I'm being beaten again. Of course I am. This time it's with a hair-brush. Ok, a spiked hair-brush. Where one finds a spiked hair-brush should be beyond me, but let's face it, they're probably a dime a dozen on Amazon.
I am bent over the back of a dining room chair. My ankles are tied to the legs in back, and my arms are stretched as far as they can go so that my wrists are tied to the legs in front. I am totally naked, unless you count the black leather dog-collar around my neck, or the red ball-gag in my mouth. My African-American neighbor, the Black Mistress, is going to town on my behind with that hair-brush. Why? Because I was late. And why was I late? Because I'm always late. I always have been. That's just Taylor. Want to know now to set your watch? Wait for Taylor to arrive, and set it back an hour. Guaranteed, you'll hit it right on the minute.
I wonder if Black Mistress knew this before she blackmailed me. This horrendous situation certainly seems "Taylor"-made for me to fail. Black Mistress insists that I be at her back door at 8:45am sharp every Friday morning. Not a minute before or a minute after. So of course, after 8 weeks I have yet to make it once. I can't help but suspect that this obsession with promptness is just an excuse for her to come up with new ways to punish me every week.
And by punish, I mean beat. It's always something new every week. We went from whips and floggers through her husband's favorite belts (studded and non-studded) to a cane and a wooden spoon. Even her bare hand, although I think that eventually hurt her as much as me (ha!). So this week it's this spiked hair-brush. And of course it hurts. They all hurt. I'm not much for pain, or bondage for that matter. I've screamed and cried through every single one of these punishments, and today's no different. I wish I wouldn't. I wish I could control myself when I'm being punished, so as not to give Black Mistress the satisfaction. But I can't. I'm a screamer and a crier, and the more I do of each, the more Black Mistress seems to like it, which means the more I am beaten as Black Mistress gets turned on.
Why me? Why does this shit always happen to the people who can't appreciate it? Why couldn't Black Mistress have ensnared Nan from down the block instead? That little freak is a total lesbo nympho. She's always undressing us with her eyes and licking her lips. We all know it. Nan's fooling no one but herself by staying "true" to her husband. I wouldn't even be surprised if this bondage 'n' beating shit turned her on. But oh no, the woman who would like this sort of thing? She's stuck at home in her dull life of monogamy and missionary positions. The woman who hates every second of this with a passion? She's the one bent over the chair screaming and drooling through her ball-gag.
At least it's a Stanton Black. The chair, that is. Black Mistress has taste, and isn't reluctant about spending for it. That's the kind of thing I can respect, even while I'm drooling all over it.
About that drool: I just can't help it. I wish I could, believe me. It's disgusting. The feel of it pooling back behind that gag and then seeping out is bad enough. Having to see it happening is even worse. But the worst part about it? Black Mistress is a stickler for cleanliness. Everything I drool I'll have to lick up later. Anyone want to trade places with me? Even you, Nan?
The worst thing about all this is that I'm being blackmailed for nothing. Her good-for-nothing husband may be an attractive African-American doctor, but he's also a two-bit player in my book. He made a play for me behind some hedges at an afternoon get-together at Siobhan's place one Saturday. Sure, he looks real good if you're into black men and cheating, but I'm into neither. But he snuck in a kiss, thinking that would do the trick. Spoiler alert: it didn't. He got the hint, backed off, and apologized. No big deal, I figured. His success rate was probably pretty good, and he just got a little overconfident. I wasn't wild about a kiss I never consented to, but figured by the way he dropped it, he wasn't going to be anymore of a problem. Making something of it would be idiotic since it would just fade away on it's own.
But of course, it didn't fade away. Some fucking asshole was spying on us, and got a pristine photo of the kiss. That was me all right, no fucking doubt about it. The doctor's wife presented the photo to me in her living room, right on the couch where she fucked my asshole raw with her strap-on for the first time the very next week. She claimed a "concerned neighbor" sent her the picture. I call bullshit on that. She probably spied on us and took it herself, but what does that matter? Clearly, nothing happened between us, and her husband was the one who overstepped my boundaries. Sure, Black Mistress could swallow that. But would my husband?
That was the question. Would he? Would my husband take my word against our African-American neighbor, who was prepared to spin quite the yarn around that photo? I couldn't be sure. We'd been married for 23 years now. We'd had ups and downs, good years and bad, and a little bit of marriage counseling along the way. I knew he trusted me...but I also knew if he ever saw this photo, he'd never be able to un-see it. For the rest of my life, I'd know that photo was in his head every time we had the slightest disagreement. Eventually, he'd have to start wondering. I couldn't have that.