Standing, starring at the closed door, the sound of her heart pounding in her ears seems deafening; looking around to see if there is anyone else that can hear it; Ravenna's traitorous hand trembles slightly clutching the small card; Absently she smoothes the lightly bent edge, no doubt a result of being jumbled in her bag with like so much other detritus of her daily life. Silently she admonishes herself for the action; as if the card were in need of soothing.
[R1]
Seemingly alive in her hand, this small piece of paper is sending a buzz through her body, causing her breath to catch and ending up in Ravenna's most private parts; the moistness she feels causing her to flush with a mix of embarrassment and excitement...
Thinking back, simultaneously shuddering and smiling at how the card came to be in her possession, and the events that brought Ravenna before this heavy door...
Running late and embarrassed, with excuses rapidly tumbling through her mind...Hair roughly thrown in a ponytail, the 'interview suit' so carefully planned abandoned, stood up like a blind date, [R2]in the closet. Real life getting in the way... pausing to catch her breath and slowing down to the stride of a non crazy person the near run now a very quick walk; anonymous amongst all of the other people rushing around with their own important things to do and places to go preoccupied with their own concerns.
Catching the eye of the young man standing next to her Ravenna stops, looking at him with a sideways glance; thinking "I know he is judging me," her stomach flips "he knows my darkest secrets, needs, desires. How?" She sees clear disapproval of her in his face, in his eyes a judgment rendered harshly. Looking away, face reddening, Ravenna continues to berate herself "surely he must know who it is I am tardy meeting."
Nearly tumbling through the door in a panic quickly look around, her eyes darting back and forth, praying she hasn't missed her appointment, having heard how busy he is from a girlfriend during an evening of tipsy
confessions...
Feeling them before actually locating their owner, Ravenna spots a pair of vivid brown eyes burning through her from across the very crowded shop, full of the typical late afternoon rush. Finding it hard to hold the gaze sheepishly she looks away; flushed from the overexertion and trying to hide her bright red cheeks. Looking up again the eyes are still pinning her in place—making her wish the floor would swallow her up,. She takes a deep breath as, finally, a hand now beckons her over...
Back in the present, staring at the heavy door, flipping the card in her hand over and over as she shakes herself back into reality, shifting her weight from foot to foot, nervous, a habit picked up years ago as a child having to perform in front of peers, turning the card again over in her hand and trying to focus on the dark text standing out from the off-white background. Checking her watch, she reaches for the phone just to the left of the heavy door then recoils sharply, all of her senses screaming to turn and leave.
Taking another deep breath and thinking to herself "Ravenna, God hates a coward" a hand slowly lifts the phone from its cradle and is almost shocked when she realizes it's hers...a short word, a reply. She replaces the phone, eyes darting left and right, a last chance...too late, the door opens slightly. There is no turning back now.
Passing through the door and entering into a hallway Ravenna feels and hears, rather than sees the door close and lock. Sensing his presence as he moves from behind her, he politely takes her coat and bag, and as she looks back at the locked closed door the realization washes over you that there will be no escape--and no interruption of the outside world.
Quiet words emanate in the foyer. "Follow." She instinctively averts her eyes, following the dark suit. Just as instinctively she catches herself studying him from the back. Suddenly turning, a knowing look passes between the two. More embarrassment evident on her face.
Indicating a chair, Ravenna is offered a seat more as a command then a request. Watching him as he crosses the room, a drink is proffered. Accepting the glass of water feeling strangely parched she appreciates the cool, heavy glass giving her something to do with her hands . Finally settling down he sits across from her, a small table nearby. Trying to be casual and failing miserably, Ravenna answers the idle question he asks, wondering about the small talk, feeling the hairs on the back of her neck stand up...instinct kicking in once more and beginning to look for some escape.
Defeated she realizes there is none. The words hang in the air. She hadn't heard them over the roar of her pulse. Again, the single word. "Stand." Harder now. A non-verbal, verbal warning. The same she uses with her sometimes rambunctious children. Establishing control. Ravenna, as her children do, comply.
"Turn." A simple order. "Please", a seemingly strange request, courteous. Proper. Turing away from him, Ravenna closes her eyes and breathing out is resigned to what is to transpire. "Lift your skirt." Again the words are measured, quiet, emotionless followed by a very mannered "please." She doesn't know how to react.
Her hand is on the hem of her skirt when the crack of a strap across your ass shocks her. The request is repeated harshly. Quickly she learns there will be no negotiation, nor any pause. Quickly pulling the hem
of the skirt up, exposing her legs, encased in sheer stockings which are attached to a dark garter belt, Ravenna feels her behind, stinging from the strap, exposed to the cool air of the room. Keeping her eyes clamped closed and feeling utterly exposed to him, she avoids the shame of having to look him in the eye. The strap sings again, and again against her ass. Three quick, short blows...the flesh springs to life as the cool air of the room caresses the quickly heated skin...He stands behind her, Ravenna can feel him. Low words in her ear burning into her soul. His hand running over the curve of her ass, roughly sliding between her legs, feeling the desire through moistening panties.