These are my very first submissions, and they are true accounts of recent experiences that made a profound impact on me. I hope that you enjoy reading them. Feedback and comments are most welcome. - A
Two - A and the Sybian
All morning, I am distracted and unproductive - excited and anxious and nervous and thrown off (albeit, in a good way) by hosting a sexual encounter in my space, something I don't do terribly often. And curious, as ever, to know how much of what I'm feeling is intentional; how well He knows, or at least can guess, my mental state given our limited interactions.
Finally, He arrives. Immediately, He hands me His things and unhurriedly walks back to His truck. Feeling bashful at just watching, I return back to the kitchen until He re-enters with a very large cardboard box. I laugh at the absurdity and half-heartedly ask what's inside, already knowing that He won't tell me until He feels like it. A quick, soft, understated kiss is all I get - He is hungry. I am both impatient to play and thankful to be given something to do, to occupy my hands. Then, He wants to smoke, and like eating, He does so slowly, carefree.
Still, I'm on fire, exasperated, unsure how intentional this all is, thrilled that He's here, and so looking forward to play. Finally, we enter my bedroom - but wait - first, the box needs to be retrieved. Then, He wants some time to freshen up. I lay across my bed next to this giant box in surrender.
At last, He sits in my desk chair, and, like the last time we played, His voice gets this steel thread in it that... sends chills upon chills upon chills through my body. In that moment, there is nothing that I ache for more that to obey that quiet, serious, self-assured voice.
"Open the box."
I open it, somewhat expecting to see the paddles and restraints of last time. I was
completely
wrong.
"Oh my god... is this what I think it is?"
"I don't know what you think it is."
"A Sybian."
Fuckkk
.
As instructed, I place it on the floor and plug it in. I find myself remaining on my knees, covering my face with my hands, completely shocked. I was feeling a bit bashful by how thoroughly I lost control last time we played, and had been hoping to keep a slight semblance of dignity or poise, but I'm already feeling knocked off balance. I try to take some deep breaths as He finishes setting up. He sits in the chair He's placed off to the side and tells me to take my panties off. I feel self-conscious as we lock eyes as I remove them.
He calls me over to Him, and tells me to spread my legs wide, and wider still. This is where my mind starts to fly, just like last time, unfocused and unmoored by shock and feeling so deliciously debased. He touches me, there, for the first time in almost a month. My god, it feels so so fucking good - the only place where the two of us are connecting, touching at all, is His finger on my clit as I stand before him, His hand up my dress. When I can stand it, I take my hands off my face and twist them into my hair and look into His eyes as I watch Him play my body effortlessly. When He is satisfied, He raises one finger to my mouth and I lean forward to suck, closing my eyes to savor how I taste on His skin. He offers me a second finger, and my tongue cleans this one thoroughly, too.