Trouble was, she liked being fucked.
Liked being fucked hard, by men who didn't try to be nice. Nice men were sweet, but they couldn't fuck her right - not unless she could make them angry - sometimes this worked.
She had found out early about herself - knew then that she was going to be a slut.
She loved everything about it, but most of all, she liked being filled, occupied by hot, insistent and demanding maleness. She came to appreciate her petite build, rather than regret it - no bad thing being small, when you loved being manhandled, being lazily overpowered, grabbed, controlled.
Invaded.
Fucked.
The problem was not letting it get out of hand, not ending up as a street whore, or getting stuck in some perverted relationship - she never fell in love with them, never wanted to, never saw the men as anything other than vehicles for satisfying her needs, even if they did dominate her - it was because she wanted them to - often because she had told them to in words of very few syllables.
She had quickly become bored with boys her own age, then done the same with lecturers. At 20 she had found the city bars and clubs, and middle-aged bankers and lawyers - well off, well-dressed, testosterone fuelled, gym-honed, arrogant, greedy.
She learned how obvious to be, how awkward to be, always juggling the fine line between being too slutty (the men thought they had standards) and not getting fucked at all.
It was hit-and-miss, though. Too many of them were too friendly, made love to her. It was sometimes sweet, sometimes even nice, but she only got the real buzz she needed every now and then.
Then she had met Tom. Tom was a little older, more experienced. He didn't fuck her the first time, but made her pleasure herself for him, telling him what she was thinking about, watching her. Lazy, self-satisfied.
Her heart had felt involved as it had never done before - a strange feeling; not love, for sure, but something, something...
He saw her as she was, she understood, and he liked it. She felt she was melting as she came for him, an almost out-of-body experience.
He told her where to be, the following evening, and when, and how to dress (low cut mid-length dress with a-line skirt, loose shoulder straps, tight bodice, no underwear, hold-ups, her highest heels). He was direct, and no nonsense about it, and she loved it.
She got there early, fended off some good prospects, all but ran to him when she saw him, only to falter; he wasn't alone, but with with two other men, one older, one younger. They were looking at her frankly, bold.
Maybe these were friends, or colleagues - they'd get rid of them soon, she told herself, fixated on Tom.
But then the older one was looking at her, quite directly, and spoke first, his accent very posh indeed;
"Tom says we can all fuck you. Maybe hurt you a little. That you want it."
She freezes, stunned. Men have spoken to her like this before, of course. She's always slapped them, or frozen them out, or withered them with a sharp retort. But these are Tom's friends.
And - Tom? Wasn't he somehow special? Didn't he like her?
She knows that she is visibly confused, feels just how weak, how vulnerable this makes her; she's not used to it - usually she is only weak when alone with the man, in the throes of being fucked, but in social situations she likes to be in control - of herself at the least.
But now, these three men are looking at her as they might look at a bought-and-paid-for whore, and it's devastating.
She looks at Tom, helpless, only to find him grinning at her - a hard, challenging grin, with no shred of the understanding she had thought she'd seen the night before.
And then it hits her; Tom is right - she feels it in her groin; what the guy says is true, she realises. They can all fuck her. And maybe hurt her, too, if they want. Suddenly she wants it. Really wants it.
Tom is watching her, sees the change in her face as she takes this revelation on board, as she accepts that tonight something different is going to happen - that she is going to be used like a whore, rather than have rough sex as a one-night stand, and his grin widens; he's played her right.
She gets it, that this has been planned by Tom, that he does, really, know her. That it isn't that he likes her (or even, perhaps that she likes him) - but that they really know each other - see each other for real. And that this gives him power over her, and makes her weak; and she gives in, aware of a glory in the surrender, a release; finally, a man who knows exactly to what to do with her.
She finds herself blushing (she hasn't blushed about sex for years), feeling weak, vulnerable, dominated. The feeling she likes about being fucked when it goes the way she likes it. He can do it to her, just like this, in public, in front of strangers.
She's wet between the legs; her knees almost buckle, and she finds herself giggling, weakly, looking, with a question in her eyes, at each of them in turn, eyes wide, lips parted, her breathing rapid and deep.
They're all watching her, casual, but studying her, still waiting for a response.
And her giggles dry up. How to speak? What to say? The silence becomes oppressive to her, although they seem completely relaxed.
Her voice is low and throaty as she finally manages to say;
"Yes. Yes, that's right. I .. I .. I do .. want it."