"I don't know if I can do this," I said, my hands gripping the steering wheel. Noel and I were parked in front of a nondescript building at the address I'd been given for Impulse, the kinky play party my girlfriend, Lyla, had invited me to. I was meeting her there for my very first public scene. I didn't know exactly what to expect, and I was petrified.
"It's ok, baby," Noel said, running his hand over my thick, fishnet-clad thigh. I was wearing what Lyla had requested: Black fishnets with an attached garter, a black lace thong, and a royal blue wiggle dress that hugged my ample curves and set off my long, auburn hair, which was in the ponytail Lyla loved to pull.
"We can go back home if you want. Lyla will understand." Noel was even newer to the kink scene than I was, which was part of why he didn't get that Lyla definitely would not understand. He was still learning what it was to date someone else's sub.
I met Lyla at the Feeling Knotty rope group that my friend Ellen convinced me to try. There was a demonstration of various ways to tie someone up and I watched as Lyla was encased in an elaborate Roman sandal that bound her legs together and a spiderweb tie that bound her arms.
She was adorably helpless and sexy with a voluptuous body, dark eyes, and short, bleached blonde hair. I sidled up and flirted hard, making her laugh and wiggle in the confining ropes. I didn't know that it was unusual for her to consent to being bound. She wasn't held captive, but was waiting like a dangerous spider for a biteable plaything.
We went on a few dates, just standard restaurant dinners, followed by pretty boring sex. Once we saw a movie and held hands. Our conversations were good, but not enough to hold my interest. I was planning to end things.
Then one day, she texted, "I can't stop thinking about you. I want to bend you over my knee and spank you until you beg me to stop."
I was in a meeting at work when I read it, holding my phone under the conference table. I made an involuntary sound and looked up guiltily. Everyone was staring at me. "Uh. Hit my knee on the table," I said lamely, rubbing my knee and wincing. I tried to pay attention to the budget slides from Mike in accounting, but all I could focus on was the sudden fullness between my legs.
Lyla and I started a raunchy correspondence mostly via FetLife, where she was Ryder and I was SlowCook. She revealed that she was a Domme and that she wanted to play with me as her submissive. I was terrified and confused and turned on as hell. I was utterly repulsed by the thought of anything violent or submitting to anyone, but her descriptions of bondage, paddling, and public domination made me break out in a feverish need to rub my clit into oblivion. Finally, we made plans to play.
On the appointed night, I showed up at the nondescript suburban house that she shared someone who was only referred to as "the pet." I had the impression that the pet mostly put lotion on Lyla, straightened her hair, and cleaned the kitchen.
I had a tour of her messy, overstuffed house crammed with too much furniture, five cantankerous cats, and an impressive collection of Funko Pops. Lyla was a nerdy software executive who loved Marvel movies and roleplaying games. She then led me to her bedroom, locked the door and said, "Take off your clothes." Her command lit me on fire. I looked into her eyes as I slowly unbuttoned my tank dress and let it fall to the ground. I stood awkwardly in my red panties and bra. Lyla stayed fully dressed.
"Mmm," she said, coming forward and running her fingers along my chest, leaving a trail of chills. "Beautiful." Her dark eyes were liquid with desire. She held up a red velvet collar.
My knees went weak, and I leaned back to steady myself on the rumpled king size bed. I tried to focus on the collar, but I was lightheaded and my stomach was churning. Then I realized that most of my physical symptoms were not fear, but a powerful hit of arousal. I felt swollen with the need to be possessed.
Lyla had been watching me closely. I trusted her. And I wanted to experience this. "Yes," I whispered.
Lyla smiled in triumph. "Yes, what?" She said, her hand on my chin demanding my attention. She ran her rough thumb over my trembling bottom lip.
"Yes, please," I said. My cheeks burned and I looked down.
Lyla growled. "Good girl. You will call me Ryder from now on. Now, turn around." She clasped the collar around my neck and pulled on it gently.
I was breathing heavily now. "Bend over the bed," Lyla said. "And don't move unless I tell you to."
THWACK. Ryder's hand came down hard on my ass. I squealed, involuntarily twisting away. "I said DO NOT MOVE!" Lyla said. THWACK THWACK THWACK. It took all of my strength to stay still.
"Mmmm, you can take it, can't you? God you're hot. I'm going to make you mine, girl," Ryder whispered huskily in my ear.
She laid several instruments next to me on the bed. A large paddle with a black handle, a silicone flogger, and... I gulped. A long, serious whip. Ryder saw me looking and said, "That's a single tail. It isn't for today, but I wanted you to see it because you will feel it soon."
She proceeded to take me through a paddling that started soft and sensuous and crescendoed to a long, biting height that sent me into a floaty place where the pain crossed into something much more. When it stopped, I was sweaty and moaning softly.
"Oh, my sweet girl," Ryder crooned. "I'm so proud of you." She tenderly stroked my burning skin. Then she lay next to me and cradled me as I reentered my body and began to press myself into her. Her short hair brushed my face as she rose to kiss me. I drank her in like a quenching drink of water.
She shed her clothes, then joined me on the bed. She angled her body so that I was offered the hard, dusky bud of a nipple and I latched on immediately and sucked as though taking sustenance. My own nipples were aching so loudly they almost overtook the thundering pangs in my pussy.
As if hearing my thoughts, Ryder's hand pushed my mound firmly and began rubbing in teasing circles. "God, you're so wet," she said. "Your juice is dripping down your thighs." She slid her hand into the wetness, then licked her fingers. I felt like I might pass out from need.
"Open your legs," she directed. "Rub your clit." I was surprised, but did as I was told and began teasing my stiff clit. Ryder was right, I was like a waterfall.
Ryder stood up and watched me as she retrieved a strap-on from somewhere and began to buckle it on. The dick was easily eight inches long and thick. I began to protest. "You can take it," Ryder said. "Don't stop rubbing that sexy little clit, baby."
She came over to the side of the bed and grabbed my feet, pulling me into position in front of her cock. She had already snapped a condom over it. I automatically pulled my knees up to give her better access.
"Make yourself cum," Ryder said, leaning forward to pull on my nipples. That pushed me right over the edge and my pussy began to spasm. And that was when Ryder shoved all eight inches of her turgid cock into my tight hole. I screamed. My clit sparked and my cunt was filled with a painful light that spread in waves of ecstasy down to my toes. I came for what felt like a minute, aware that Ryder was coming with me, her fingers twirling beneath her cock.
After dismounting with a flourish and unbuckling her steed, Ryder climbed onto the bed and pulled me up next to her. She gently unclasped the collar at my neck and massaged the slightly chafed area under it. "You did well, my girl." She held me as I drifted into a peaceful sleep.
Lyla began to take a more central role in my life. We texted constantly, and occasionally she'd ask me to do something like purchase a dildo or taste my own juices. I wore a silver chain around my neck with a Marvel charm that she said marked me as hers. Once she told me that I wasn't allowed to have an orgasm for four days.
On the fifth day, she had me put on my headset at work and pretend to be in a meeting while she talked to me in a deep, hypnotic voice about how sexy I was and the things she wanted to do to me. I was red-faced, sweating, and on the verge of orgasm when she said, "Go make yourself come." I rushed to the bathroom, ignoring the strange looks from my coworkers, and had a blistering, shameful orgasm while perched on a toilet seat.
While all of this was going on, I met Noel on OKCupid. Shy, smart, and incurably sexy with light blue eyes, dark hair, and a slim build, Noel owned a small organic farm and sold handmade carved staffs. He was somewhat inexperienced, but he more than made up for that with enthusiasm and an uninhibited appetite to try new things. He had never been involved in any sort of kink activity, but then I was also a newbie. Noel knew all about Lyla; our relationship (and my bruises) would have been hard to hide.