My fleshly urge postponed for now, I set myself to study. Glancing over the reading list I'd been given, I saw that it was divided into five sections, First, there was a section with introductory readings for complete beginners like myself, who had not yet started classes. Then there were sections on each of the four areas that Mistress had described:
• on Pleasure Work, covering the Guild and its recognized modalities of pleasure, with the career opportunities and requirements for each;
• on Group Facilitation, covering basic skills for organizing workshops, celebrations, and other group events;
• on Body Knowledge, with a practicum of exercises on hygiene, physical fitness, massage and sexuality;
• on 'Hedonics,' a theoretical course on the history, philosophy and neuroscience of pleasure.
Most of the assigned readings were in four textbooks for these areas, and also on-line, in electronic format, to facilitate note taking and personal commenting. I switched on my new laptop and began to read, following the introductory reading list.
The first assigned text gave an overview of the many types of pleasure work -- sexual and otherwise, going on to discuss the professionalization of pleasure as an industry and field of study which came into its own as religious and puritanical prejudices faded.
A second assigned reading (on Philosophical Background) took up the widely misunderstood teachings of a Greek philosopher named Epicurus, and the objections of several opposing schools -- notably:
• the Stoics and Confucians, with arguments that Epicureans focus too much on themselves and their close friends, while turning away from duty and public life; and
• the religious thinkers of all stripes, with complaints that Epicureans are heedless and indifferent to righteousness and the commandments of their respective ideas of God.
As the chapter pointed out, Epicureans had always considered the satisfactions of meaningful work, service to others and public service as legitimate forms pleasure. They had never advocated indulgence in any pleasure beyond the bounds of moderation and common sense. They rejected ambition and the pursuit of fame as sources of anxiety, but not the pleasures of selfless work in a worthy cause. They asked for and insisted on a distinction between selfishness and wise self-acceptance and self-concern. As against Calvinists and Puritans who are suspicious of pleasure as such, they promoted wisely enjoyed pleasures which could advance authentic self-knowledge and happiness. Modern epicureans also accept and teach the apparent paradox that direct pursuit of pleasure and happiness can be self-defeating because true happiness and 'flow' involve a certain forgetfulness of self. It gets around this paradox through concepts of 'love' (in its many forms). With the Sufi poet Rumi, modern epicureans see pleasure as conducive to love and knowledge, which are in turn conducive to happiness.
I read on and on. At one point, realizing that I was getting hungry, I looked at the digital clock in the corner of my screen and saw that it was almost time for dinner. Shutting down, I scurried to the dining room, arriving just in time. As I sat down, I saw Mitch glance at me and scowl, stroking his cheek with the back of his hand. Looking around, I saw that everyone else at table was impeccably groomed, while my own hair was dishevelled and I hadn't shaved. I met Mitch's gaze and mouthed 'sorry'; and he nodded at me. Lesson learned. Even going naked, we dress for dinner.
Joe had prepared dinner, and now was eating with us at table. Lisa was serving and would eat later.
You don't need a blow-by-blow account of our table talk, that night. The other apprentices talked about their days' activities. Mistress announced that I was now a registered probationer, which got me a round of congratulations and best wishes. At then end of our meal, she made a second announcement about me: that I would now receive my first punishment for an offense of indiscretion -- that I had told her something private about my own mother that she had no need to know. She meant to use this occasion to teach me, and remind everyone, of the importance of confidentiality with all information that we received from or about clients. She told the story of a German call girl named Rosemarie Nitribitt who was murdered in Frankfurt at the age of 36, and had a movie made about her death. Her clients included West German industrialists and business executives, and the police suspected that she was doing a side business selling their business secrets, though this was never proven.
Though I had done no harm on this occasion, Mistress said that she would underline the seriousness of client privacy for all of us with six cane stripes on my bottom. Then she had me bend over the chair I had been sitting on, and made me wait in that position while Mitch brought her a cane. Then he held my wrists and had me meet his gaze steadily with my own, while she delivered slow, hard strokes, taking almost a minute between each. Then I had to kiss her hand, and thank her for the punishment-lesson, repeating back what she had taught us. Unlike the spanking I had had from Mitch the other day, this caning was no fun at all. But after I kissed her hand, she hugged me and kissed my cheek and told me that the incident was closed.
It was not quite closed, however. A few minutes later, Mitch took me aside, and told me that I had taken the punishment well, and could be proud of having done so. In fact, I did feel proud of having learned something, and of having taken the lesson in stride. I was reminded too of Mitch's spanking, marvelling at how well suited my buttock nerve-endings were to pleasure and to pain -- and at how close, and yet so different those sensations were.
Then Mitch gave me a handsome leather notebook and taught me how to write a proper punishment entry, noting my own mistakes and transgressions, and (later) the administered corrections (if any), and my thanks for closure. He told me that in future, I was to note my own mistakes, and that he or Mistress would review my entries once a week and deliver corrections as they thought appropriate. "Now I'll tell you something private about myself," he told me. "After all my years with Mistress Charlotte, she still has me keep a notebook like this one, with entries for things I've done that I think could have been done better. She rarely punishes me now, but we talk about my entries and she sometimes makes good suggestions for the future. In the future, if you're lucky enough to have a master or mistress whom you love and respect, the notebook is a valuable tool for self-improvement. You can keep such a notebook even when you don't have anyone who guides you, just to reflect on your own mistakes and shortcomings."
"Thank you sir," I told him, and meant it. "May I ask a question?" He nodded. "You can always ask. I may or may not answer."
"How long have you been with Mistress Charlotte, and how did you get together? I can see you have wonderful relationship, and that you're proud to be her submissive."
"I was very lucky," he told me. "As a young man I registered and took training from the LifeMates Corporation, hoping to find a Mistress whom I could love and serve. I was into BDSM and knew I was submissive, but I didn't just want kink or games. I wanted to serve a Mistress worth serving, who would have me do something worth doing. Charlotte was a client of Lifemates, looking for someone to work with her. Lifemates connected us 14 years ago, and I'm still with her. In the whole world, there's nowhere else that I'd rather be."
"Now go relax for awhile, then take a shower and shave. Comb your hair and come knock on Mistress' door at 10 o'clock. I know she told you not to wank already, but I'll tell you again myself. Your orgasms now are gifts from us. You're showing the right attitude and doing very well. Keep it up."