Into month four of our contract and my spirit has not only been broken but basically it has been crushed and is really non existent any longer. They have mind fucked me to the point of total submission. . . I rarely even dare to question any of their requests no matter how humiliating, how immoral, how degrading or depraving. My hard limits are still being respected so I haven't had to utilize the safe word yet and it turns me on that they keep trying new things to raise the bar on what I will do to please them. It's like a pride thing for me, how far will they push me and how far will I go for them?
Robby is ensuring that I have proper supplements added to my diet as I rarely eat real food and am at my lowest weight of 89 pounds. Although most people would look at me and say I was definitely either bulemic or anorexic I think I look perfect. My boobs are now gone just two puffy nipples that barely raise up from the chest that lies flat covering my rib cage which shows my ribs while the rest of my torso is hollow and my hips look like they could easily just tear through my skin as they are so pointy. I look sick but feel good. They have allowed me to get a short haircut so that I can be confused as a boy to the non observant person.
I have offered some of the depravity ideas to Robby and Kayla and as a reward they have allowed me to release and orgasm weekly. I spent a week chained by the ankle to a wall in the basement and lived like one of those captives you read about who escape after years of being held.
Robby of course figured out a way to profit from that week charging three of the grandpas to take turns as my kidnapper and they each had me for two nights and did what you would expect of a crazed kidnapper. I still had to do my clean up duties to Kayla each day but at night time it was old man time and they left no hole untouched. One of them brought a buddy along for some three way action and at Robby's request they were not kind to me. Although my frail body made them be gentler than they may normally have been. I still had bloody scabbed knees from kneeling on the basement floor while I serviced old man cock and drank water and ate kibble from my dog dishes.