Master and I had been talking lately, about where we saw ourselves going one day. I said I saw myself becoming a slave one day, but not at this time. I did not feel I was ready for it yet, as I still had a lot of insecurities to deal with, and felt they should be addressed before I attempted to give myself over to slavery.
To me slavery was a big commitment. To be a slave, is to give over all control. A slave can not say no I have a headache, or I do not feel well. It is yes Master, as you wish Master. So I was leery of going there, but still my heart cried out for it. I had the right Master for it, I knew I could trust him to take care of me, and not to abuse my status as slave. I was not going to turn over all my worldly possessions, or my bank accounts. Both of us felt that was plain foolishness, and put a slave in a bad place. I still wanted to maintain my individuality as a person.
Master was home today as it was Sun. We treasured our time together, and I was always so happy just to lay with him on the bed or sit beside him on the sofa. We had been talking earlier, about our relationship, and he wanted to take it a step further. He asked me if I trusted him. Yes I replied I trust you. "Ok from now on you will not sit on the furniture without my permission. You must sit at my feet. At the table you will not be seated unless I give consent to, you will sit at my feet to eat, and you will eat when I say you can eat. I will always be served first, and then the guests, unless I give orders otherwise. You will wait till I tell you it is ok for you to eat. When we go out I will order for you."
I was taken aback by this, I had not expected such complete control taken away from me, although we had talked about it, I had had no idea how I would react to it. I was scared, did I really trust him like I said I did? Well I guess I was going to find out. Did this include the bedroom? "No" he said, "if you are tired you may go and sleep". Whew, that made me happy as often I got home before him and took a little nap, as I was so tired from work.
He looked at me, then at where I was sitting. I quickly slipped off the sofa, and down to the floor. "Get me a drink little one". I quickly got up, and took 3 steps back facing him, turned and went to get him his orange juice that he loved in the morning. We had already established certain rituals, as to how I was to serve him. I filled his glass, and brought it to him. I knelt before him with the glass held in my hand on my palm, supported with my other hand in the middle, so as not to tip it, or to get the rim dirty with my fingers. With my eyes lowered before him, I lifted the glass to him and waited for him to take it from me. I waited a while, I was puzzled as to why he did not take the glass yet. I glanced at him peeking up from lowered face. He was sitting there, his hand in the air, and my glass way to far from him. I was too far away from him, and he was not going to reach over and take the glass. The reaching was obviously was going to be my job. I scooched a bit closer and rose up higher to present the glass to him, leaning towards him so the glass fit into his hand. "Thank you little one, next time pay more attention." Yes Master I replied.
Ok the anti has really been upped now I figured to myself. Things really were going to change around here, I wondered my reaction to it all.