"What the fuck do you want, white boy?" he asked as I opened the door. Then he smiled at me and I let him in. "You want me to thug on your ass again?"
I remembered how his powerful black muscles gripped me like steel bands and the pain he inflicted on my body the last time he was here.
"I have something else in mind," I said. Please come in!
I closed the door behind him. He took off his motorcycle helmet and laid it on the coffee table. Then he sat down on the couch and offered me a Newport. I took it and we lit up.
"You doin' alright?" he asked.
Not much to complain about," I replied, trying to make small talk.
Having a cigarette gave me the perfect opportunity to watch him. Seeing a black guy blow thick streams of smoke gets me horny faster than anything—especially if he looks like a thug. That's how we met. I saw him smoking at work and asked him to give me a ride home. I wanted to talk to him but discovered that he was into jiu-jitsu. I asked him to show me some holds instead. I never got around to what I really wanted. Now he was back again, blowing thick smoke, and I was staring at him in awe. I couldn't help it.
"What the fuck are you lookin' at, white boy?"
"Can I ask you something, James?" I ventured.
"Yeah," he said, and took a deep drag on his Newport.
"What would you do if a guy asked you to blow smoke in his face?"
He exhaled the smoke in a thick stream, slowly and deliberately. "I'd do it," he answered definitely.
"It wouldn't bother you?" I asked.
"I have to blow my smoke out anyway. I don't give a fuck where it goes! If a guy wants it in his face, I don't care."
James watched me with interest as he took another drag.
"Have you ever blown smoke in a guy's face to bully him?" I asked.
He gave a chuckle, spurting little puffs of smoke as he laughed. "I do that shit to my brother all the time."
"Why?"
"Cause he hates smoke. The little fucker is always on my ass about smoking, so I blow it in his fuckin' face."
"Have you thought about pinning him down and torturing him with your smoke?" I asked. "You know—blow the whole cigarette in his face—make him breathe it?"
"I do that too," he laughed. "It really pisses him off."
"So you use your smoke as a weapon," I suggested.
"I never thought about it that way, but yeah! That's exactly what I do."
"Would you do it to me?" I asked nervously.
James had taken another deep drag and was blowing it out when I asked the question. Watching his thick smoke gave me a rush of adrenaline as I imagined him filling my face with it.
"You want me to blow my smoke in your face?" he asked, making sure he understood my request.
"Yes," I answered honestly.
"But you're a smoker," he said.
"It's not the smoke I like—it's the attitude," I explained. "I do like breathing another guy's smoke. But what I really want is for him to blow it in my face as if I didn't like it—especially if he's black. That's why I asked you to bring me home the first time we met. Do you mind?"
"That you want me to blow my smoke in your face? Fuck no!" he exclaimed. "I just be doin' my thing."
"And just what is your thing?" I inquired.
James looked at me as if I should know that already. "Kickin' a white boy's ass," he sneered.
"You don't like white people very much, do you?" I observed.
"Not true," he snapped. "I got lots of white friends. It's just that some white dudes like black guys because they're afraid of them. So I play it up, that's all."
"You become the bad ass black muthafucka they want you to be," I added.
"It makes them happy and I like doing it," he replied honestly. "I wouldn't really hurt a guy—not unless he wanted me to."
James took a very long drag, filling his lungs to capacity. Then he exhaled a stream of smoke that was so thick it hung in the air like a solid object. He looked at me and I could feel his eyes going through me. I forced myself to endure his gaze as long as I could, but the longer he stared and said nothing, the more frightening and dangerous he appeared. My heart began to pound violently. The excitement was building inside me. I had to say what I felt, right now!
"I want a mean, bad-ass, black muthafucka to bully me with his thick, choking Newport smoke," I said, throwing everything I had into it and deliberately trying to be melodramatic. Hearing my own words excited me even more. James looked down and saw my hard-on.
"You really like that shit, eh, white boy?"
"Totally," I replied.
He took the last drag on his cigarette and blew his smoke straight at me. "Fuck yeah! I'll blow as much fuckin' smoke in your fuckin' face as you fuckin' want, white boy! What do you do while a bad-ass thug nigga is smokin' your ass up?"
"I usually whack off," I said.
"Ain't nothin' but a thing, white boy," he replied, and put out the cigarette he just finished.
I was so excited by now I could hardly breathe. I just sat there and watched in awe as he pulled another Newport out of the box and stashed it behind his right ear. Then he pulled a second Newport from the box and took it between his thick, protruding lips.
"Are you ready for this shit, white boy?" he asked as he reached for his lighter.
"Wait!" I stopped him. "Let me get some lube first."
I rushed into the bedroom and retrieved a tube of KY jelly. When I returned he was standing on his knees on the floor with an ashtray beside him. He had removed his black mesh tank top and thrown it on the chair next to the sofa. His skin was as black as the shirt, so black in fact that it had a bluish tint to it like some guys from Africa. The intense blackness of his complexion made every muscle on his body stand out in sharp relief. I felt breathless just looking at him.
"Take off your clothes and get your fuckin' ass on the floor!" he demanded.
"Take off my clothes?" I said surprised.
"You got a problem with that, white boy?" he threatened, and I saw the muscles all over his powerful body tighten.
"No," I replied and began to undress.