The very next evening in Lisa's room, when I made good on my promise to report the conversation with Mitch, Lisa asked if I needed her to take things slower with me. "No, Miss," I answered. "The fact is that I love serving you, and being useful and used. It was the label that bothered me - being defined as 'a submissive.' Mitch helped me understand that though life shapes us, it does not define us. People use words to think and speak with, but they do not control us unless we let them. My only problem is to be authentic - and try to do what I am doing well. I know that as your assistant , I will get plenty of training and experience topping your clients. I don't know yet how I will feel about this, but will feel what I feel when the time comes. For now, what you're doing with me is fine. I understand that I'm supposed to communicate my feelings honestly - in my journal entries and on the fly, as we do things. I understand that my safeword 'amber' will get you to ease off if I need that; that 'red' will get you to stop and listen to a problem, if I'm having one. I trust you, and I trust Mitch and Lotte. If I need to discuss what you're doing with me, I'll let you know."
"That's good," Lisa said, "because I was planning to peg you tonight - like I did at your initiation, if you remember. I'm supposed to begin your Submission Training, and pegging is an important marker of your feelings as a submissive. Some men find it humiliating or threatening. Others enjoy it. At your initiation, you didn't seem to mind."
"I didn't."
"We saw. But I was using a very slim dildo, and going easy on you. We wanted to test you, not scare you away."
"The training now will be much tougher, as Mitch and I will be pushing your limits."
"I understand, Miss. I'll use my safeword if I really need it."
"Good."
"All right then. Present your bum in the Worship posture. I'm going to plug you. I'll start with a size that we know you can take comfortably, and work up, week by week, until you're ready for Mitch's cock. In a few weeks, he's going to fuck you. Then we'll get serious about deep-throat training until you're ready to take him that way too. You'll find yourself spit-roasted before you know it, but you'll be ready for it."
"Yes, Miss," I said. "I'm looking forward to that, I think."
"All right, no talking now. Just relax. Here it comes."
With my butt in the air and my face on the floor, I couldn't see what Miss Lisa was doing. But I could feel or imagine every step. She worked very slowly. First, she walked around behind me and knelt. She stroked and patted my bum for awhile to get herself in the mood, and establish the physical contact. Then I heard her pulling on a rubber glove and unscrewing the lid of a jar. A cold, slippery finger circled around my anus and then pushed its way inside. "Squeeze my finger," she said, "as hard as you can.
I clenched my buttocks hard and tried to hold her. "Relax those cheeks," she told me. "Try to grip just with the sphincter. The big ass muscles aren't helping."
I tried to relax my buttocks. "That's much better," Lisa said, "but you're still too tense. Hold my finger, but just with your hole. Relax everything else."
When I could do this to her satisfaction, she said, "Now relax that sphincter"; and when I did so she pulled her finger out and added more of the lubricating jelly. Then again the cold finger circled my hole and thrust in, giving pleasure as it did so. Again she had me grip the finger with my anal sphincter while keeping my butt cheeks loose. Then she had me push back with my whole body, taking that finger deeper inside and squeezing it as I did so. After some practice at this, she got me to fuck her finger as it impaled me, stimulating my prostate as I did so, while she held her hand quite still. Though nothing touched it, my cock stood up of its own accord and I felt the semen rise in my loins.
"May I cum, Miss?" I begged her.
"Not yet," she answered. "Stop moving now."
I stopped and, in a few moments, lost my erection and the feeling that orgasm was near. We remained still like this, with the finger pleasurably inside me but not moving at all.
When I was calm again, Lisa said, "Now you may stimulate yourself and cum, but you're not allowed to touch yourself. You have to bring yourself off on my finger."
"Start slowly. Back and forth. Get yourself aroused again."
"Squeeze that finger."
"Pretend its a cock and try to give it pleasure, as you take pleasure for yourself."