What is this feeling inside of me? It's like a rush of adrenaline throughout my body. I can't help but stare at this magnificent creature. Her petite, athletic frame is accentuated by the clothes she is wearing. Dark pink leggings, pink running shoes, White spaghetti tank, and a thin white cardigan hoodie. Her hair is pulled back into a tight pony tail giving a clear, unobstructed view to beautiful face. Her skin is unblemished and the perfect shade of light brown. A result, no doubt from running out doors, under the sun. Her eyes are steel blue. it's like I am looking into the deep blue ocean. I have loved before but no woman has ever made me feel like this before.
I love writing and I always have. I love telling a tale in which I come out on top. A tale which ends with happiness instead of the cold dark reality that is my life on earth. I don't really have a bad life, but I can't escaped the inevitable of going to work and coming to. I've never wanted that life but I can't leave it now, either. I love my wife, regardless of how our relationship started, so I escape the mundane routine of life by the occasional stop by a local shop and writing about my fantasies about a girl I would otherwise never have a shot at.
I haven't been inspired as what I should write about yet, so I pretend to type on my laptop as I glance over the screen, my eyes barley visible to hers. I can't risk getting caught, not by her. Brooke is a student in my psychology class at the university and her mother, Gisele, is a colleague in the same department. Gisele maybe 15 years her senior but she is just as good looking as Brooke. I've watched Gisele before but the feeling is not quite the same. It could be Brooke's young age. She just turned 19 and this is her first year of college. It could be a number of things but whatever it was made it the most exciting thing I had ever done.
Brooke sits up straight and arches her back causing her open hoodie to slide even further off her D sized breasts. They absolutely perfect and my mind is caught up in a series of thoughts about what I would do with them as I lay naked with her in bed. It's almost like she knows I'm watching because she doesn't stop there. Next, she uncrosses and spreads her legs, giving me the perfect view of her crotch. I swallow hard and my face flushes with blood as my cock twitches beneath my pants. I can't stop it from growing. Her leggings are tight enough to show me every part of her: Her supple mound leading into her pussy lips and eventually her butt cheeks. I wish I wasn't in public because all I want to do is pull out my cock crank one off right here and now... among other things...but I can't do those things without her consent.
The coffee shop is the perfect place for watching. So many people crowding into such a small place, all doing pretty much the same thing, give ample cover while stoking your prey. I have no desire do anything more than watch but if she walked over here right now and offered to suck me off, I doubt I would refuse the offer.
I'm not a creep or a pervert or anything and I am no danger to the women around me. I just like looking at them and feeling the rush that comes from trying not to get caught. I love everything about sex but there are some things that I cannot act out in real life. I still love my wife, Laura, but there is no way she would be up for trying the things that I think about. The things that turn me on and the things that make me who I am. It's natural to have these urges, however dark they may be, but it's also natural to control one's self and be mindful of other's sexual wants and needs. I watch because I can't get that excitement and rush anywhere else.
Laura is my whole world but there's no excitement in our love making any more. Well, at least not until I started watching that is. I get so riled up watching Brooke, and other girls, that I go home and have the desire to fuck my wife. For some reason Laura picks up on my sexual energy as well and gets turned on in an instant. She's asked me about it before and where all the energy is coming from but I can't tell her. It would break her heart to know that I get turned on by other women and have sexual fantasies of tying them up and fucking them in every hole, so I just make something up that has to do with her.
I try thinking about my wife like this but there is no excitement, no rush, no feelings of panic when you think you've been caught.
Some may describe my sexual tastes and dark or rough or even evil but that's what I like. I love thinking about a woman giving herself completely to me. Having that power over them and forcing them to do whatever I want them to do and punishing them beyond all mercy if they do not comply. I don't get turned on by force beyond their consent. I despise the thought of rape. I think it's disgusting and week if a man has to take that from a woman. But a man she trusts so much to give it up to him... no that's hot.
It doesn't matter what shitty thing may be happening in my life, whenever I flip open my laptop and start typing, I just feel free. I feel like nothing can stop me and I push myself to the limits. All the stress in the world has no effect when I'm writing.
As Brooke crosses her legs again and scoots up to the table to resume her work on her computer I picture myself walking up behind her and sliding my hands over her shoulders. I am so incredibly lost in my thoughts that as I touch my finger tips to the keys on my computer everything changes and now I am living it, not just thinking it.
As though I am having an out of body experience, I watch myself touching her. She jump, startled, and turns to see who it is. The look of fear falls from her face as she sees me and it is replaced by a smile.
"Oh it's you."
I chuckle as she takes my right hand with hers and then leans her head to the left and places it on my hand. The touch of her skin on mine is enough for her to let out a whimpering moan. I smile with delight, knowing that I have this much power over her. She lifts her head up and looks at me, smiling as wide as she can.
"I love you." She whispers, not wanting others around her to hear.
I smile back but instead of returning kind words of love of my own, I mouth the words, "Fuck me"!
She smiles devilishly and her whole body shutters with pleasure but she never takes her eyes off me.
She quickly glances around her and says, "Not here with all these..." She cuts herself off with a gasp and says, "Fuck it. I want you to screw me right here and right now and I don't care who sees it.
I lean in and kiss her with purpose. She breathes heavily as she forces her tongue inside my mouth. My hands travel over her shoulders until they reach her chest. I take a breast in each hand and massage firmly. She moans and pulls my hands with hers to step in front of her. Our lips break apart long enough for her to stand up and then we start all over again.
My hands are all over her body and she reaches one of her down to grip my cock. It feels good and I can feel grow the more she plays with it. She pants heavily and pushes her body into mine. Her enthusiasm is palpable and I respond in kind by wrapping my arms around her and squeezing her tight.
I hold off my deepest and darkest desires but when she says, "I need you inside me right now", I loose it and just can hold back any longer.
Everyone in the coffee shop are staring at us but they don't seem to mind. Most of them are still going about their business but a few of them stop take notice of us. Some of them are even getting into it and making out with their partners. No matter how many of them look, however, neither Brooke or myself remotely care. In fact it seems to be making her even hotter. I love the moment I am in right now but I can't stop thinking about where this is going.
I step into her and we kiss as we move closer to the table. When we reach it I roll my hips into her causing her to grunt, "Fuck me."