one and this time gave only a whimper while trying to put my mind on something else to distract from the pain. In doing so I zoned out to such an extent that I was able to keep the pain at a distance. This was a mistake.
Whip stopped and yanked on the collar, drawing me fully back to reality. At first I thought he was finished with me, but could not have been more wrong. Wordlessly he pulled me backward and pushed me down onto my knees. "Stay!" he commanded in an aggravated tone. He grabbed a stool and sat across from me. I could feel him glaring intently at me, but did not dare to lift my eyes, instead I chose to stare at his leather combat boots.
"Look me at me." He demanded in a voice that belied the control he still maintained.
I looked in his eyes and saw such intensity in them that I wanted desperately to glance away. Some part of me was lost in his gaze, yearning to please him.
"What do you think you were doing?"
"I...I.. don't know, sir." I stammered.
"If I'm talking and you are staring off into space, do you think that would be a problem?"