They had an understanding. Tonight, she wouldn't resist him. He would drive to her apartment; he would come in through the unlocked door; he would find her in bed.
There, a few things were definitely expected. For one, he was going to force his ex-girlfriend to give him a blow job - he was going to mount her face, and treat her like a certain type of girl.
And suddenly it was tonight β very late - and they were both here... together. It was as if he had just appeared in her world on a normal night, and then found her asleep in her bedroom. She was covered beneath her sheets, and in her typical sleep-wear. But there were also a few differences.
The lights were off in the bedroom, but the hallway and living room lights were left on in anticipation of his arrival, and the soft glow made everything look picture-ready. He sat on the side of the bed, alerting her to his presence, and she apparently drifted into consciousness. She probably expected him to simply start using her as he wanted.
She was wearing a blindfold β it was tightly affixed around her head, and covered her eyes and a certain amount of her face. It seemed she had fallen asleep while wearing it. Normally, she would have said something, or at least let a few sounds slip out of her mouth. Even at a time like this, she would have wanted to converse. She would have said something funny, or ironic. It would have made him smile, too...
He remembered that much about her, even after all of the time that had passed: She was the classic extrovert. While he β too often β lurked in the shadows. As a romantically involved couple they couldn't last together, nor did they...
Now, with his careful hands, he found the shopping bag he had brought with him and set to the side, just on the fringes of her bed. Within that bag, were several items he had purchased earlier in the day: lengths of rope; a flimsy fabric top he intended her to wear; a camera; lipstick in a bright shade of red; and a few other odds and ends... He brought two of the items β a pair of high heeled shoes β out of the bag and to her attention. They were to be used just for this night, and perhaps for others that might follow.
With a clear voice, he directed her fingers across the outline and contours of one of the shoes. He asked: "Can you feel that?" She was blindfolded β Yes β but he still wanted her to know this part of it... It was the first time they had talked, in more than a year.
With her fingers intertwined in his, they traced the shape. "Can you feel the little individual bumps on the side and top?" He paused while she considered his description of the shoe and the way it coincided with the information hers fingers relayed back to her... He continued: "Those bumps are sequins attached to sides and top. They catch the light and shimmer and sparkle."
She smiled as she imagined the way the shoes looked.
And she also smiled when she imagined the reasons that he wanted her in that particular variety of high heel. Their fingers stayed intertwined for longer than either of them expected.
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He knew this much: The lights were going to stay on in the other room, so the light cascaded in with that very revealing glow - and he was going to enjoy her.
The shiny little sequins on the high heels were going to reflect and shimmer. He knew that later - as he spread her long legs wide, and then he used her for her best purpose - the shoes were going to stay on and announce their position together, in all meanings of the word.
They had agreed earlier, via emails β this was about sex β and no other word said it as well... He was going to fuck her.
With a shiver, he reacted to the bluntness of the term, even though he was the one who wrote it.
The lights were going to stay on, too, because she wanted to have a memento...
With a little video camera, he was going to film as she sucked his cock. In truth, it was more than just that. He was going to fuck her mouth - just the way she wanted him to... With an iron-fist he was going to hold her hair, and overwhelm her sense of propriety - and she was going to resist him and between gasps tell him "No," because girls weren't supposed to want that sort of thing.
And of course she really DIDN'T want to be treated like that... but then soon the truth slipped out: Fuck my mouth, she wrote. 'I want you to make a video while you fuck my mouth. Don't give me a choice.'
She wasn't on birth control, she had reminded him, so that changed one or two things. This time, he was going to cum in her mouth, and later he was going to cum on her body, and probably on her tits β but not in her beautiful pussy. Oddly, that made it more about love, and less about sex.
His mind returned to the present moment, and he could see that she was imagining the shoes he had bought for her, and the way they looked. "What color is the rest of the shoe?"
"Black," he answered.
She ran her fingers, of her own accord, along the very pronounced and pointed heel, making a little flourish as she noted how tall and thin the heel truly was. "Those are stilettos," she said, as if incriminating him further. "I don't know if I can walk in those," she said. There was a hint of a challenge in her voice.
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Years past, they often played the roles of opposites. He watched; he considered; and he stayed on the fringes. She, on the other hand, actually DID things. She laughed out loud, and always seemed to smile. She actually called friends on the phone β just because - and later went to dinner with them. She walked into a crowded room, and inevitably, every person who caught her eye wanted to be that friend. He reminded himself: It had been more than a year since they last talked, and now - here she was - wondering over her new sex-shoes.
And this time was also different, for other reasons... He was taking a page from her book. He was actually doing something, rather than just thinking about it. In fact, he DID something.
He wrote her a note. He sent it to her via facebook, so it landed with a thud amongst the usual harmless conversations about funny cat videos, and her favorite bands with upcoming concert dates... Perhaps his message found her at the right moment. He said that he wanted to meet her for sex... 'Just sex' - he wrote. Their relationship was long over. She β certainly β had moved on. Even if there was little to move on from...
Still, he went to the store and bought her those shoes β actually two pair of shoes: one pair for one thing, and another pair for a different thing. Both pair looked equally suggestive, even without the insinuations he was going to give them.
Also at the store, in the female 'Beachware' section, he happened across a variety of fishnet top, which was white, stretchy, and clearly meant to be innocently worn over something else. It was hanging on a rack, amongst ordinary sunhats and swimming suits. He bought the fishnet top a size too small for her. He knew this: When she eventually wore that little top, it would show at least as much as it hid.
Yes - It would all look wonderful. SHE would BE wonderful. Especially when her body was also adorned by those shoes, in that half-light and waiting for him. And importantly - while her eyes were covered with a blindfold, so she couldn't see him in the conventional way...