I've wanted this for so long. I finally got the courage to find the right domme to help me, met her for an interview, explained what I wanted, what I needed. Oh yes. Needed.
I sit in a cubicle during the day and dream of the time coming soon, soon, and look at my calendar and mark the days. I sit in a cubicle and act demure and petite and smile and think "Just a few more days."
And after searching and interviewing and saying "this is what I want, what I need," the waiting, it's time and I am on the plane, my carry-on case tucked above me, and on the plane I am demure and petite and smile pleasantly.
But I am excited. Oh yes.
I arrive at my hotel, check in, make the call. I've dyed my hair. It's black and short and has a definite Goth look to it. I changed the color of my eyes to a darker, deeper brown. It isn't so much that I changed the outside of me; it's that I am changing the outer part to match the me inside, who is excited.
I dress in an outfit I had only dreamed of, with sheer lacey thigh high hose and half-boots that come just above the ankles, with laces and a stiletto heel, black and wicked looking and wonderful to walk in. I'm wearing a short tight leather skirt, a halter, and a short black leather jacket over that. I look in the mirror and I am excited. I put keys and money in my jacket pockets, but I'm not going to come back until I finish this journey. A nice girl would.
I look in the mirror, and the face shining back at me has black hair and dark eyes. This is not a nice girl. I smile.
My ride is here. The drive seems both too long and too short. The city is different, but I am focusing on what I am about to do. A small party, a trusted few. Others like me. A few guests, rich and voyeuristic. I smile.
When I arrive, I am hustled into a small room where Annie, a woman with thick dark hair, ushers me to a table. She applies more makeup until I no longer recognize my face. I wonder who the slut in the mirror is? Annie puts on wrist cuffs and a collar. She reaches around my waist and fastens a thin silver chain about it. I like how it feels, cool and slinky against my skin. She opens the side of my skirt and pulls it off, tsking.
"Don't wear panties next time!" Before I can say anything, she picks up a pair of scissors and cuts the fabric against my hips. I won't wear those panties again, anyway.
So I have hose and the little half-boots, a jacket. I have a collar and wrist cuffs, and a small fine silver chain around my waist. Can I really do this? I squeak when Annie reaches between my legs. "I want to make sure you're smooth," she says. I am. There is no hair, and the skin is delicate and sensitive. She has long red nails.
We can hear the party in the other room, people talking and laughing. Not many, but enough. I can't believe I'm doing this! Another woman is next to me now, also getting ready. She and I stand while Annie puts vacuum tubes on our nipples and clits. We stand there, not moving, feeling the swelling, while Annie checks on a young man who just arrived. After a time, she returns, wrapping thin threads around the base of each nipple and clit, so we stay swollen and tender. For me, Annie threads a chain through my neck collar, clips my nipples, and attaches each clip to one end of the chain. Every time I move my neck, I feel a slight tug on my swollen nipples. It feels strange and good and I'm getting wet.
I understand about the silver waist chain now: Annie tugs one end of the chain through a slightly larger link, having me to bend over. She clamps the base of my clit, attaches the clamp to the end of the chain, and tells me to stand. The waist chain digs into my waist a little, but it pulls and tightens the pressure on the base of my clit. I have to use a cloth to wipe the inside of my legs.