Since you tested positive, I can't even tell you that I am counting the days! I have no idea how many more days it will be! I assume that you're testing every day? How long is it supposed to take before you test negative? How soon after you are clear will you be able to fly?
I'm sorry to be so desperate. I'm just... well, desperate.
-Alan
On Tuesday, Jun 14, 2022, at 10:04 AM CET, Maddie Smith
wrote:
Alan,
Now dear, no groveling. I find it so very unappealing. Of course I do like to hear about how much you need me, darling. But please, have some self-respect. Think about how much self-control you have darling. Think about how well you use that passion. About the beautiful writing you create when you are forced to channel that energy. About the way the blood feels in your muscles in your lust-filled body. What it feels like to breathe in the air when you are in this mood.
Take your cock in your hand now, Alan, if you haven't already. The reading rules are reinstated. Stroke your cock while you read. Read slowly, dear. Breathe that breath. In and out. Stop stroking when you finish the letter. Do not cum. Do not reread this letter.
Alan, your struggle to keep your promise to me is beautiful, dear. Just as I keep my promise to you.
It reminds me of something I was thinking about a few days ago, when I was in the sex toy store here. They had a little display of cock cages--awful little things! I asked the saleswoman how they worked. Annette was with me and helped translate some of the slang that I don't know. The way she described it! She started giggling when she described how to get a man's balls into it. By the end, we were all in hysterics dear, the three of us, imagining doing that, forcing a man to lock away his... manhood. Imagining doing that to you!
I thought about sending you to the toy store at home to purchase a little cage of your own. Ordering you to go home and lock yourself away until my return. You would have done it too, wouldn't you? Annette didn't believe that you would do it, but I told her that you would if I asked you to. That you'd do it for me.
Ultimately though, I decided that I like the idea of you naked, with no barrier between you and your cock except your obedience to me. Yes, your obedience dear. Your obedience vs your desire. Oh that struggle! That's what I love. I love how you struggle for me.
Love,