CW: this story focuses on a woman exploring her dominant side and includes cock and ball torture among other things that might be intense to read. This is NOT a depiction of a healthy, communicative BDSM relationship so don't look for that here!
If you preferred my writing about women enjoying submission, don't worry, we'll get back there ;)
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A few weeks after my night in the viewing room it all started to seem like a dream.
When I first came back to real life I had been filled with a warm feeling of satisfaction. For a few days I had basked in the glow of how great that night had been.
But in the weeks since, a gnawing desire for more had crept into my mind and body. I had called up a couple of the guys I sometimes saw and they had come over as requested and fucked me well. They'd be courteous before hand while we caught up, dominant in bed, and sweet to me after, just like I always used to like. And although I could still get off, and although their nice bodies and sexual stamina still drove me wild, those nights weren't quite satiating me anymore.
That night in the viewing room while playing with the other man, my pathetic toy, I had discovered a new desire in myself. And although I still loved submitting to powerful cocks and hungry men that fucked me senseless, I was starting to spend a lot more time day dreaming about making men submit to me.
While laying in bed at night new visions started to fill my mind. I imagined squeezing cocks till they bulged but never letting them come. I pictured needy faces contorted with pain, shame, and desire. Alone in my room, touching myself, I could almost hear the sounds of whimpering men begging for me.
At first I tried to ignore these new fantasies. I had a busy schedule and a regular enough sex life that I had been satisfied with. I didn't want to have to go out of my way to explore something new. But after two straight weeks of falling asleep to visions of men tied up and submitting to me it was time to admit that this was something I wanted.
The question then became how to go about pursuing these new sexual experiences. Before, I'd always had a type and had known how to find sexual partners I was compatible with. I preferred to meet people in real life instead of dating on the internet. Now, the thought of posting something like "femdom looking to play with you," on a kink app made my skin crawl.
I decided I would just have to adjust the men I was scoping for in public. I had always ignored and brushed off submissive seeming types that I caught pining over me. Before now it had never seemed attractive. For the first time, I resolved to look at the men around me differently.
A couple days after settling on my decision I stepped out of my apartment door and nearly ran into someone in the hallway. It was my neighbor from a few doors down. We'd lived next to each other for a couple years and I'd often caught him gawking at me in the elevator or when we passed each other in the hall. I'd never given him any thought before.
That day in the hall though, something changed. He jumped away from me coming out of the door like I was a fire that might burn him. Flushing bright red he looked down at his feet muttering, "Sorry, excuse me," before turning and quickly walking back towards his apartment.
He was taller than I'd ever noticed before. And it occurred to me then that if I was looking for someone malleable, someone who might be willing to submit to anything I asked while almost begging for it to continue, it could be him.
That night as I cooked dinner I thought back to my brief run in with the neighbor. I remembered all the times that I'd caught him staring at my chest through my pajama t-shirt or gazing at my legs in a pair of shorts. It was easy to imagine him submitting to me. I could picture him getting down on his knees and crawling to me if I told him to.
I started to wonder what sort of body he might be hiding behind his lanky limbs and messy haircuts. What was his cock like? And what would it look like covered in spit and straining for me? I had to turn the heat down on dinner and go to my room to touch myself at the thought.
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Night One
I hadn't exactly made a plan for how to proceed with the neighbor. When I looked at the situation too directly I felt a bit hot and embarrassed at the thought of propositioning him. After ignoring the poor man for a couple of years it felt strange to now find myself thinking so much about him.
One Saturday evening I was running to catch the elevator and found that he was already inside, holding the door for me. Again I was struck by how tall he was. His eyes roved over my body quickly, before adjusting to stare squarely at the floor.
"Hi," he said, barely audible, with his eyes trained down.
All at once, my conflicted feelings from the week melted away. I was assured and in control. This pitiful man would be lucky to have my attention.
I turned to him. "Hi. How are you?" I asked.
With that the door opened on our floor and he bolted from the elevator tossing a muddled "fine thanks" over his shoulder as he left.
Emboldened, I strode calmly from the elevator and back to my apartment. Commitment to my loose plan blossomed inside me. I decided then: I would proposition him that night before my resolve faded.
When I got back to the apartment I poured a glass of wine and ran a bath. As I lounged in the hot water I pictured my neighbor's flustered face contorted in pain and grimacing with pleasure. I imagined making him look me in the eyes instead of staring at the floor.
I ran my hands along my body in the soapy water and reveled in the warm feelings of arousal and anticipation I had stirred up.
How fun,
I mused,
to turn a quiet Saturday night into something to look forward to!
After getting out of the bath I put on my short, silky bathrobe and considered what to wear. After a moment, I decided that the robe was perfect on its own. I didn't want to spend too long trying to look any particular way for him and I figured a shock would be a good place to start.
Just before leaving I decided to slip on the black heels I'd worn on the night in the viewing room. It wouldn't hurt to bring some of the good luck from that night with me. After looking myself over in the mirror, I took one last gulp of wine and set out down the hallway.
When I knocked on his door I heard movement inside, as if someone was coming up to check the peephole, and then silence. After a minute I steeled myself and knocked again. I'd already come this far.
Finally he opened the door and looked at me like he'd seen a ghost.
I stepped past him into the room without bothering to ask to come in. For years I'd lived down the hallway from this man and I'd never seen the inside of his place. It was tidy and sparsely furnished in gray and navy blue. A bachelor pad.
After looking around for a moment I turned back to him.
"Can we talk?" I asked. "I have a proposition for you."
He was fidgeting with his hands then, looking nervous. He took a deep breath before responding. He even looked up at me as he said, "sure, we can talk."
I looked back at him, a bit impressed, as he fought to hold my gaze for a moment before darting his eyes back down along my body to the floor.
Now it was my chance to be a bit nervous, although I was determined not to show it. I hadn't come here to hedge, I'd come here to be direct.
Without knowing quite where I was going I opened my mouth and started talking. "You're attracted to me and no matter how you've tried to hide it I know. So, I'm here to offer you a chance to get fucked by me. Maybe in an ongoing way if I decide that I like it. I'm going to give you a choice right now. Would you like to learn more or would you like me to leave? This is the only chance you're going to get."
As I'd spoken his eyes had darted around the room, flicking between my body, the floor, and the door. Again he took a deep breath and met my gaze as he said,
"I would like to know more."
I hadn't been sure what to expect but I figured this was the moment to dive in and see where things could go. I didn't just want to talk, I wanted to know for sure whether he was up for what I really wanted. And if he laughed and rejected me, fine, my ego would survive.
I stepped close to him so that our chests were nearly touching. Up close I noticed that his eyes were sort of pretty. With all the confidence I could muster I looked up at him and said,
"Then get down on your knees."
My heart was racing as I waited to see how he would respond. With a nervous laugh he dropped down to his knees and leaned forward a bit, as if woozy. His head was almost resting on my thigh.
A flush of power washed over me. I resolved to savor the moment.
"Look at me," I ordered.
To my surprise, when he looked up at me this time his eyes were steady. His expression was neutral, almost unreadable, but the energy in his eyes was charged.
Let's let him look then
,
I thought to myself, my body tingling with power and anticipation.
Standing above him I reached up to untie the sash on my silky black robe. I was completely naked underneath. He inhaled sharply with surprise and his gaze began to rove again, more slowly now, drinking me in. After teasing the robe open I let it slide down off my shoulders and arms to pool around my heels on the floor.
My neighbor flushed a bit red as he watched me but he didn't splutter or panic as I might have expected. His eyes still held an intense spark that I couldn't quite read. It occurred to me that there might be more to him, and to this, than I would have expected.
After watching his eyes exploring my body for a moment, I picked up one leg and draped it over his shoulder. The feeling of opening my quickly wettening pussy to him gave me such a head rush.
He let out a low breath as he watched me, but to my surprise he didn't hesitate. He reached up immediately and grabbed my hips to pull me into him. Like a starved man he devoured my pussy with his tongue. He was sloppy and unfocused, his obvious craving for me overriding anything else.
For a moment the intense contact threw me off balance. I let a wave of pleasure wash over me before I pulled myself together to finish what I'd started.
I reached down to run my fingers through his hair for a moment as he licked me before gripping him sharply and pushing his head further into me. He let out a whimper at this and his frantic licking and sucking only increased.