Have you ever had those moments in life where you felt particularly invincible? Those days where you wake up and feel untouchable, powerful, God-like? That happens to me every now and again. Now, I know what you're thinking..."But Kathryn...isn't that every day for you?" Not necessarily, my friends. Actually, I would say about 80% of the time, I'm not fully "on," if you will. That is to say that, over half the time, I don't feel like doing what I do but I eventually get into it and then it becomes fun again. The other 20% of the time, it's a deeply rooted need that I feel. I feel so powerful some times that I just need to take it out on someone else. To rule them. To overpower them. To control them. Those are the times that make me realise that I am truly living my dream. It just so happens that I had one of those days very recently. Sit back and I'll tell you the story of what happened to Andy Larson.
I originally met Andy through, go figure, a partner at one of my old law firms. He had just opened a practice of his own and we all went out for drinks one night to celebrate his success. He had a few too many and stumbled over to me with the kind of confidence only scotch can provide and, though half of it was slurred, I'm pretty sure he was hitting on me. Though I was blatantly refusing his advances, he pressed on. Now, there's only so much of that nonsense I can take so I decided to just go ahead and be my nasty self that I work so very hard to suppress.
"So'm...what're...what do you...what are you into?" he had asked, barely able to stand upright. I decided to be smart.
"Murders and executions," I said, staring at him blankly.
"Haaaa," he said as he pointed his finger at me. "I...had a friend who's was into mergers and ackisishuns, too!"
I smiled sweetly. "So you got the reference. Good for you."
He said, "Look. Y'don't haffta be nice t'me if you don't want to but I's just thought...I just thought....'cos you're very pretty and I would like very much for you to just....tell me to shut up."
I raised an eyebrow. "You want me to tell you to shut up?"
He slowly nodded yes and said, "Or you could just slap me and then you could...you could do that."
I smiled sweetly again and said, "Andy, trust me...I would love nothing more than to slap you for the way you're acting right now but you're drunk and I think you need to call a cab or something, all right?"
He nodded in agreement and said, "Okay, Lisa...I'll call cab now. I can do that."
I laughed...but then my mind started reeling. You know how alcohol is like truth serum for some people? I started to wonder if Andy was seriously asking me to beat him. I shrugged it off, though. I mean...he was drunk...no. He was obliterated and, moreover, he had no inclinations, at least that I was aware of, that I was actually leading a double life of sorts that included being a Domme. Well, the next day after the party, I walked into my office and saw a bouquet of black roses on my desk. Intrigued, I picked them up and there was a note attached. It said:
I was serious. Call me. Andy
So, somewhere along the line, he had found out about me. I don't know why I wasn't shocked and a little scared but he obviously had no intentions of ruining my career and he never even brought it up. So I called him. We talked, set something up and have had lovely sessions since then...I'd say about ten. The wonderful thing about Andy is that I don't necessarily push him. He pushes me. He never wants the same thing twice and is always looking for the next big thrill. So I knew when I started to feel my crazy God-complex power trips come on, he was the one to call. This particular day when I was feeling it especially bad, I already had his number dialed and I waited patiently for him to answer.
"Hello?"
"Andy. It's Lisa."
"Lisa! How've you been?"
I didn't have time for chit chat. "How've you been? Bad?" I know, I know...cliche. Desperate times, however, call for desperate measures.
He chuckled. "Can't say that I've been the most perfect little boy. Is someone in need of someone to abuse?"
"My schedule is open."
"Mine, too. 8:00?"
"Sounds fine. So what shall be on the menu tonight?"
"Hmm," he said, somewhat breathlessly, "Not sure. Push me, Lisa."
"Andy, darling, I always do. You mean just leave everything up to me and no matter what I come up with, that's fine?"
"I can agree to that," he said.
The wheels were already spinning so fast they were starting to come undone. "I don't know if you want to do that, Andrew. I can be pretty mean."
He laughed and said, "I'll see you at 8. Don't disappoint."
As soon as he hung up, so did I. I'll pause here a moment and explain why I hadn't asked Daniel to help calm me down. Daniel and I love each other very much; however...how can I put this... If Salvador Dali painted with watercolors, it would still be beautiful, no doubt, but it wouldn't be a Dali. He painted with oil and his images were stunning. I can do all these things to Daniel but it wouldn't come out right. He knows this and he's okay with it. When I want a sensual bondage experience, of course he's the first person I think of. When I'm out for blood, it has to be somebody else and Andy was a most exquisite pincushion. That being said, I had to get planning.
I know he's always looking for the next big thing and, as it turned out, I was starting to research different forms of darker, edgier play. One thing that always stood out to me was a good interrogation scene but I could never instigate one 'cos I always thought I'd feel stupid asking someone fake questions about something they didn't even do. I began to think about it more, however, and realised that I wouldn't necessarily have to ask him questions about stuff that he didn't do...maybe I could extract things out of him about how much he actually liked being put through certain torments during the interrogation. Now the wheels in my head were heating up, the teeth were grinding down and the whole machine was falling apart. I had to get to work.
The first thing I wanted to do was set up my dungeon so it looked somewhat like a crude interrogation room. I shortened one of the chains I had hanging from the ceiling and attached a light from an old lamp I had so it was just a dangling bulb swinging overhead. Then, I found two metal folding chairs and set them facing each other. Even though I had a lot intended as far as use for that chair went, I didn't find its simplicity inhibiting at all. I was creative enough. If I really wanted someone to stay put, there were more ways than one to accomplish that. Then, after a quick jaunt to the local craft store for my next installment, I attached black fabric around the perimeter of the chairs to make a room within a room. I went to the middle of it and sat in, what would be, my chair and drank it all in. It was stark, simple, bare and frightening. It was perfect. I wasn't even so sure that Andy would know where he was, which was even better. Now came the really tricky part. How do I get Andy down here without seriously violating his trust or, even worse, getting arrested? I could use chloroform, halothane, a light animal tranquilizer...but I wasn't sure that even Andy could handle that. He asked me to push him...I'm not so sure that involved involuntary drugging. I had a choice to make, though, and I thought to play it on the safe side. I had to call him. I locked up the dungeon and made my way upstairs.
Sitting in my office, I flipped through my Rolodex and found his number. I hesitated a bit because I really don't ever do this but I needed to make sure what I wanted to do was totally okay with him. He picked up after two rings.
"Hello?"