I try moving my head to follow him but he went behind me. Thinking he's about to untie me I instinctively tense my shoulders, getting ready to move them up and down as soon as I can.
"I'm not done yet. You're in a hurry?"
He leans toward me and continues
"Listen carefully: here's what's going to happen. On Monday you will be back at the café. But you will NOT sit at the corner booth. You will take a table by the window and you will sit facing the street, laptop to the side not in front of you. And you will wear something red. I don't care what as long as it's visible. If I come to the café and you're not at the window wearing red I won't go in. Understand?"
"But I don't have anything red. I might find something dark blue."
"Is that computer just for show? If it is leave it at home"
"What? No! I need it for work."
"Good. Now we know you have a job. Final reminder: Monday. Café. Window. Something Red."
"I told you I don't have anything red to wear!"
"For fuck's sake! BUY SOMETHING!"
As soon as he said that his hand was on my throat again squeezing lightly this time but he got the attention he wanted.
"You're smart. I know you are. Don't play the dumb card with me again."
He let go of my throat and started to move around. That's when I really felt a need to get my arm free and started pulling and twisting like crazy.
"What's wrong?"
He got near me and I could see concern in his eyes. As soon as I saw that I stopped moving "Umm...emm... my nose started itching really badly and it's driving me crazy..." I was about to ask him to free just one arm when the room exploded with the most wonderful booming laughter I ever heard. He then proceeded to scratch my nose.
"Next time just ask."
As soon as he said that his smile disappeared and his eyes darkened again. I don't think he meant to say that last part. At least not out loud.
Next Time
... next time... I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice when he set my arms free.
"It's late. I'll get you a taxi"
"No need. I live pretty close I can walk the distance. I've done it before"
"Several times. I know. I'm still getting you a taxi."
I was about to protest again but he stopped me before I could
"STOP ARGUING! I'm not in the mood"
The taxi ride lasted under 5 minutes. 5 long minutes in which all I could think of were those two words
Next Time
. Was there going to be a next time? He thinks there will be. Do I want a next time being tied up like that? I don't know. I'm not sure I do. My first "Date" with this man wasn't exactly by the book. I was slammed against the wall, choked until I passed out and then I ended up tied to a chair having my nose scratched by a stranger. Admittedly a stranger I had been stalking for almost a week but still...
Next Time
It took me forever to fall asleep. Thoughts were swimming in my head like a pack of hungry piranhas devouring any attempts at sleeping. I had to fish them out one by one and I managed to take care of all except two. The biggest and scariest. So heavy and big that I was sure I will cave under their weight and the invisible girl will return. It took a long time but my mind was made and the 2 large piranhas were still swimming around but caged and under control.
I've decided I want a next time - a terrifying yet exiting prospect. But asking me to wear red... that was downright mean! And yet the thought of him not entering the café was scarier still. For a moment I thought about wearing a salmon pink shirt I have instead of actual red but his words
"Don't play the stupid card with me again"
came back to remind me that it's not a good idea. By the time I got my thoughts in order dawn was breaking.
I spent most of Saturday in bed. My body was aching all over from the night before and I was not in a shopping mood. I knew there was a small boutique close to the café and I decided to go there on Monday after I spend a few hours working from home. It was past 3 pm by the time I went to the boutique. I entered and went straight to the woman working there and asked for a red shirt. I tried the few that she had but they were either too small or too big and I was getting a little panicky. I may have left this too long and there is no time to look for a different store. I quickly scanned the store again and saw a red dress on one of the hangers. I tried it on and it seemed to fit. I didn't even care anymore I just wanted to get out and go to the café.
I kept the dress on, got a bag for my old clothes and went to the café. As I sat at the table by the window I felt silly, like a mannequin. I kept looking over to my safe spot in the corner. The one where I could see the world go by instead of sitting here feeling like everyone was watching the silly girl in her short red dress. I was lost in my longing for the corner booth when
"You're not going to say hello?"
I was so startled I almost spilled my coffee.
"Nice dress."
We spent quite some time at the café just talking. Talking about music, work and other things people talk about on a first date.
I actually enjoyed the conversation. I was glad he didn't ask any difficult personal questions. At some point a man passed by and looked my way.
"You're being checked out"
instinctively my gaze turned to the booth but his question brought me back to face him.
"So, why the invisible girl? Why hide away when there's so much life to live?"
Ah, and here come the personal questions. "I don't know. I tried so many times but I was never enough, or was too much or I got bored. And in the end I just got tired. I just gave up I suppose."
"What about you? You promised I'll get to know you better."
"I'm not sure you really want to. I think you have some idea in your head and I think that getting to know me will be a disappointment. You're looking for prince charming to save you from your corner. I fear you got the wolf instead."
"I'm not a princess and prince charming won't do for me. I had my prince charming. He was so charming all the way to the moment he rode away with someone else. And wolves are amazing creatures, beautiful, strong and loyal. I actually have a tattoo of a wolf. Who knows, you might even get to see it someday."
I was expecting more questions but he just got up.
"it's getting late. I think we should go."
As we were leaving the café he looked at me from top to bottom and when his eyes took in my shoes he burst out laughing again.
"Short red dress with trainers? Suits you."
"Well, if you must know I didn't have time to get shoes to match the dress ok? You're the one that insisted on me wearing red."
He just kept looking at me amused but I could see that something else was also on his mind. He offered me his arm and when our arms interlocked he held so tight I couldn't get it out even if I wanted to. "This isn't the way to your building" I said as he was leading us in a different direction.
"I know. It's the way to yours."
"What? But... I don't understand."
"See, unlike you, I am actually good at being invisible. You just think you are."