Abruptly the vibrations kicked in, her eyes snapped open and reflexively she clamped her teeth down on silicone. The test was about to begin.
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Their first two dates were pretty boring, to be honest. A decent restaurant, an acceptable bottle of red wine, a lot of meaningless small-talk, very little real conversation, and an uninspired kiss goodnight. She wasn't even sure why she agreed to a third. He wasn't overly attractive, average height, more than few extra pounds on an early 40's dad-bod frame, but there was a familiarity and comfort in his face, like someone you've just met that you've known for years. Their dialogue, albeit mostly superficial, was effortless and warm but there was a light behind his eyes that sparked at times. Suzie could tell he was holding something back, something not-quite-dangerous that would sometimes peek through mid-sentence when he dropped his guard. "Either way," she thought as she curved a touch of mascara on her thick, black eyelashes, "it'll be a nice meal."
Suzie stepped back from the mirror, took down her ponytail, and checked her minimal makeup, her shoulder-length slightly curly brown hair framing her face well. White lace panties hugged her ample hips, a triangular island of pubes puffing out the middle like a pillow, and the matching bra covered the bottom two-thirds of her natural C-cup breasts as faint and bumpy arcs of light brown areolas peeked out over the edges. Dark tattoos, all black, peppered her pale skin in a pattern that seemed only halfway by design. They all meant something to her, of course, but even as she scanned each in the reflection she could only take them in all-together, a constantly evolving tableau on a five-foot-three canvas. Turning as she swiveled her hips she admired her fit curves, the product of healthy living, sure, but also of acceptance in herself and her desires. She hadn't just embraced her mid-thirties, she relished them.
Clothed that night in just a pencil skirt, a cropped knit jumper and a few accessories, she gave herself another once-over before heading out the door and smirked. "No one can tell it's me," she whispered to herself, taking a deep breath to calm her nerves. Walking down the busy street in Montreal, she blended in with the crowd, all bundling up their jackets tight, fall turning quickly to winter. Even with the septum piercing or the little bits of uncovered ink, she could be your kid's elementary teacher, the barista at the coffee shop on the corner, or the quiet one at the end of your row of cubicles at work. In truth she did hold a normal job, a nine-to-fiver through and through, but it was thoughts of how she spent her personal time that made her shiver with excitement as she made her way to the restaurant.
When Suzie arrived, her date greeted her warmly and they sat at a two-top near the bar area of the upscale establishment. Immediately they fell into a conversation about something irrelevant and although it was genial and natural, this time it began to wear on her, the mask of his pleasant demeanour now frustrating her. She tried changing the topics, veering into controversial subjects or politics, but nothing was fazing him, the fire behind his eyes rarely coming to the forefront. A few glasses of wine had gone down smoothly by the time the delicious entrΓ©es were finished and dessert was ordered. Suzie had lost patience.
"So, what are your plans for the rest of the weekend?" he asked as the black forest cake and two spoons arrived at the table.
"Honestly?" she replied, looking down at the table, pausing as if to decide whether to speak the words. 'Fuck it,' she thought, this would be their last date anyway. After a moment, she looked him in the eyes and answered flatly, "I'm probably going to film myself rubbing my clit until I orgasm, then post it online." She stared defiantly at him and smiled, her cheeks hot and flush. Surprisingly, he didn't react at all, he just stared back with a devilish smirk on his lips.
"Is that all?" he questioned further without missing a beat, tiny flames starting to dance behind his pupils as he took a bite of cake nonchalantly.
"No," she replied, picking up the other spoon and doubling down, "I'll likely stretch out my ass with a big toy for a bit too." Suzie took a spoonful of chocolate and pretended to savour it, never breaking eye contact. The nervous heat from her cheeks was moving through her chest and down into her belly.
"Hmmm yes. You're going to use the big black one. The purple dildo is far too easy for your ass now." The fire now raged behind his still eyes, locked in to watch her expression.
Suzie stammered and looked away first. The waitress came around with the cheque and card reader. He continued.
"Start with the orange butt plug. It must be heavy because I can tell it really makes you work to hold it in." Another bite of cake. Suzie was dumfounded. "It's cute that it makes you piss when it comes out, the pressure must be tremendous." The server was trying to look away, but the women met eyes briefly and mortification washed over them both. He continued his gaze, breaking momentarily to insert his card and type his PIN, unfazed by the added participant to the conversation. "You struggle with the black one because it gets so wide at the base." Passing the machine back to the waitress he added, smiling, "You'll get there, though, you've done a great job stretching your hole so far."
Involuntarily Suzie's pelvic muscles clenched tight and she shrunk down in her seat shuddering. The white-hot embarrassment that flooded her was settling between her legs as she tried to think of something, anything, else than the scenes he was replaying in her mind. Her asshole puckered and twitched as she attempted to forget about the nervous, aching pressure of it expanding around her silicone toy. The server mumbled some unintelligible thank you and scurried away, beet red.
"How?" she wondered quietly into her lap; she had been so careful. It had been just over 4 years since she had sloughed off her demure love life and embraced her sexual reawakening. Creating the persona of Suzie online, she perused porn sites, joined sex-positive chat groups, started visiting erotic clubs in the city, and even started her own spicy content page. She explored her own sexuality and pushed the boundaries of what turned her on, but she was careful: she never used her real name, never disclosed her location, and she never showed her face on camera without her signature lace balaclava. Fear and shame and lust now swirled around inside her. She had been meticulous about it, so... how?
"I thought I recognized a couple tattoos that peeked out, though mostly it was a guess," he answered, the wicked light behind his eyes softening a bit, "right up until the end." He ate another bite of cake and grabbed the overcoat off the back of his chair. "There's an Uber pulling up outside ready to take us to your place, or we can part ways and forget this ever happened." Standing up and circling around to her chair he crouched over beside her huddled frame. "Thank you for finally letting me see what was under your mask," he whispered, then standing and extending his hand out, "now let me show you what's under mine."