I ached, everywhere, and the train seats didn't help. My thighs were mostly numb, but I knew that when the train pulled into station I'd have trouble getting up. My breasts felt like I'd been mauled by a beast and my bottom was numb, the only feeling came from sudden movements, when pain flared in strips across the tender flesh.
It was the sweetest feeling I'd ever felt, but it was nothing compared to the warmth inside me. The average person might think I was mad to be sitting there, outwardly wincing but inwardly rejoicing.
It had been brilliant.
It had first been upsetting to find that the community I had discovered I belonged to, was so separated, spread across the whole country, even the whole world. How on earth was I to find my perfect match with so few people close to me, especially in a relationship where trust, among other things was of paramount importance.
People said long distance relationships didn't work, that there wasn't enough to tie them together. I hoped it wasn't so, for I'd just had the best weekend of my life; and I had the marks to prove it.
My friends had said that if I met someone off the internet I'd be raped and worse. They didn't know that their words had filled me not with dread, but with breathless lust.
I had wanted to be tied up, I had wanted to be used like a sex toy and I had wanted to be beaten when I struggled. Well, three goals completed and I was even able to leave after. Not that I had wanted to, mind. I did ache, it was true, but mainstream relationships had always left me with an ache inside that wasn't fulfilled, and while that fire had been doused, I could still have stayed strapped to that bed regardless of the physical aches I acquired in the satisfaction of others.