Watching from over the top of her paper Dina sighs, even as the little one drops to the floor for the millionth time. "Thank the lords for diapers providing padding," she thought.
Adina watched as Leslie started to take her first steps, tears threatened to spill as she was so proud of her little one. Though in the back of her mind she wished that her wife could be there with her watching this moment with her. Then again she also knew that she was always with them, no matter what.
It had nearly been two years since her wife had passed, a day would not pass without Dina thinking of her. Since her daughters birth though, Dina had thrown herself into raising the child. To the point she took up working at home, this way she didn't need to hire anyone to watch Leslie. Though she knew she would have to get out some time soon. Even though Melissa would stop in often to check on them, it wasn't the same. She was in need of adult conversation and attention, before she started to go crazy. Perhaps even it was time to start dating again. Dina knew that her wife would not want her to be alone for the rest of her life.
The thought of entering the dating scene again however, freaked the hell out of her. Not like the last time, Leslie had taught her that no matter what love still lives on even when one doesn't wish it too. Leslie had opened her mind to a lot of things and Dina knew that things happened for a reason. That there was someone out there in the world that would love her and her child for who they were. The question was more, who and how to find them. One thing was for sure, sitting at home and working was not the answer.
Dina didn't want to jump right back into the D/s lifestyle right away. Still everything was so fresh, perhaps going out to a few local bars. Eventually she would work her way up to going out to clubs then enter the lifestyle again. In the time since her wife's passing she had not been so social and felt uneasy about meeting people again. The safe bet was to take it slow, going back to work would help in those matters. Tomorrow was a new day for sure, taking everything in stride, Dina tried to convince herself as she laid Leslie down for the night and curled in her own bed.
Indeed tomorrow was a new day as Dina packed what she may need for the day. Going back to the office after so much time off, it left a frightful feeling deep within her stomach. Though as she placed a picture of baby Leslie in her brief case and took a breath it calmed some. Leaning down she places a kiss upon the child's forehead and spoke briefly to the nanny that was hired before heading out the door and to work for the first time in over two years.
As the sunshine inches its way into Dina's bedroom window, she was already finished dressing and had everything ready for the sitter for Leslie. Taking a slow breath she looked at herself in the mirror again, admiring the image. She had forgotten how she looked in dress slacks and a blouse. Still there was a little 'baby fat' that she had gained from giving birth to Leslie, still in all she didn't look to bad she thought. The door bell rang breaking her out of her daze as she moved to answer the door. Opening the door a smile grew as she leans over and hugs her mother, who else to baby-sit then grandma. With little chat about where everything was Dina kissed Leslie then was out the door for her first day back to work. This routine continued along with every other weekend Dina's mom would take Leslie for the weekend, leaving on Friday and coming back on Monday afternoon when Dina got home from work.
Most weekends without Leslie was spent cleaning the cottage, catching up on the work she seemed to always pile up. Though this weekend she decided to go out, she had earned it for closing a big business deal at work that week. Dressing in a pair of tight blue jeans and a black silk like tank top she set out for the city to meet up with Melissa and some friends from work at a local club.
The club ended up being great, though it was a bit on the fetish side. Dina had figured that much would happen when Melissa had asked her to come. There was a couple within the group though that Dina just couldn't keep her eyes of them. Though she kept it low keyed as much as possible, there was just something about them. Specially the woman, she had looked so much like Leslie but was also so different as well. Shaking her head she tried to keep her attention back on Melissa for the night.
As the night died down Melissa walked Dina back her car, helping her into the passenger side before moving to the drivers side. Right away Dina noticed they where not heading back to the cottage, but rather Melissa's place. She decided not to say anything for she felt safe with Melissa. Though it was Melissa that broke the silence as they pulled up to her townhouse.
Stepping inside the house Melissa turned on Dina, pressing her back against the door and leaning down slowly. Lips just a breath apart as green eyes met dark brown ones. Dina could feel her heart racing, the two hadn't been together since Leslie was alive. Melissa whispered softly against her lips.
"I know this is hard for you, but you need to let go some. Find your safety net, being locked away for a little over two years is not healthy pet. You know my rules and will follow them for this weekend. Not because I will not take no for an answer, but because you want too, because you need too."
