"Hello Evelyn. This is Mark. How are you doing today?"
It's Mark! I can't believe I'm actually talking to him!! Keep it together girl, he's just a guy. Okay, maybe I need to backup a little and explain who Mark is.
A few weeks ago I signed up for one of those online hookup sites. I wasn't planning on actually doing anything, but I was bored and I thought it might be fun to tease some guy online for a while before dumping him. It wasn't five minutes later that Mark sent me a message.
'Hi there ReadyToPlay, I'm FindingFunAgain. So what games are you playing?'
We exchanged a dozen messages and emails over the next hour or so. Then we exchanged numbers and have been texting back forth ever since. We talk mostly about everyday stuff, and Mark sounds like a really nice guy... but sometimes I just want to tease him so we have chatted about some seriously kinky shit. This morning I had told him he could call if he wanted, and now I'm hearing his voice for the first time.
"Hi Mark, I'm just doing some homework. What are you up to?" I'm trying hard to sound calm here. Why is he having this effect on me?
"I was wondering what it would take to meet you. Maybe we can play some of your games in person?"
My heart was thumping in my chest so hard I wouldn't be surprised if Mark could hear it over the phone! "Well, I could use an excuse to get away from this homework. What do you have in mind?"
"I could pick up some Chinese and a movie if you just want to cuddle for a while. On the other hand if you are up for an adventure I could try to make you squirt..."
"Uh... how" My mouth has gone dry. I get up and walk to the kitchen for a glass of water while I'm listening.
"You've told me you want to squirt but you never have. Before we begin I would send you to the bathroom to empty your bladder. Then I start by slowly undressing you, lightly touching every inch of your skin to find the sensitive areas. As you lie down naked on the bed I will begin securing you with ropes. I tie my ropes nice and tight. Not tight enough to cut off circulation or cause any pain, but secure so that nothing slips. Soon you will be totally helpless before me."
I think I love the sound of his voice. My palms are sweating and it feels like someone turned up the heat. I'm feeling a hollow pull in the center of my gut, a combination of fear and lust. I didn't really trust myself to talk so I just waited in silence until Mark continued.
"Did I hear you hesitate? Let me guess, you are turned on by the thought but afraid of it at the same time... More silence. Are you are turned on but you don't understand why?"
"Uh huh..." My breath is coming in shallow breaths now. How did he do that? Am I that transparent?
"Let me help you understand. When you are helpless you don't have to think. You don't have to worry about what to do, or what not to do. You can do nothing but experience it. You have no guilt for enjoying the experience because you are not responsible, you are helpless. The ropes gently squeeze you as though you are being embraced, and that is calming and comforting."