It had been almost four days since I had seen Melissa. Well, I see her every day at work pretty much which makes the not seeing her outside of work harder. Nobody at work knew we were dating for sure but once two people are intimate with each other the vibe between them immediately changes. The more observant among us at work were bound to suspect eventually. Not a big deal but we wanted to keep it a secret for as long as we could. Truth is Melissa was one of the most attractive women at work and the bragging side of me wouldn't mind if a couple of my work buddies found out. Not to mention some of the female co-workers. I find that guys become more attractive if word around the female campfire is that you're good in bed. But I was getting ahead of myself. One thing at a time.
Things were busy at work and that was to my advantage. Time flew by but also seemed to slow to a crawl when I thought about how much I desired her. It was always the same process. A memory of being with her would suddenly appear in the front of mind demanding my attention. I would stop working, reflect, feel the beginnings of frustration, and the she would walk by my door. Almost as if on cue. One second I'm working at my desk and the next I'm in bed on my back and she's on top of me, grinding away. The memories are always so clear. Our faces are close and I can feel her hot breath on me while she pants, her hair draped around my face. I always take mental Polaroid's of visions that I find particularly hot during sex. It would seem my mind liked to show them to me at inopportune moments. Great.
Needless to say this made it hard to concentrate at times. Luckily Melissa worked in another department. Her office was not that far from mine however and if she had an opportunity to stroll by my doorway she always took it. Before we started seeing each other we played the normal games of ignoring each other while trying to catch the other noticing. This in addition to the tone of voice we used with each other when we started working together made it obvious that we clicked and were interested in each other. The tone we used was a more natural, talking-to-a-good-friend kind of tone instead of the proper talking-to-a-co worker tone. We just felt comfortable around one another right away but both of us were initially shy about expressing interest.
The physical attraction was there right away as well. She was a beautiful woman. Full figured but in shape with beautiful brown hair. Her face was naturally beautiful and didn't wear much make-up, which I preferred. I thought she was stunning really and that always gave her an upper-hand in my mind. I knew she was attracted to me as well but always felt that I was more into her. We had been fucking for 4 months now and I couldn't be happier. Or so I thought.
Sex was routinely great for us. I made it a point to satisfy her often by finding out exactly what she liked and spoiling her. She in turn spoiled me but it didn't take much effort because I loved being with her in any capacity sexually. We never got rough or anything outside of me pinning her down sometimes while we fucked and pounding away instead of slowly grinding. She seemed to like it and I only did it occasionally but other than that one might even think our sex was almost generic, which was fine by me. It was still sex with a beautiful woman. I never thought she wanted to try anything else.
Until today.
Today I get an email that brought my day to a screeching halt. I saw her this past Saturday night and it was Thursday already. We had both been busy at work and caught up on the phone Tuesday night. I was beginning to wonder when I would see her again. Well, now I knew.
Hey there.
Are you doing anything tonight? If not, I have a surprise for you. Remember our discussion about going to that sex shop? Well Liz asked me to go with her last night to buy a gift for her friend and I ended up buying something! Can you come over?
Let me know. Of course if you're busy I understand = )
Me
My eyes widened and my mouth opened. We
did
have a casual discussion about sex shops recently. Had we ever been to one, what would we get if we went together, that kind of thing. Had she actually gone to one and bought something? What was it? My curiosity was flooded with all kinds of questions and I immediately began feeling nervous. Not only because of the nature of the email but the fact that it was at work. I nervously looked around (as if anyone could see what was on my monitor, please) but nonetheless I was caught off guard. And she was being brave. Taking chances. She went with..Liz? Did that mean something? Liz was a long time friend and I even asked if she would ever mess around with her. She said she didn't see her like that. The whole thing hit me fast and hard and at that moment she walked by my door. She had a short brown skirt on and matching jacket. The sound of her high heels almost reverberated as she walked by. I could have sworn time slowed down for it. Her long legs leading up to that thin waist and her full breasts. Long hair down to her shoulders. I was entranced by the moment. I couldn't. Move.
Then all at once time restored and reality hit. It was then that I noticed.
I had a throbbing hard-on. I was on fire for her.
The wait until days end was torturous.
* * * * *
Day's end did manage to come though and I went home and focused on keeping busy. I put on music and cleaned up a bit. However I never fully distracted myself, I was temporarily obsessed with our planned rendezvous. I couldn't stop pondering and imagining the different ways I was going to fuck her. I was already horny since it had been four days and I try not to masturbate when I'm getting laid regularly so to say I was pent up was an understatement. I was driving myself crazy and the fact that it was self-induced made it worse. All she did was drop me an email for Christ's sake. Planted a seed and I'm going nuts. I checked the clock every fifteen minutes or so and the evening crept by. I did call her when I got home to narrow down a time and maybe get some more info on her "purchase". She said anytime after 9pm was OK. I even tried to guess what she bought and just kept getting the default answer of "You'll see." I was going to see all right. I started getting
that
kind of attitude. The evil villain-rubbing-his-hands-together-with-the-evil-laugh attitude. You bet your tight little ass I was going to see.
So. Anytime after nine. Despite my eagerness I managed to not show up right at nine, but around 9:15. On the way to her place I came to some conclusions about how I was going to handle the evening:
We had discussions in the past about what she liked in bed control wise. She told me she liked being taken. She liked being told what to do but I never really tried too much of that with her. I gave the occasional order of switching positions maybe but was always afraid of bossing her around for some reason. I was being inhibited and decided that tonight I was going to take a leap of faith.
That's what it is really because in my experience you never know with some women. One second you're getting a great blow-job and you say "Faster". The next second she stops and gets an attitude because you gave an order, gets pissed, whatever. All at once it became crystal clear to me that I was not tapping into our full sexual potential. I sensed I had more leeway than I was using and decided to push myself, to push
us
in a new direction. But that meant taking control. That meant telling her what to do. That meant not being afraid of anything. Being firm. She had taken a chance and went to a place where maybe she wasn't 100% comfortable and even bought something. I was going to match her effort with mine. I was going to take her, and fuck her properly.
So there I sat in the car in front of her building. My stomach was a hair nervous and I felt very determined overall. I got out of the car, a man on a mission. Nothing motivates a man like sex and the dinner bell had been rung. There was purpose in my steps. I walked up to her door and knocked.
I heard footsteps and felt my heart beat harder. Point of no return.
She answered the door with a friendly "Hi!" I immediately looked at what she was wearing. It was the same skirt from work, but her jacket was off. She had a white blouse on. She looked hot and my desire escalated from the visual bite I took.
"Hey there." I said. She immediately turned around and walked towards the kitchen in the next room.
"I was going to pour a couple of drinks." She said on the way. I followed her with no response.
She walked into the kitchen and began to open the refrigerator.
"God you should have seen today, I.." she began.
I quickly grabbed her arm from the door and yanked her towards me. I immediately wrapped the other arm around her waist, pulled her close and put my hand in hers, weaving our fingers together. Our eyes met and she had a confused, startled look on her face.
I moved my arm from her waist up to the back of her head, under her hair and squeezed both hands a bit. I held her there for a brief second, gauging her reaction. She was looking at me for answers. I decided to answer her by not saying anything. My expression would say it all. It was a semi-stern matter-of-fact expression. I watched her read me but then pulled her slightly closer to me to answer her further.
As our faces got closer her expression changed slightly. She knew what I was doing but didn't seem entirely
sure