CHAPTER 4
I was coming out of an English class when I got a message that filled me with a swirl of conflicting emotions.
Benjamin: In your treehouse fantasy, there were two men. Would you want to experience that aspect of the fantasy, if we could find someone that was trustworthy?
I found a bench and mulled over the text for a bit. There was a murky pool of guilt inside me, that I couldn't see the bottom of. Why would I want another man included when my needs were already fulfilled by Benjamin?
Even though he had been the one to bring it up, I was worried that Ben might judge me or get jealous. I had a jealous streak myself and I didn't think it was the worst trait in a partner but it's an unpredictable emotion that could make people behave in unexpected ways.
The idea of two men sharing and using me was hot, but I was afraid that I might not be able to grasp the price of such an experience until it was too late. Then I pictured what that scene might actually look like, not from my perspective, but as a whole. In my fantasies and writing, I had always thought about the men and the sensations, but now I saw my own body entwined and felt a little disgusted with myself.
I had some concept that this instinct was based on a warped view of myself, but I still felt ashamed of even considering that there would be another man willing to join this perverse scene with me in it. I was suddenly holding back tears over a hypothetical question and I quickly walked to the nearby library, trying to empty my mind until I reached my destination.
I focused straight ahead as I walked past all of the most commonly used parts of the library. Eventually I reached what I thought of as the heart of the library, even though in reality it was more of a poorly planned dark corner of books that were rarely if ever needed. Everything was a bit dusty here and the titles around me were not particularly interesting, but there was a rectangle of space where you couldn't see anything but bookshelves.
I sat down in that little safe place and quietly cried. I wasn't in grief or despair, so once the tears finally stopped, I felt a little silly. It was just a question after all, but I guess the problem was that I didn't know the answer even though it was about my own desires.
I heard footsteps nearby, so I quickly got to my feet. I didn't want to have to assure a concerned stranger that I was fine. I made sure my cheeks were dry and prepared to awkwardly shuffle past them.
I was surprised when Ben rounded the nearby corner. He was wearing a simple dress shirt, slacks and a pair of striking black and silver horn rimmed glasses. He had mentioned something about going to the optometrist and while I guess I should have been sorry that he needed them, they sure looked good on him. "I really like the glasses," I whispered. A raspy quality to my voice betrayed my attempts to hide my emotional struggle.
"Thank you. I think I like them too, but I'm still getting used to them. Anyway, I saw you come back here and wanted to make sure you were okay," He said softly. I smiled and nodded before pulling him into a hug. I wanted to be close and I was also finding eye contact a little difficult at the moment.
"I'm sorry if you were worried. My insecurities just get the better of me sometimes and this is a good place to hide until I remember how to act like a normal human again."
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked, still holding me to his chest gently. His heartbeat was calm and steady against my ear, as I stared unfocused at a row of books.
"About how to act like a normal human being?" I quipped. "Oh I'd love some pointers."
"I think you're doing fine," He said as he began to trace a small circle on my back. "My concern is what was making you feel insecure," He nudged. I took a deep breath, afraid that my thoughts would sound stupid out loud, but knowing it would hurt until I got them out.
I did my best to walk Benjamin through my earlier introspection and lay out every fear, so they couldn't fester. He listened, physically reassuring me through the process until it seemed like I had said what I needed to.
"I don't think there's anything wrong with your fantasy and while obviously the twin part is best left in the imagination, I'm open to sharing you for a scene. As far as your sex appeal, I assure you that finding another man that would enjoy having his way with you would not be as difficult as you imagine." As he said this, Ben slid his hands down to fondle my ass under my short skirt. "The difficulty will be in finding the right person, but I do have a couple of potential people in mind if you really want this."
I realized that I was afraid to admit that I wanted to live the fantasy, but I wouldn't feel so conflicted if I didn't want it. Not being interested would have made the question extremely simple
So even though it created a bottomless pit in my stomach, I had an answer. "I think I do want it," I whispered.
"It probably won't come together right away and you can always change your mind. Just remember I suggested it because I want to make your fantasies come true. You don't have to feel guilty." His fingers continued to dance at the edges of my panties.
I said, "thank you Ben," nuzzling his collarbone.
With gentle force he pinned me against a bookshelf and kissed me ravenously.
Breath hot on my neck, he purred," a professor found you back here, playing with your sweet little cunt. You could get in a lot of trouble, unless you can satisfy the professor's dark desires."
Suddenly breathless and flushed, my mind scrambled to find a response to the echo of something I had written. I liked that my writing had stuck with him. I enjoyed him using it against me even more.
"What would you have of me, Sir?" I asked, lust clear in my voice. One of Ben's hands dipped under the front of my skirt and I shifted awkwardly trying to allow him between my thick thighs. He pushed the gusset of my panties aside and his touch was electric.
"I'd like to have all of you," he growled, sinking one and then two fingers inside me. "But I wasn't prepared." The heal of his palm ground against my clit deliciously while he slowly finger fucked me. "I do have an idea though. For now I'll settle for your mouth and then I'll take your number. Someday soon I'll call you to my office and have you more thoroughly."
I was trying to stay quiet but felt on the verge of madness from his assault on my body and mind. He was staring at me hungrily behind his new glasses and they helped to sell his professor persona.
"Will you come when I call for you sweetheart?" He asked, as if he already knew I'd do anything he wanted.
"Yes, sir," I panted.
"Good girl," he said as he wiped his hand on the inside of my skirt. I bit down, hard on my lip as I realized my pussy would be denied further stimulation.