WARNING: I feel that this story, which contains adult content like many of my short stories, requires an extra warning. It is based on a true story, my story, and describes my brief addiction to meth amphetamines, which have gained much popularity in the US in the past ten years. I discovered in these times, how powerful a poison some drugs can be, and how they can end a life in so many ways. I do NOT condone the use of such drugs, and would advise that anyone NOT try them. It took me several years to get the stuff out of my system, and I have never regretted anything more. Please, do not try them at home. As for the rest of the tale... Knock yourself out.
Foreword
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In the summer after my graduation from high school, I had a definite unease towards the future. I knew even then that this was a fairly common emotion among those who are stepping out into the real world for the first time. I had many ideas of what I wanted, but had no idea how to get there. Luckily, my family was sympathetic enough, and my mother spent a lot of time talking with her parents. My grandma, a former school teacher and self-vowed chef, wanted me to come and live with them on their 10 acre property in the woods west of Redding, CA. There was plenty of room; a large studio apartment above the wood shop where my grandfather and uncle worked. It had a half bath, a large private porch (filled with junk like the rest of the house) overlooking the garden and pool; all that was to be 'mine'.
There was already lots of family there.. one of my mother's sisters and her brother lived right there on the property, with their kids (who were all 5 years younger than I). At the time, it sounded perfect... the place where I had played about on summer vacations... far away from my bitch of a mother, free meals from a great chef, and of course, the legendary 'Humbolt high' So, I applied for school at Shasta College, a pleasant little community college just down the street from my great grandfather, packed my bags; took Fred (my bird); and headed west.
My first semester of college went fairly smoothly. I took a very light load... one class... which I enjoyed, and passed with flying colors. I spent the rest of the time establishing my roots in the town, having brief relationships with a few college men, getting high, and half heatedly looking for a job. My family was starting to get a little annoyed with me those first few months (things started to get really bad when they realized 15 year old Shari was smoking) but in general, I was enjoying myself, and staying out of trouble... as best I could. Eventually my grandparents, in desperation to get this teenager out of their hair, told me to apply for a job in fast food.
Chapter One
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Burger King was the last place I ever expected to meet my first female lover; honestly, it was one of the last places I ever expected to be working; but there I was, putting frozen whoppers into the broiler machine when I heard them talking.
"Oh, isn't she just sick?" One of my snotty coworkers was gossiping as usual to her friend.
"Yeah, I know... have you seen her girlfriend? She always wears those spikes on her clothes and has all those piercings... it's so sick."
"Well, yeah, just don't ever say anything to Kim about it... she is after all the manager."
My ears were on fire. I couldn't believe what I was hearing... the quiet, demure woman who showed me how to spread mayo on the chicken sandwich and handed me my paycheck was in fact a real lesbian. I'd had fantasies about being with another girl for as long as I'd had them about men. I had announced my bisexuality to my friends and family at the age of 16, shocking my mother, and alienating a few friends, but I had never met another bisexual or lesbian woman. Now here, my coworkers were gossiping about someone that sounded like just the right person... experienced, and wild, like I needed.
I kept quiet, but kept my ears open for the next week or so, hoping to hear more about my dream punk rock girl; always making sure to be extra nice to my manager. Sure enough, one day the infamous girlfriend came to see Kim at work. Renea took my breath away. Her look was a very bad-ass style... I'm sure that some would have called her butch, but the oh-so female features in her face and her well shaped (larger than mine) breasts gave her away. Her head was mostly shaved, with a nice layer of pink hair that covered most of her scalp. Between her hair, leather clothes, the rings in her eyebrow and lip she looked deliciously dangerous. I had an instant crush on her. Sure enough, Kim introduced us, and I was thrilled to discover Renea's eyes devouring me as much as mine did her. We chatted briefly, before they had to leave, and I returned to my whopper duties, my imagination going wild.
That night, returning home, I explained to my grandma that I was really tired, and retreated to my loft above the wood shop. There I fingered myself to several orgasms, thinking of being with Renea, her teaching me the ways of serving a woman. I knew that night that I would be with her soon, and that so many of the fantasies had had for eight years were going to come true. I wanted to be her slave, to be the one that those awful girls gossiped about. I knew I was thinking about stealing my boss's girlfriend, but it didn't phase me. I wanted her.
The next few days, I was busy registering for my second semester of college, and had plenty on my mind, but the image of kneeling before Renea wouldn't leave me. When I had to work again, I was delighted to see on the schedule that Kim worked a shift overlapping mine, as Renea took her to and from work. Sure enough, about an hour before my shift was over, Renea and Kim came on in. Renea gave me a dazzling smile, and I wondered if she had thought of me as much as I had thought of her. When Renea casually told Kim that she was just going to hang out, and gave me a sly little smile, I about lost it.