Rita discovered the world of BDSM about a year ago but had not really had much experience in it until about 6 months ago when she put her profile up on an alternative sex website.
She didn't really know whether she was a sub or Domme, but she really enjoyed the idea of control and submission. She was very much in charge of things in her vanilla life, where she owned her own business with a small staff.
So she was very used to controlling others and seeing to their welfare. So it was only natural for her to decide she was a Domme despite the fact that she was tired of being in charge 24/7.
She viewed various profiles to see what was out there. She sifted through the flood of emails she received in response to her profile. She had mistakenly listed herself as bi-curious and many of the responses were from women. While she was not interested in having a female sub, their profiles made fascinating reading. Some of them touched a chord in her that she didn't realize was there. But she was so much more comfortable being in charge and despite the curiosity those profiles aroused in her, she didn't change her original decision that she was a Dominant rather than a submissive.
She found a couple of different submissive men and had some sessions with them but was totally turned off by their lack of ego. They were doormats pretending to be men.
Finally, she found a sub who matched her desires. He was older than she was, well educated, worked in well paying professional job, and had experience as both a sub and a Dom. So she replied to his email. From there, they corresponded regularly and finally she allowed him to call her. His voice and mannerisms on the phone were so sexy. She was totally taken by him.
He took her commands readily, and even, eagerly. But he had a sense of self, he was not a doormat. He was obviously sexually aroused by her domination. But, strangely enough, she wasn't. But he was so sweet and caring, that she didn't care. At least at first.
But there were aspects of being a Domme and of men that she just wasn't sure about. So she wrote to a Dom whose profile she liked to ask his advice. He wrote back with some answers and some questions.
She liked the way he wrote and the thought he put into his answers. So she started exchanging regular emails with him. It was obvious that he was completely comfortable in the Dominant role.
He was not a sadist, not into humiliation for the sake of humiliating a sub, he was just a person who was in control of himself and those around him and completely comfortable with being so. As he described his philosophy and training techniques, she started to imagine what it would be like to be his sub.
But this was only imagination. In real life, she had an online sub that she was soon to meet. They had a special weekend planned. Since they lived far apart, the planning for this weekend was important. It wouldn't be a quick meeting over dinner. She felt as though she was falling in love with him. He seemed to be everything she wanted.
Finally, the big day came. He met her at the airport and they shared their first kiss. It was not the passionate kiss she had imagined, but rather a quick peck on the lips. What was this? Where was the passion he showed in his emails and on the phone?
She decided it must be the public forum and decided to wait until they were in private for more. They chatted as they drove to her hotel, mostly about the sights she could see as they drove into the city. When they reached her hotel, he grabbed her bags and carried them in for her, just as she expected him to. He stood quietly by as she checked in and then followed her to her room.
Once in the room, she turned to get a kiss and this one was much better. At least, it was more passionate. But still not the soul shattering kiss she had imagined for their first kiss. She commanded him to strip, a command he followed eagerly. Once naked, she commanded him to kneel. She lifted her skirt and revealed her thong covered pussy. Where upon she pulled aside the thong and commanded him to eat her pussy, a task he threw himself into whole heartedly.
He licked and slurped until she came, but once again it was not as she imagined it would be. When she had cum, she let him fuck her for the first time but he didn't cum until she spoke to him in her command voice and told him to either cum or get out.
He had an evening planned for them, showing her the sights and a nice dinner for two. So they got dressed and went out. The evening was enjoyable but not very exciting. She was beginning to think that there wasn't any chemistry between them but decided to wait and see.
Once back at her hotel, she proceeded to command his obedience. She whipped him when he didn't obey her quickly enough and finally tied him spread out on the bed. Then she mounted his cock and used it for her pleasure, an event that clearly excited him.
Finally, he left for the night. He had to work the next morning for a few hours. As soon as he left, she logged on to her email and noticed her Dom mentor was online.
For the next few hours they chatted over IM about her feelings. He gave her advice and once again she wondered what it would be like to be his sub. He was so masterful, confident, and caring.
Finally they signed off and she went to bed. As
she lay there in bed, she started to think about her mentor. As she thought of him, her hand crept down to her pussy where it started rubbing her clit. Before long she came explosively, but what shocked her as she came was that she yelled "Master!"
As she lay there in the afterglow of an incredible orgasm she considered what had just happened. What was she doing, cumming to fantasies of being a sub?! It took her a long time to fall asleep that night, her mind a morass of confusion. What was she? A Domme or a sub? How could she be a sub? She was a business owner, a manager of people, a driving force in her community! It could not be!
But in her heart of hearts, she longed to have someone care for her. Someone to take the burden of decision making from her, at least for a few hours.
Finally she fell asleep only to wake up groggily the next morning. She ordered a room service breakfast and logged on. Disappointingly, her Dom mentor was not online. So she responded to her emails and checked the stock market to see how her portfolio was doing.
While she was checking her portfolio, an IM came up on her screen. It was her Dom mentor! She immediately responded to his query and they proceeded to chat for the next two hours.
She shared her confusion with him and he responded playfully with some commands. Commands she willingly, no, eagerly followed. As she was kneeling naked on the floor, she realized her pussy was so wet that it was dripping down her leg.