Keannadiid came for me first, as he always did in my dreams. Maybe that's because I'd seen him around school, interacted with him. Maybe that's because we'd been fighting face to face when I shot him.
Of all the attackers at the cabin three years ago, his was the only face I remembered, the other men I'd killed were nameless, faceless silhouettes in my mind. But the security guard, Nina's cousin, the man with the access to cameras and computers and the desire to use them against me, he stood out.
And he always came for me first in my nightmares.
I pushed the drill forward, the bit whining and thunking as it drove the last screw home, and I stepped away, panting. The day was hot, and Jessie and I had been wrapping up the bedroom remodel. That was the last piece of drywall in the ceiling. Whole room walled in a day, tomorrow we'd plaster, and then put the floor in.
We stepped back and looked around the space, gray-green with unfinished wallboard. "Hard to believe this is gonna be our room," Jessie whispered.
I winced as I peeled the sling over my head, then put my arm around her. "Ours. And we built it."
She turned to look up at me, and mirth and sentimentality fought for dominance in her eyes. "When you showed me the house you bought, I was skeptical. Very skeptical. Now... Now I can see what you were thinking. This is gonna be our home..."
I leaned down and kissed her forehead. "Didn't think you'd ever end saying that, did you?"
"Nope. You either?"
I almost said "Not here, not with you," but I fought down the memory of Tori's beautiful, smiling face. "No, I didn't." I looked at my watch. "It's like seven at night. Let's go get some subs from Ashley's, and then I want to stub outthat sink before we call it a day, ok?"
"You're the boss, boss."
I bumped into Keannadiid as we walked out of the bedroom. He said "You cannot see the tapes" and I wrestled with him for control of the AK47 in his hands. My arm burned with exertion, but I wrenched it from his grasp, hit him in the face with it, and kicked his unconscious body away as he fell. "Take my Sig from my holster. On me."
Jessie wasn't behind me. I looked around for her, and I wasn't in my bedroom anymore. I was in a deserted gas station. Outside, it was night, and lightning strobed constantly, wind whirled little dust devils around the empty parking lot.
"Gary, where are you?" Jessie screamed from nearby. "Please, I need you! Help! GARY!"
I dropped the AK as fire lit up the nerves in my right arm and I looked over to see it dangling useless by my side, shredded meat and bone above the elbow, streaming blood. I felt faint as my heart pumped my life away, and I crashed into a display of magazines as I staggered towards the back of the store. They all had pictures of staircases on the covers.
Somewhere nearby, Jessie screamed in terror.
I woke up, heart pounding out of my chest and my right arm burning with unholy pain. I didn't recognize the dark surroundings, and panic blew through my mind when my hand didn't fall on my Sig on the nightstand. Fuck, we'll do this old school. I rolled off the bed, going for the knife in my pants pocket. No pants.
Light exploded into my world from behind, and I raised a hand to shield my eyes as I turned. A shadowed figure I didn't recognize, dark against the bright reached for me, and I dragged them down off the bed by their arm, and pulled them back to front. I got my forearm over their throat and locked in the choke with a hand behind their head, falling backward and pinning their legs with my own.
"Gary...Gary... It's me..." a little voice fought for breath and speech, swatted ineffectually at my face.
McKenna.
Dammit.
I let go immediately and helped her up. She rubbed her throat furiously and I tilted her chin up delicately, looked at the skin there. "You're fine. No marks. I'm sorry. Really, really, sorry."
The small, naked woman reached out and put her hand on my shoulder, pulled it away immediately when she saw me flinch. My arm burned. "Another nightmare?"
I hunted up Tylenol in the bathroom, drank from the faucet. "Yeah. Three years ago and then that fucking gas station in Wyoming."
She shuddered. "Anything I can do for you?"
I shut off the light and lay down, tried to will my hammering heart to slow. "I think I've already hurt you enough for one night."
"Nothing permanent." McKenna propped herself up on an elbow on the bed beside me.
"You wanna talk about what we did? Cuz I...I feel like we should."
She shrugged. "I think I've said this before, but what's the to talk about? You spanked me and then fucked me. Several times. Mouth, pussy, and ass. We both had fun. It was great sex. End of story."
"I was drunk and angry and I used you."
"I helped get you drunk, and I asked you to use me. Why are you overthinking this?"
"Cuz I don't usually get that rough with someone not Jessie. And never when I'm not in my right mind."
McKenna scooted closer, put her hand on my chest. "We both got what we wanted last night. There's nothing to feel bad or weird about. If anything, I'm gonna try and come back for a fucking like that at least once a month when we get back to Milwaukee."
I looked at her in shock, and she giggled, nuzzled my nose with hers. "Relax Gary, I'm not falling for you. I'm not gonna try to steal you from Jessie. I don't want to join a harem. I'd just like to join you guys in bed occasionally, get worn out like that again. That was fun."
"Talk to Jessie. If we're still together, I'm sure she'll be ok with it."
"Ok. Goodnight, Gary."
I lay awake a long time, staring at the ceiling, with McKenna's head snuggled into my neck. I didn't want to go back to sleep. I didn't want to imagine what I would find there.
McKenna rose well before me, and I saw light flare briefly in the bathroom, heard the toilet flush, heard the shower run. I briefly considered joining her, but decided against it. Instead, I watched dawn rise over the mountains, the city lights slowly turning on in the predawn blue.