This session was in the rehab / apparatus room that had Bondage and Discipline devices that were not in use or specific setups. Just two cameras this time, one facing my face, the other my ass.
The room was well lit and not a dark dungeon setup, probably more like a rehab room than anything else. They had setup a wood sawhorse with a padded top in the middle of the room over a large 12 X 12-foot plastic painters' sheet to cover the flooring. Each of the four horse legs had an eyelet at the bottom to hold restraining clips or rope and the entire thing was height adjustable. I think it came from IKEA; I had seen the style of wood pegs for height adjustment before.
My wife (mistress) was not into bondage and indeed that is why I was being trained to let go for her. But this sawhorse scene was on her list because my genitalia hung down and I was fully accessible for all holes and yet helpless to move. My wife (mistress) had insisted that even if I was submissive, I would be punished at least once per month (never skipping a month) to remind me of who was in charge. Good behavior meant only one monthly punishment session in her view.
While that bondage sawhorse was her one bondage thing, I had absolutely refused to be put in such a predicament where I would be used like fuck holes. So, this was her need and my refusal and bondage that is not normally her thing and here I was practicing the whole setup. Not what I was expecting today, but the removal of another NO was set before me and this looked like the punishment setup to me. I had been good, I had done what I was told, I had earned submissive respect and yet, here I was about to be used badly and with people watching and filming it. My head was spinning.
I was told to disrobe and then come over to the sawhorse for a fitting. They adjusted the legs and I bent over it again and was then tied with wrist restraints and ankle restraints to the horse legs. My mind recognized that I had not yet been cleaned-out.
Because the next session would be the last, Dr Marcus was at this one and it seemed that my wife (mistress) would be participating live in the next session to get final feedback from the team.
Cindy had a strapon and so did Diana. Matching 10" dongs measuring 1.5" around. They asked me to again explain why I was doing this, and I once again noted that I wanted to please my lover by stopping my hang-ups and saying "NO" so that she could use me and enjoy me to her needs. I noted that while I am an attentive giver of cunnilingus and anal licking, I am not generally comfortable with other things and that I wanted to make sure that my wife (lover) was able to get the mental and physical satisfaction that a submissive could provide.
To my shock, I was informed that Dr. Marcus and Cindy and Diana would be watching me evacuate my bowels. No privacy and in fact they were going to do it right there on the sawhorse, camera rolling, three women watching. It was overwhelming to think about this. My hunch was now an OMG level that reached a new high-anxiety point. I was to be filled with water and then I was to release into a bucket while they watched. It seemed insane. They both reassured me that they do this procedure often and that it was part of my treatment to learn to let go of my inhibitions and surrender my privacy. I was not amused, not smiling, not joking and not my normal silly self.
Cindy said, "Prepare yourself for your clean-out. We want to hear you ask for this as we have described it by the count of 3. 3 --- 2 -- 1"
I said "Please clean me out so that I am prepared for anal play and I want you to watch me evacuate so that you can see my submission and cooperation for this type of play. Please train me to show this submission and devotion to my wife (lover)."