"i will have an answer for you. It is only right that i think about this a bit. i know that no matter what my decision might be that it will change my life."
"That is all that I can ask. I know that I have not given you much time but time isn't something that I have a lot of to give you. We do need to get under way. you can bathe tonight but our talking while idle is burning the light we need to travel by."
With that said camp was quickly packed. We fell back into a silence that was at least this time with some purpose to it. i knew that the choices given to me were not ones he was giving lightly. Each of them had their pros and cons. i was glad that my horse was of the mind set to follow the horse in front. It allowed me to be able to think without constantly directing its path.
We did not stop much that day. Just after night fall we reached a place suitable for camping and bathing. Camp was quickly set and as dinner was set upon the fire i ventured to the water to wash off the grime of the road. The water was quite warm when i eased my body into the water. i let out a yelp when i was startled by a bird up in the trees. Draven heard me and came running to see what was wrong.
"brie?"
"i am fine. i was just startled by a bird. i think he is right up in that tree."
i pointed up to the tree where the bird had perched. His eyes looked briefly to where i pointed but quickly returned to gaze upon me. i could feel his eyes upon me. i stood there not moving. He reached out and pulled me to him. His lips sought mine in a tender kiss. After a few moments, he broke the kiss and pushed himself back a bit from me.
"Tell me to go back to camp brie. Tell me that your choice is not made."
"Go or stay if you wish but either way my choice is not yet made."
"brie, please the choice has to be yours. I do not wish to take that from you. You are a sweet temptation and one that I do not know if I can continue to resist. Tell me brie."
"my choice is not yet made."
With that said Draven turned around and made his way back to camp. A part of me wanted to call him back to me. The maiden in me though was afraid and had not made up her mind. i quickly washed and made my way back to camp. He was not in camp upon my return. What would have been dinner burned in the fire. That made me quite angry to see. i had no idea where he had wondered off to. i knew it would do no good to try and look for him.
i settled down next to the fire and ate a bit of cheese and bread. i soon became sleepy and pulled my blankets close to the fire. He was not back in camp when i went to sleep. i wasn't about to lose a night's sleep over his injured ego. i awoke that morning to find myself alone in camp. His bed roll appeared to be not slept and i didn't see him close by. i wandered down to the water to see if he was bathing and i did not see him there.
i packed up our gear from around camp. The horses pranced a bit waiting to be saddled and made ready to leave. i wandered a little ways from camp when it was long past when we would have broken camp for the day. i wanted to see if he was hurt as i walked a certain radius around camp. i collected up some fire wood and berries as i made my way back to camp. By mid day both the horses and i were restless. i brought them water to drink and gave them a small bit of oats.
The day was mostly over when Draven strolled back into camp with a couple of rabbits ready to be placed on a spit and cooked. In that moment my emotions went from concern to anger. i went over to the horses and picked up their water buckets and doused the fire with its contents. i could see a bit of anger cross his face as i headed down to the water to refill the buckets. A part of me knew that he would follow me.
"What the hell was that for brie? Mind telling me why put out the fire? It is obvious that you had kept it going all day?"
"Why should you be allowed a warm meal when you left me alone to worry all day? Ever stop to think about someone besides yourself?"
"Why you ungrateful little..."
"Don't finish that sentence Draven. So before you call me ungrateful and worse consider the things you have done. i am sorry if your ego couldn't handle me wanting a bit more time. Did you ever stop to think that i am afraid of what i am feeling inside?"
"I was afraid last night of not being able to keep my word about you having a choice. I dropped dinner and came running when you yelled out last night. Your beauty has a way of captivating me. A bruised ego I can deal with. I was never that far away but I kept out of sight. I wanted you to have some time to think. I needed time to think as well. you are not the only one a bit afraid of what they are feeling inside. A part of me wants to take away the choices I gave you and keep you for myself."
What little bit of resolve i had left in me to be angry with him went right out the proverbial window with those words spoken. i still was not happy about being left alone for the day and made to worry. i knew, however, in that instant that i was not the only one afraid to let go and simply let fate lead the journey. i closed the distance between us and looked into his eyes.
"Draven, the road that is before us is not for us to decide really. Fate for what ever reason has crossed our two paths. i am still scared of the emotions that i am feeling but i know what my answer is. i knew last night but i was afraid to say it. Do i really need to say it out loud when we both know is the answer?"
"Yes, brie, you need to say it aloud. I want to hear you say it. It is still your choice. I will not force this upon you."
"my answer is yes."
"yes what?"
"i want to stay with you and be Yours."
"And how do you want to be Mine?"
"i want to serve You."
"No holding back or saying that I never gave you a choice?"
"No holding back and the choice is and was mine to make."
A whiney from one of the horses reminded me then of why i truly had started down towards the water. i turned from him for a moment and proceeded to complete my intended task. There really wasn't that much more to say and a few things needed to be completed before there was no light left to complete them in.
As i began to walk past him back into camp he stopped me. He took the bucket from me and looked into my eyes. He instructed me to remove my garments and carry them back to camp. i was told that i would not be wearing clothing when we were camped from that point on. A part of me wanted to resist but another part of me realized that was some reason to this logic. i would have to learn to trust him on these things.
i stepped out of my garments and neatly folded them and carried them as we went back to camp. The bucket was returned to where i had grabbed it from. i quickly moved to prepare camp for sleeping and set things out to bathe. He was able to restore the fire without much fuss. Soon enough dinner was set to cook over the flames. i could see how he watched me as i moved.
"It is time to bathe. Dinner can cook without us standing over it for a while. I have a task that you will repeat every time it is time to bathe. you will wash me."
i looked at him and was bit unsure of how to respond. i quickly gathered up the items needed for bathing. His eyes followed me and i could hear a small chuckle from him.
"It looks like someone is so eager to begin this task that she has forgotten something."
"What have i forgotten?"
"When you are given direction I wish for you to respond with your answer and the words my Master at the end. Do you understand?"
"I do understand my Master."
"What do you understand kitty?"