Everyone looked at Steve in shock.
He sat, alone, in the ME's office as the whole place swarmed with detectives. Rafferty had immediately called the Lieutenant and he had rushed over with half of the other officers from the office.
Steve knew he would be put on the suspect list, immediately, as husbands always were, especially when there was an indication that the wife had been involved in some kind of an affair. He was still sitting in the chair, leaning over with his elbows on his knees and his face in his hands, when he heard someone else come in. He looked up and recognized the two men from the Internal Affairs Division. Well, that sealed it. He looked at them.
"Steve, we need to ask you some questions."
"Not without my attorney or a union representative here."
The IAD detective looked at him and frowned.
"Steve, you know how that looks! You lawyer up right off the bat and it just screams guilty!"
"Fuck you, Gus! As far as you guys are concerned, I'm already guilty and all you want to do is figure out how to bend the facts to make it stick."
The IAD detective tensed and his voice reflected it.
"That was uncalled for! We're here to find out the truth!"
"Yeah, the truth the way IAD sees it. Take off Gus. I'll talk to you when I have an attorney, until then, you can pound sand!"
The IAD detective started to speak and then thought better of it. He turned, with his partner, and left. Rafferty stuck her head in the door.
"What do they want?"
"They want to crucify me."
"Why?"
"It's their job. When a cop's wife is murdered, it always seems they try to prove the cop is guilty but it's really no different than any wife's murder investigation. They're going to find out, eventually, that we had been fighting for weeks. They're also going to find out that I left the bar last night, drunk. They won't care that I haven't seen her since our last fight and they won't care that I drove directly home from the bar and collapsed on the bed, alone. As far as they're concerned, I went to the building, caught my wife in flagrante, beat her boyfriend to death and then, in a drunken rage, rammed that pole up her ass."
"You didn't, did you?"
"Hell no! I wouldn't go to that much trouble for that bitch. I just wanted her out of my life."
Just then the Lieutenant came in and looked at Rafferty.
"Excuse us a minute."
She bowed out and pulled the door shut.
"As of right now, you're on Administrative Leave, with pay. Aside from the fact that you just found your wife murdered in a most horrendous way, you are one of the prime suspects."
Steve nodded.
"Do you want my badge and gun?"
"Hell no! As far as I'm concerned, you are on Grievance Leave and you can take as long as you like but, as you know, the IAD boys are going to want to talk to you, again. What the hell did you say to Gus? His panties were in a wad so tight he couldn't hardly walk."
Steve told him what he had told the IAD investigator.
"You do know how to make friends but I must agree with you. Now, get your ass out of here and go home."
"That house is not really where I want to go. Lots of bad memories."
"Where are you going to go?"
"Hell, I don't know. Maybe a hotel."
"That'll get expensive in a hurry! Whatever you decide, let me know how to get in touch with you besides the cell phone. The IAD boys will be looking for you."
"Fuck them."
"Go. Get out of here."
Steve stood and gathered himself. When he walked out of the office, the rest of the place got quiet and he could feel the eyes on him. He walked straight to the door, without looking at anyone, and headed for the stairs. As he started to mount the stairs, he heard the click of heels behind him, turned and saw Rafferty.
"What happened?"
"I'm on vacation."
"What?"
"Administrative Leave. Officially, Grievance Leave. Unofficially, I am a favored suspect in the murder of my wife."
"What are you going to do?"
"I don't know. Go home, pack a few things, find a place to stay so I don't have to go back to that house and then probably get stinking, falling down drunk."
She looked at him.
"What do I do?"
"You go back and get the Lieutenant to assign you a new partner and go on about your business. Sorry, Rafferty, I was really getting to like you."
He turned and headed up the stairs as she stood and looked up after him.
His mind was blank as he drove back to the house. Arriving home, he went into the house, looked around and gathered up his laptop and some papers from his desk. He went to the bedroom and packed a couple of bags, turned off the lights and, carrying the two bags, grabbed his computer case, went out the front door, locked it and walked to the car. He tossed the bags into the back seat, climbed in and then just sat there.
Driving required a destination and he didn't have one. He turned the key, backed out of the driveway, turned down the street and, basically, let the car take its own course. He drove randomly until he saw a neon light flashing in front of a 'hole in the wall bar' in a seedy strip mall. He pulled in and was soon inside, sitting at the bar with a scotch in front of him.
Sometime later, his phone rang. It took him a minute to recognize it and the four double scotches he had enjoyed were making it difficult to think in a cognitive manner. He was well on his way to stinking drunk but managed to find the phone and answer it.
"Stevens."
"Steve, are you ok?"
"Who the fuck is this?"
"Steve, its Angela Rafferty."
"RAFFERTY! What a surprise. Are you calling to tell me you want to come over and arrest me?"
"No, Steve. I'm just concerned."
"Rafferty, you're one hell of a partner. You're still worried about a nearly convicted wife murderer?"
"Steve, how much have you had to drink?"
"Not enough! But I'm about to fix that."
"Where are you?"
"I don't know. It's a nice place, though. The bartender is nice and doesn't ask a lot of questions and the other drunks keep to themselves."
"STEVE! Look, ask the bartender where you are."
He looked at the bartender.
"Hey Bud! Where the hell am I?"
"The, He's Not Here Lounge."
Steve burst out laughing.
"I'm at the, He's Not Here Lounge. Isn't that a gas?"