It was detailed. And long. I was to keep my pussy shaved for him for the 7 days, at least. There was a morning and bed time ritual where I had to touch or rub my pussy but not my clit for 15 minutes with some vibrating balls inserted. If I left the house to any reason I had to insert them an hour before returning home. No underwear of any kind anywhere. Anal plug while I slept. I also have to stimulate my nipples a few times a day, anytime I had the balls in, and during lunch for a few minutes.
That night I shaved myself which was the easiest part and not too big of a deal as I realized I needed to soon anyways. But after that I had to go out. I have never, not worn underwear before and it was weird to wear shorts without any. Not only that but the rubbing on my pussy was rough and I was leaking pussy juice all over my shorts within an hour. My shorts were damp and uncomfortable but I was out so I had no choice but to hope no one would notice and wait to get home. My pussy felt raw from the shorts touching my lips right after I shaved. It was embarrassing and vulnerable feeling. I felt like anyone could just see that I wasn't wearing underwear and any man could take advantage of me that way. Now I know underwear doesn't exactly stop rapes but it still felt like I was extra vulnerable.
I wanted to quit already but found it in me to make myself continue and at least get through a week. I really do want to experience what it would really be like -- at least somewhat- and if I can't handle a little online arrangement I'd never be able to be close to experiencing really having someone else be in charge.
Waking up the next morning to the anal plug in my ass was a surprise and instantly I felt vulnerable and very submissive. It was different to have to do it because someone else said so and I wanted to be comply as best as I could. After I took it out I realized my pussy was soaking wet and throughout the rest of the day it stayed that way again. As I went out I would feel the vibrating ben wa balls inside me. It felt like someone was constantly using my pussy or ass. I was wet all day long and surprisingly survived it; toward the end of the day it began to feel a little more normalized which scared me a little since it had only been two days so far. Again at night I wanted to quit and use the internet as a safety to disappear but I realized I probably won't find a non psycho to do this with me again. And so far, he seems like a non psycho. It was easier to not think too hard about the tasks and simply do them because he asked me to. Reminding myself I want to at least last a week and thinking of how I already agreed to it helped me keep going last night and this morning.
This morning my ass was a little more sore than yesterday. It felt good to take the plug out but again, I had to rub my pussy which made me more wet. My pussy has been at least moist all day again and I can't believe I've even made it to day 3. I know I've written much crazier stuff but it has been really crazy feeling to be doing these tasks for the past three days for someone else for real. I am starting to get a little stir crazy and wish I could masturbate but of course I am not allowed to without his say so. I will just be glad if I can finish this week the way things are going. Not having ever given up control like this or even letting someone tell me what to do, much less wear or not wear, I am already surprised I've been able to obey. Strangely it feels like I have an extra purpose attached to my day and I'm not sure how I feel about that yet. Guess I'll have to wait till the end of the week to see what happens.
