What Now?

"Yes, you can own me while I am here visiting". He stood up smiled and left. Did I know what I was agreeing to? Of course not, but I don't think I was thinking with my brain but with my body. I liked how Chris made me feel. I liked how he ignored my gagging and pushed through to get what he wanted. My body responded the way it was supposed to. The use made me aroused. Even though he pretty much called me a bunch of holes, my body did not stop reacting.

At this point, I chose to trust my body more than my brain. Even though I had sex during marriage, it was nothing like this. These past few days seemed so different. I wasn't really concerned if he liked me. I was more concerned about how he made me feel. At first, I was disgusted that Chris made me feel like a sexual object and not a person. It wasn't as if I had been with him for years, only a few sessions. I think I met the right person!

What was weird for me, was thinking why was there a change in how I felt? I was angry when he said holes and now, I was enjoying thinking about it. I think I was rationalizing what happened with those strangers in the van. I liked being bound and I liked the feeling of letting someone else take charge of me, and my body.

I knew I had to tell Chris what I did so he would get to know more about me. I had only mentioned that I met someone for drinks which was a lie. I was worried about how he would react knowing I lied. I tried to close my eyes and get some sleep but it did not come easy.

I got a message at 9am that said "hello sub, when is your sister awake?" I was still pretty tired myself and wanted to say she is already up but I thought of my previous lie. She normally gets up between 11 and 1, I replied. He said that he would be over within the next 15 minutes to talk. My immediate thought is that he had decided I wasn't good enough for him. I only had one week to stay so that might not be beneficial for him. I just watched some porn until I heard him at the door.

As I walked upstairs to meet him, I could feel my body react. But he just wanted to talk. He came in and we went downstairs and sat on the sofa. He told me to disrobe, which I did. I tried to cover my nakedness but was told to embrace being naked and to spread my legs and not cover my breasts. He said a sub needs to make their holes available. He also said that some people hide behind their clothes so just get rid of them.

He asked me where I live and I told him the city and he said that he would be there on business the following week. I didn't know what to say as I hadn't thought that far ahead. I blurted out "Great!". Then he said that we have some time to get to know each other better before my sister got up. He stood up and removed his pants and sat back down on the sofa and looked at me. I knew that meant he wanted me to suck his cock.

I love sucking cock so I will do it as often as I can! That is something I got from my marriage, the few good things (other than kids). I pulled my hair back and eagerly started sucking with my mouth and using my hands to work up the shaft. Chris grabbed my hair and pulled me back hard and said "No hands". He scared me a bit but realized this is likely the training he thought I needed. I put my hands down and went back to it and my hands returned to the shaft. He pulled me back harder by the hair and then got up and put my hands behind me in handcuffs. He sat back down and looked so disappointed in me. He shoved my mouth back on his cock and I continued try to please him.

My tongue started to work on his shaft licking up and down and sucking deeply as if to try to swallow his cock. I then heard the word "balls" and realized what he wanted me to do. Not a fan but you do what you need to do. But I do have to say, having someone's ball in your mouth, that is pretty hot. I could hear his breathing change. So, I knew I was about to be gifted. I could feel my nipples harden as I felt slippery.

Chris pulled out and came on my face, hair, and tits. I wanted to get up so I can clean up but I had no hands to do it. Chris smiled and took a picture and I started to freak out. He said that he liked me and wanted to dominate me more. That took the edge off my freak out.

I asked him to take the handcuffs off because I need to use my hands. He said "No, I decide what you need". He then placed some nipple clamps on my nipples. I secretly said thank you that they were clover clamps but did not say a word out loud. He asked me to stand up and asked me to spread my legs. I quickly felt a clamp on my cunt lips. I thought, geez, this is weird. But then I felt the weights on both lips stretching them. Sheesh, who wants stretched cunt lips?

Chris sat back down and stared at me, asking if I was happy. Um, at this moment, no i was confused. I asked "why do you want me like this?". He responded that he felt sexual submission is something that I need. Pretty weird for someone to say after not spending much time together. My mind was racing! He could see that I was not present and he just said "Forget everything other than where you are now". He continued," Feel that you have no control, feel like you are aroused, feel like you need to be controlled and just accept it."

I tried to take my brain out of it and just enjoy the pinching of my nipples and the stretching of my cunt lips. He still sat there staring at me. He asked if I really wanted him and I responded yes. He said that I really need to learn what being submissive is about. It isn't just an attitude; it is a way of life.

I smiled as my shoulders, nipples, and cunt lips felt more used than they have in the past 😊. There was something to this lack of control. He decided to take more pictures of me and my arousal. I have never had someone finger me and then look at wet I am. I just tried to accept that this is my new role.