"Miss Taylor? Dr. Brown will see you now."
Summer had been sitting in the waiting room for twenty-five minutes, all alone. There was only room for two people at most in the small room, anyway. She hadn't seen anyone come out, so she wondered what exactly she was waiting for, or why the Doctor needed a receptionist with so little business.
From what Kristi said, the door into the office was a gateway to a whole new life. She would see about that.
There was something odd about the receptionist, whose name tag introduced her as Melody. She was professional enough, but normally at doctor's office the staff was very prim and proper. Melody's blouse, a size too small, hugged her large breasts. It looked too tight for all the buttons to close, and a deep valley of cleavage was displayed. Summer thought that men would probably really like the effect, but Dr. Brown, her friend Kristi had told her, saw mostly women.
Kristi had been raving about Dr. Brown for months. And indeed, Kristi was a different woman since she'd started seeing Dr. Brown. Where once she had been mopey, now Kristi was energetic and cheerful. She'd gotten a better job, although Summer was muddy on the details, and that had let her afford a fancy new apartment downtown. "I believe in myself now," Kristi told her. "And when you believe in yourself, anything can happen. And probably will!" All, reportedly, because of Dr. Brown.
"There's got to be a downside," said Summer.
"Well, you have to leave your old hang-ups behind," Kristi said. "You have to embrace change. You have to be willing to be a new person."
Apparently, you also had to have a blood test and a brain scan, because she had both before Dr. Brown had agreed to see her. During the brain scan they'd shown her pictures of her own paintings. It was very strange. But Summer wanted to embrace change.
She opened the door and walked into the office on the other side. A man sat behind a large mahogany desk. She had always assumed, since Dr. Brown saw only women, that he was a she. He waved her to a chair. He was a handsome, older man, with gray at the temples and a fine, chiseled face.
The door closed behind her.
"Summer Taylor, yes?" asked Dr. Brown.
"Yes," she said.
"It says here you've been down. Not sure of your place in the world. Do you want to have a place, Summer?"
"That's not quite how I'd put it."
"How would you put it?"
"I want to be sure of my purpose. I want to know that I should devote myself utterly to it, that someday I'll be a famous artist if I just keep plugging away."
"I don't know if you'll be a famous artist if you just keep plugging away, Summer. If you've come for something that specific, I can't provide it. We can work on making you sure of your purpose, however, if you're open as to what, exactly, that purpose is."
"But I want to be an artist," she said.
"Then go out of here and paint, or draw, or whatever it is you do," said Dr. Brown. "Study with artists. I can't help you. Maybe you'll succeed, maybe you won't. Are you sure that's what you want to be?"
"No," she admitted. "If I was sure, I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't need to be here. It's that certainty that I want."
"Even if you gain certainty that your purpose, your place, is something else?"
She paused. "I suppose."
Dr. Brown took out something silver and shiny, and placed it on the table. It was a chain, with a small charm on it. The charm bore a letter S, in what she assumed were crystals. Dr. Brown had the same symbol on a ring on his hand. She recognized it. Kristi had the same thing on a bracelet. Dr. Brown leaned back. The silence extended.
"What's that?"
"Place. Purpose. Certainty," Dr. Brown said.
"It looks like a bracelet to me."
"It could be worn around the ankle, as well," said Dr. Brown.
"This is very weird." Summer stood up. "I'm going to leave."
"That is fine," said Dr. Brown. "Certainty isn't for everyone. Some prefer the unknown."
"Are you saying that little thing will make me certain of my future as an artist?"
Dr. Brown shook his head. "I told you I couldn't give you that. You have talent. I've spent the last half-hour looking at your work online. This is not about that. It is about the things you said you wanted. Certainty, place, and purpose. As I say, it's not for everyone."
Summer sat back down. "And you're saying that if I put that on, I'll have those things? It's some kind of magical amulet?"
"No. It's not magical at all. I'm saying that if you have those things, you'll want to put it on. And that they are obtainable, if you'll do exactly as I say."
Summer sighed. What did she have to lose? She shrugged. "Okay. If it gets too weird, I'm leaving."
"It's going to get weird."
"But not too weird."
Dr. Brown shrugged. "You're an odd person. The technical term we use for your type is beta-four, indicated by a number of critical genetic markers, and a pattern of brain activity. Beta-fours make up less than one percent of the population."
"I see. And what does being a beta-four mean?"
Dr. Brown continued. "You're a very sexual person, and bring up sex, and men, on a regular basis. Your art consists mostly of either nudes, or flora whose forms somehow resemble sexual body parts, and you react to your own work erotically. Indeed, the part of your brain that regulates sex is three times as active as a normal brain, even with no stimulation whatsoever. In spite of all this, you haven't had a serious relationship for three years, and have gone only two dates in the last twelve months."
"Three," she corrected.
"One of them was with someone you already had decided you were incompatible with, so that you could stay 'in practice.' Two real dates."
"Should you be telling me things Kristi told you?"
"I have her consent," Dr. Brown said. "Are you ready to begin, Summer?"
"Begin what?"
"Following directions, so that we can move in pursuit of place, certainty, and purpose."
She was too fascinated to leave. She'd told Kristi about the 'practice' date, but not about what she'd been thinking while it was going on. "I guess."
"Yes, or no, Summer."
"Yes."
"Good. Take your clothes off."
"What?"
"You heard me. Take your clothes off. My numbers show that you have an exhibitionism score of 97, out of a possible 100. The average woman's score is in the thirties. You like to show off. So take your clothes off."
Summer got up, thinking about leaving. 97. What did that mean? So she had a few fantasies about taking her clothes off, had worn a few skimpy Halloween costumes, what did that mean? She turned to go.