This story contains descriptions of nursery discipline and humiliation. If these are of no interest to you then I suggest you don't read any further.
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Her look told me I shouldn't have said it. She let the astonishment hover on her face for a few seconds, then shook her head.
'You're telling me what you will and won't do?'
I hesitated, unsure whether it was a statement or a question
'I asked you a question.'
'Yes Ma'am, sorry Ma'am. It's just...arrr...nappies...I hate them!' I blurted out.
'I know you do. Which is even more reason why you're going to be wearing them all this weekend.'
'Please...I...'
'Excuse me!' she said in that firm, steady voice that always pulled me up instantly. I swallowed nervously.
'I've had just about enough of you and your difficulty in adjusting to being a sissybaby.' The term hung in the air, tormenting me as always.
'You obviously need yet another lesson in obedience, I can see that.'
Mistress Rose's rule regarding wearing a nappy was simple and explicit: a nappy never came off until it was used. I could resist and delay filling it for as long as I liked but that little display of resistance on my part ultimately made no difference.
And whether it was number ones or twos -or both- would be spelt out to me each time she swaddled me in one.
I hated it, hated the humiliation of soiling myself and then being made to wear the sopping, soggy mess for whatever length of time she decided on.
'Follow me.'
We walked down the hallway, entering the Punishment Room.
She pointed to the tiled section of the floor, adjacent to the sink and tub.
'Floor. In the position for a cleansing.'
I automatically obeyed despite knowing how cold the tiles would be against my bare skin. I shivered as I adjusted my body, right side down, right leg bent, left leg over it, head resting on my outstretched right arm, left arm bent forward.
I heard the cupboard open and close behind me, then the tap running, something being squeezed, my dread deepening. But I had no one to blame but myself. After all, a simple rule is a simple rule. And the simplest rule was this: Mistress Rose expected total obedience.
'If I didn't know you better, I'd think you were a masochist. After all, you seem to love punishment.'
A statement, not a question. I bit my lip, aware that her punishments were always designed to find their way deep into my submissive psyche.
'Are you a masochist, sissybaby?'
My mouth was dry, terribly dry. I swallowed before responding.
'No Ma'am' I said quietly.
'Well, you'll just have to endure the punishment without any pleasures then!" she said with a mocking laugh.
I heard the rubber gloves being snapped over her hands. I sighed and closed my eyes, trying to block out what was coming. My bare cheeks were parted and the lubricated nozzle entered my rear.
'I'll return in a few minutes.' I felt the warm liquid enter me as Mistress Rose passed out the door.
The enema seemed to go on for an age, with more liquid entering my bowels than on any of her previous cleansings. But perhaps that was my agitated state of mind running away with my thoughts.
She came back in and placed some things on the floor behind me, then I heard the run of fine chains going through the ceiling eyelets.
I heard her squeeze the bag hanging off the ceiling hook. 'A fine mess this is going to make, I assure you.' Of that I had little doubt.
I was an idiot, I should have just bit my tongue in the first place, put up with it again for another night...and dirty morning.
I was a sissy, and wanted desperately to be a good sissy for Mistress. But my notion of being a good sissy had never extended to being a sissybaby. Mistress Rose thought otherwise. And that was what she was training me to understand. That, and being obedient, in every possible way.
Six weeks under her rules, six weeks where I found myself in nappies several times. I took a deep breath and swore that after tonight I was going to accept being put through nappy discipline. Because that's what she wanted to subject me to at times.
The liquid stopped flowing and the nozzle was withdrawn in one quick movement. My bowels felt full though not yet uncomfortable.
'Stand up and turn and face me.' I did as I was told.
'Stand here, legs straddling this, arms out in front of you.' I moved over to where she pointed.
A large stainless-steel bowl lay on the tiles just behind the floor eyelets.
She placed a babyish, knitted fluffy pink cardigan on me, followed by matching bonnet and mitts. An oversized dummy was popped in my mouth: the ties hanging from its sides were done up at the back of my neck.
'Arms up, over your head.' Cuffs went around the mitts and were then secured to the eyelet above me. 'Almost done.'