I do really have a massage about once a month and the therapist is a man. Originally, I thought I would be in a pair of shorts and a T-shirt or something like that, but he asked me to take off as much of my clothing as I would feel comfortable in. Not being an exhibitionist and generally not being entirely relaxed with most of my clothing off, I opted for taking off only the shirt. When he came back in to the room, he said it would be easier if I took off the shorts too. Deciding the guy’s only interest was in doing his “job” and that I needed to relax and get over it, I took my shorts off.
Over the month we have been doing this, he finally asked me if he could unhook my bra because it gets in the way. What the heck was I going to do, say NO? Ok, so the bra gets unhooked and when it comes time to turn over onto my back, it’s a pain to close it and it’s still in the way when he starts to massage the front of me. So, now the sessions take place and I am only in my panties.
Half the time, I forget I’m supposed to have a massage and only remember it in the evening while I’m driving home from work. So, I’m not paying attention to what underwear I’m putting on in the morning. Since I have some thong panties and other more skimpy types, I’m afraid I’m going to put them on and then end up having to go there! (I have some on right now because it’s so hot out and I’d like to have on as few pieces of clothing as I can get away with and still go out in public. I admit, they also kind of turn me on a little.)
The massage always starts the same way. He has me go in to a private room and it’s dimly lit. In the background there is quite sensual music playing (a CD I have brought from home; it is MY massage after all!) and there is the sound of water tinkling in a small fountain by the door. It’s a small room, maybe 10X10, and at an angle in the middle of the room is the massage table. It stands at about the same height as my hips. There are pillows on a chair in the corner, and the table is covered by two sheets – one to lie on and one to cover myself. He asks me to go in and get ready and tells me he will be back in a moment.
I go in and close the door behind me. I sit on the table, take off my sandals and place them under the chair. I pull my blouse off over my head and fold it, placing it on the chair. I reach back and unhook my bra and my breasts slowly tumble out. It’s cold in the room and my nipples start to get hard, shrinking to about half of their size stand erect. I wriggle my shorts down over my hips and realize I am wearing those darn thong panties! They are made of a shiny material that you can see right through! Great, now what? It’s not like I can go home and change my clothes at this point. I’m already embarrassed and feel like fleeing from the room, but I try to calm myself. Hey, the guy has probably seen it all! What’s a pair of skimpy panties to him? I just lay down on my stomach, as always, cover myself with the sheet and a few minutes later he walks in.
He asks me what kind of massage I want today. Would I like a relaxing one or something more invigorating? I ask him to do a combination of things. I ask him about a massage called Rolfing, because he has just finished his classes in this type of massage. He beings to talk about it as he pulls the sheet down to my waist, starting to work on my back and shoulders. I’m a little uncomfortable because of the panties and feel a bit more “revealed” than usual. I’m also more aware that my breasts are somewhat exposed by the side of my chest, but he insists that I lay with my hands and arms up by my head, exposing them even more. My nipples become erect again and I’m starting to feel aroused. I tell myself, this is absurd. It’s just a damn massage! I’ve had them before and there’s nothing sexual about them at all. Nevertheless, I almost want to apologize and explain the panties, but I know I’d feel more foolish than ever and decide to keep my mouth shut.
He’s telling me about Rolfing and says he would like to try a little of it on me. He proceeds to tell me about an “older” lady (what category does that put me in I wonder!) he’s been working on. It’s a 10-session therapy and it is “somewhat invasive” – but he does this in steps. It’s the first time he has done this outside of class and he’s a little uncomfortable about it as well. He tells the woman what he is going to do before it does it and she says, “Oh, come on! You’re young enough to be my son.” That, he says, embarrasses him even more!
I tell him that after he gets used to doing it, it won’t be any big deal. He agrees and tells me that he uses intense pressure and a sort of pulling motion on the inner thighs and pubic area – but it’s designed to release muscle tension in those little erotic zones and it’s the only way to do the massage. I have nothing to worry about because I’m sure he’s not going to be using that technique on me, but I start thinking about it anyway.
I’m beginning to feel the heat rise between my legs and my panties feel damp. I cannot quite get my mind on relaxing for this massage and I keep thinking, what if it were you giving me the massage instead of him? He says I feel really tight today and I need to remember to breathe deeply and slowly, while I’m thinking other little delightful thoughts! Shit – I need to get a grip!