Things were really tense between Scott and I for a few days after he had caught me at the club being tied up and whipped by Rob. I couldn't blame him, after all I did lie and cheat on him. I betrayed him in the worst way, I was lucky he didn't immediately file for divorce. We did eventually talk and Scott listened to what I had to say this time even though some of it was hard for him to hear. He just didn't understand my need for pain but he did agree to start experimenting with some basic BDSM.
I found out later that Scott had actually been put in touch with Rob a few weeks before he caught me at the club. It was really sweet of him I thought, since he had been trying to learn a few things about BDSM so he could eventually talk to me about it. Rob had told him that he was training a new pain slut and he should stop by to see it first hand and maybe he would understand why his wife wanted to be treated like that. Little did either of them know that I was the pain slut he was talking about.
When we started our experimentation Scott really got into it and even set up a play room for us in the unfinished end of our basement. He built a St. Andrews cross, we had on old massage table that he attached some hooks and eye bolts to and added some extensions out to the sides at one end so he could tie me down with my legs spread wide. The ceiling was high in our basement so there was enough room that he could setup an old hand cranked winch and pulley system so he could suspend me off the floor several feet, and we had started collecting various items to play with, whips, floggers, paddles, nipple clamps and things like that.
We would talk about what we wanted to do and then try it. Scott was trying very hard to give me what I wanted and meet my needs. We had some great kinky sex for several weeks and it was really fun but I could tell Scott was still holding back. He did drip hot wax on me and whipped me a few times and it was great and I loved it, but he was taking it way too easy on me. I didn't want to bring it up since he was trying so hard and he had come a long way in short time considering that just a few months ago he wouldn't even talk to me about this.
One day not long ago we were talking about the things that we had done and what could change, and different things we could still try.
"So you do like what we have been doing Beth?" Scott asked.
"Oh yes Scott it's been really fun and I appreciate that you are really trying so hard to do this for me." I said.
"I feel like there is a 'but' in there somewhere though Beth. Come on we promised to be honest, good and bad both. I think I know what it is, but I want to hear you say it so I know for sure." Scott said.
"Well Scott, it's..... the pain. I could go for more of that, a lot more. I can feel that you are holding back." I said. ,
"I know Beth, but I can't help it. I'm afraid that I'm going to hurt you." Scott said.
"That's the idea." I said with a smile.
"You know what I mean Beth. Just look at the difference in our sizes, I'm 6'4" 250 pounds and you are so small, you are 5'3" and only about 115 pounds. I'm afraid if I get too carried away that I might really injure you and I couldn't stand that." Scott said.
"That's not going to happen Scott, I trust you completely with this." I said.
"Ok, give me a number then. Say on a scale of one to ten, where am I on that scale and what are you looking for." Scott said.
"Well Scott I would say that the few times you whipped me that it was about a two or a three and I'm looking for an eight or a nine." I said.
"I don't know Beth, I.....I'll think about it I promise." Scott said.
"Please do Scott, I'm a lot tougher and more resilient than you might think given my petite size." I said.
Scott gave a chuckle and I asked, 'What's funny?"
"This, the whole thing here.... and what we're talking about.... and to think that I use to....well no, never mind." Scott said.
"Tell me Scott, complete honesty, remember?"
"Ok you're right. It's just that I was thinking about what I use to fantasize about with you and compared to what we're talking about now it's pretty vanilla." Scott said.
"Tell me Scott, please." I said.
"Well I use to think about things like taking you to a nude beach. You are so hot Beth and I wanted to show you off and have everyone look at your sexy naked body."
"That sounds fun, I would do that. What else?" I said.
"Well, I use to fantasize about threesomes." Scott said.
"Really, with another girl or another guy?" I asked.
"Both actually, sometimes it would be a girl, sometimes a guy, sometimes two or three guys, but mainly I always wanted to watch you have sex with another woman." Scott said.
Wow I thought, now we are finally getting somewhere. Scott had never told me anything like this before, threesomes, two or three guys at a time, watching me have sex with another woman. I wished he had told me these things sooner, I never even knew he thought about things like this. I would have eagerly agreed to it all.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?" I said.
"It was fun to think that while we were dating and engaged but once we were married, I don't know, it started to feel wrong to me somehow." Scott said.
"There is nothing wrong about it Scott, they are just fantasies." I said.
"I know that now, I wish I would have tried to talk to you about these things sooner." Scott said.
"I would have done it you know, have sex with another woman I mean. I would have done that for you. I would do it now if that's still what you want." I said.
Scott chuckled again and said, 'Well that's good to know, I'll definitely keep that in mind. But seriously getting back to what you want, the pain you want. I do promise that I'll think about it." Scott said.
"Thank you Scott, I appreciate that." I said.
A week went by and not another word was said about it. I could tell that Scott was struggling with it and I hoped he would decide he could do it. The kinky sex we were having was fun but I needed some pain mixed in with my pleasure so I could get the intense orgasms that it gave me. On Saturday Scott came into the living room with a serious look on his face, a look that worried me.
"We have to talk Beth." Scott said.
Oh no, conversations that start out like that don't usually turn out well. Did he finally decide that he couldn't take this anymore and wanted the divorce or what? I was getting scared when Scott began to talk.
"Beth we have to talk about the pain you want." Scott said.
"Scott if you aren't comfortable with it we don't have to do it." I said.
"No Beth that's not fair to you. I thought about something you said, that you trusted me to do this for you. So I thought that if you trust me that much then I should trust you too and know that this is what you really want, that it's something you really need. I do want to do this for you." Scott said.
"That's great Scott, I'm so excited to hear that" I said.
"I've been doing some research and talked to some people who are into this kind of thing and I think I found a solution that I can deal with. It's supposed to be one of the most painful BDSM punishments there is, so I have to ask, before I do anything, do you truly want that much pain inflicted on you?