I was afraid this might happenâŠâŠ.why couldnât I just let it go? I created this prison long before they came alongâŠ.I should never have opened my mouth, nor left so many trails behindâŠâŠI miss my life, my friends, and my freedomâŠâŠâŠâŠEveryday I lose more controlâŠâŠeveryday they learn more about me and use it to their advantageâŠ.they have mastered the art of seduction and betrayalâŠâŠâŠ.I have really become a slaveâŠâŠ.
It all started with my own handsâŠ. I was sitting in front of the computer browsing through Female Domination websites, searching for a fix. I had an idea to start writing my own web page that would provide any woman Step by Step instructions to exploit a mans submissive fantasies. I was aroused the entire time that I typed. Before I knew it I was on my seventh page. I saved the document to my file folder, brought myself to an incredible orgasm, and went to sleep. About a week later I printed it out and read over it. It was then that I realized how dangerous the information could be if the wrong woman were to read it. It was a basic blueprint to my uncontrollable fantasy of female domination. I had held nothing back. I explained how deeply rooted and engraved these thoughts had become after the 15 or so years I thought about it. I explained in detail how I was mainly aroused by the thought of being lured into an inescapable trap or predicament by a deviant woman. I even explained how a woman could use her body to mesmerize and distract me from the logic of what she was doing. This was dangerous information, something that should be left within my head. So I immediately deleted it from my computer. However I decided to keep the print out so that I could use it to arouse myself when I jerked off. I kept it in between my mattress for safekeeping.
I had been sleeping with this girl Jane on and off for a few months. She was obsessed with me, but I had no interest in her further than sex. She was a legal assistant and a bit loony. I had convinced her to tie me up a time or two, but she never quite got into it or understood it. She wasnât a supermodel either. She was skinny, with red hair, small tits and long seductive legs.
I was friends with another girl, Lauren that was 31 and modeled for various porn and fetish magazines. She was about 5â 10â with blond hair and a curvatious, voluptuous all American kind of figure. We had been friends for a long time, however I was reluctant to ever tell her about my fantasies because she was such a close friend. On several occasions I had aided in putting her into bondage for some of her photo shoots. It wasnât long before I was trying to convince her that we could get a camera and start our own web site. Maybe even get a digital camera for short streaming videos. She was very interested so we began to do some research. We convinced Jane to do some shots for armature sections in some magazines. Soon, Lauren was persuading me to do the same for a few fetish magazines so that we could make some fast cash. Jane and Lauren were becoming quite close since we were always together working on our new idea.
One night we had all gone out drinking and returned to my Apt. Lauren decided to go home, so Jane and I began to fool around. I was pretty drunk and horny and I was trying to get her to tie me up again. She wasnât in the mood to play games so I decided to show her exactly how much control she has at her fingertips by showing her my entire paper. She read it while I was in the bathroom. When I came out, she was just sort of staring at the floor with the papers turned over beside her. I asked her if something was wrong. She looked up and assured me that nothing was wrong. At this point I just wanted to have sex. I thought maybe she thought I was weird or something. So I just had sex with her and went to bed.
In the morning I went out to the kitchen and found Lauren was already there with Jane eating breakfast. We gathered our film and cameras to go to Janeâs house. She had a nice two bedroom outside of the city. We did most of our shoots there since it was nicer than Laurens apartment or mine.
Once we arrived at her house, Lauren started to take out all of the fetish and bondage gear we had in the closet. Jane suggested that we do my shoots that day since I had been putting it off for so long. I tried to shrug it off again, but I was just out voted.
Lauren and Jane positioned me on the floor in the middle of the basement.
â Do you have any Ideas?â Jane asked me. She exchanged a strange smile with Lauren.
I hesitated for a minute, realizing how awkward they had been towards me all morning. It seemed as if they were kind of ignoring me all morning. Every time I would walk into a room they would stop talking as if I had interrupted some private conversation. My heart started to race as I suddenly remembered showing Jane what I had written while I was drunk last night. In fact, I didnât remember putting it away, nor did I see it on the table in the morning.
âummm, Iâm not sureâ I said as I moved over to the couch. â Maybe we could take some action pictures of me tying one of you two up.â
Jane nodded her head and went over to Lauren and whispered something into her ear. I still wasnât convinced that Jane hadnât said anything to Lauren or shown her, so I was hoping they would agree to my idea just incase.
Deep down inside, I could feel the excitement that was growing just thinking about the two of them dominating meâŠ. But at the same time I was scared that they would actually start to enjoy it and keep me as a slave. Yeah, I thought about being a slave a lot, but I wasnât sure if I could really go through with it.
Billions of âwhat ifsâ were running through my head, yet I was becoming completely aroused. I looked up from my stare to see Lauren and Jane moving a coffee table to the center of the room. Once they had it in position, Jane began to set up the digital video camera on a Tri-pod. Lauren went up stairs. Now was my chance to ask Jane about the paper.
âumm Janeâ I said in an embarrassed kind of voice. âYou didnât tell Lauren about the thing I wrote did you?â
She looked over at me and gave me a reassuring look. â Awww, your so cuteâ she said. â Did you think I had shown her? I guess thatâs why you donât want to be tied up for this. Most days you would jump at the opportunity. I thought something was up.â
âSo you didnât?â I asked again
â Of coarse I didnât tell herâ she replied while getting the ropes, chains and other props out of the box on the floor. âI have never told her about any of the times I tied you to the bed have I?â
I shook my head âNo, I guess I didnât think about that. It was just that I shouldnât have even shown you what I had written. I didnât even remember that I showed you until a few minutes ago. I guess I was just freaked out. I apologize.â As far as I knew she wasnât lying. So I began to help her set up.
A few minutes later, Lauren came down stairs in a little schoolgirl outfit with her hair in pigtails. I sort of laughed at myself. I guess I was still expecting her to come down in some dominatrix outfit. âIâm ready master,â she said with a giggle. âYour not going to hurt me are you?â
I felt relieved now that my secret was safe, but now I was mad that I had not chosen to be tied up. It would give me an experience that I could jerk off to later on that night, plus I would have pictures. âWait, Iâm sorry. I have another idea.â I blurted out. âMaybe I should be the one who gets tied up for these pictures. We always tie you up.â
âMake up your mindâ Lauren said âIâm not going to change outfits all dayâ
âWell, maybe we could have you tie me up in that outfit first.â I suggested, âIt might turn out good. Then we could do another set in a different outfit.â
Jane thought it was a good idea. She suggested that Lauren tie me down to the coffee table while she went upstairs to get dressed for the next set. She explained to us that the new digital video camera could just run while she was gone. Then we could go back later and captures stills off of it on the computer.
Lauren agreed so I walked over and sat on the coffee table. Jane set the camera to record while exchanging a big smile with Lauren. âTry to make him completely immobilized.â She said as she started to go upstairs. âDo you think she can Eric?â
âProbably not â I replied âBut I will act completely helpless for the picturesâ
âTake off all your clothes and lay on your backâ Lauren said with a smile. âI donât get to say that oftenâ
I sort of hesitated for a second.