In my last journal entry, I told of how my now-black-owned former girlfriend, Louise, her also black-owned roommate, Lynne, and our shared black dominator, Jerome, had made a big decision on my behalf: They had decided to kill my hope of ever having a so-called normal sex life in a committed relationship with a woman. They were going to proceed next towards this reality by seducing my high-school girlfriend, Emma, and converting her also to huge black cocks as well as take other steps yet to be made known to me. I was both excited and scared by the situation.
While Louise, Lynne and Jerome were primarily motivated by their own enjoyment, they were right. The idea did turn me on. I was excited about soon seeing Emma getting fucked by Jerome's huge dick and seeing her turned into a slut for him like the other two girls--or for any black cocks as Jerome might choose. She had never had sex with me, and the idea of seeing her give it up to this animalistic stranger was really hot.
Very sweetly, my three dominators, as I now thought of them, did have some hesitancy. So they arranged to send me to a sex therapist for evaluation. They wanted to be sure that I would find my new life as satisfying as they believed I would.
So a couple of days after being told my future, Louise gave me my appointment time and the name and address for Dr. K's office. I was really touched by their concern, and a bit relieved as well. It sounded like they had much more in store for me potentially even beyond Emma's conversion, and I was glad to know a professional was to be involved to help make sure this was the right move for me.
Dr. K was a nice looking thirty-something woman. Very business-like in manner, she was short, dark-haired, curvy--quite sexy, truthfully. She had me undress immediately after saying hello. I was wearing my more restrictive penis-cage. She was not surprised but quickly unlocked it. I guess she had a master key or something. She lazily examined my little penis with a few fingers as I stood before her, wearing a mildly repulsed look on her face. I got rock hard immediately.
"Tim, I see you react positively to feelings of humiliation. Interesting." She continued. "Let's get you settled in this chair. I don't really want to handle your tiny little dick much, so I will demonstrate on this plastic penis how I want you to attach these sensors. Then we're going to have you watch some videos as I record and monitor your reactions. OK?"
I nodded and complied, got the sensors attached to my still hard little dick and settled into an easy chair, covered in medical paper, to watch videos. Dr. K proceeded to show me an immensely wide variety of pornographic material: interracial, bi, homosexual, power games, urine, feces, maiming, dismemberment-- a truly huge variety of material. I must have been in that chair for two hours, for some of the material involved story lines to provide context. Dr. K studied her laptop the whole time. My little dick stayed hard at almost everything--other than normal sex between a loving couple, which I guess didn't really surprise me.
When finally the videos were done, Dr. K had me put my clothes back on and sat me down for some guidance. "Tim," she said, "I have some news for you. You need to take this as you will. There is nothing good or bad about it. It is just informational. Well, Louise told me about the lifestyle you have been living as the bottom submissive to Jerome, her and Lynne. My findings are that this has rewired you sexually to a very thorough extent from what would typically be considered within normal ranges. At this point, you are aroused by almost anything other than having a normal relationship with a woman. You need more stimulation than that to be satisfied, and you are also acclimated to being passive, to not having to exert any control or provide any leadership or to taking any leadership risks in sex. That's for starters..."
The doctor continued. "You are especially turned on by situations where you lose power or stature or are humiliated. For you, these are especially erotic. Now, you should also know that when measurements are as strong as yours, these qualities are not very easily changed. In other words, if you were try to have a 'normal' life again, you would probably find that very unfulfilling. However, if you were to permanently be in the role of a humiliated cuckold, like you are now, that could be very stable and fulfilling for you. In other words, you all have my blessing that whatever 'damage'--so to speak--is done, is done At this point, you may as well continue with their plan to debase you. You will feel some twinges of negative feelings, a blend of sadness, melancholy, insecurity and inferiority, but at the same time, you will probably be able to function and you will likely reach a level of profound sexual fulfillment in this manner. You and your so-called friends all have my professional blessing for continuing forward from where you are now. Good luck to you, Tim. I should say that there is some small risk that you will circle inward and downward, but more likely you will be fulfilled. Before you go, I do have something I need you for, however."
The doctor went on to explain that she had anticipated this outcome and in lieu of cash payment had arranged with my dominators--my "masters," really--that I would serve her as an exhibit in her women's group. Dr. K led me into the next room, where about a dozen nice-looking, professionally-dressed thirty-something women were milling about, drinking martinis and chatting with each other. She led me to the center of the room and got everyone's attention.
