6. Deep Exposure.
The taste and smell of Mistress Melissa's behind, her delicious sex and her nectar, was in my mouth and nostrils in the car all the way home.
I pulled into my garage and headed for the bathroom, intent on freshening up before heading to my bed. I squeezed a line of toothpaste onto my toothbrush and stopped and looked in the mirror.
On the face of it, I saw a normal reflection. Nowhere could I see any evidence that, just thirty minutes earlier, I had been made to lick a Mistress' arse completely clean, or drink her nectar directly from her bladder. Nothing about my reflection indicated that the things I had been made to do were not for me; that there was no orgasm for me at the end of it as a sort of trade of pleasure. The transaction was one way. She took her pleasure from me.
Mistress Melissa had given instructions and I had carried them out. I had performed my function and been virtually kicked into the street and told to go home.
Used. I thought.
"You like being used." I said to my reflection.
"Look at yourself. You got into this because you're bi and yet you haven't had real sex with anyone; and yet you still do it."
I pondered the toothbrush.
"You don't even want to get rid of the taste, it's become an excitement you crave."
I looked at the shower cubicle, then back at my reflection.
"Was Jonathan right? Has the decision been made?"
Of course he was right. I thought, raising the toothbrush I started to clean my teeth; the peppermint of the toothpaste eventually masking the taste of Melissa from my mouth.
But did I make the decision? I thought, rinsing my mouth. Is this really me?
I showered before getting into bed; still baffled at my own feelings. Lying in the dark I looked back on the encounter with Mellissa and Jonathan.
"Is this really me?" I whispered to the dark room.
"You had your tongue inside her." I whispered again to myself.
"You drank her pee." I immediately realized I was smiling and getting aroused.
"Why is this so fucking exciting?" I said as my hand maneuvered to my cock.
I started to masturbate to the thoughts of Melissa's moans as I had penetrated her passage with my tongue. Deeper and deeper she had insisted I go before laying on her back on the table to allow me to drink from her wet opening. She orgasmed with small gasps before grabbing my hair to hold my open mouth to accept her nectar. Warm and sweet and yet pungent; I had gulped her down. I had licked the table clean and I realized now, that I was proud of it.
Then it hit me.
I was about to orgasm myself in my bed. I had not asked Jonathan about the rules on masturbation. Catherine had been specific and I had no information to go off and I was about to go off like a rocket. There was nothing to do other than grab tissues and let the orgasm take me. I would have to deal with this in the morning.
Why is it important? I thought. They aren't here. They don't know what I get up to in my bed.
"Why is this important?" I whispered to myself. "Surely, I can pleasure myself without them?"
Do they own me already? I thought.
"They've owned you since you got the taxi in the rain." I said to the night.
I tossed and turned my way through a restless night and awoke startled, disturbed by the beeping of the alarm clock; which I usually cancelled before it went off. Ten minutes after showering and cleaning my mouth with mouthwash I was sitting at my desk with coffee and my laptop. The bedroom TV showed the latest news which was duplicated on my laptop; I scanned the latest, then moved to my emails.
Christopher.
Subject: New skill.
"What the?" I said to the laptop and opened the email and read the body.
We hope the chat with Jonathan went well and that you are clearer about The Code. We also hear you have a new skill which we are keen to experience. We expect a full report. Be here tonight at 7pm.
Christopher F.
My heart started beating faster. Any sense of being bleary eyed left me instantly.
"Fuck, these guys are fast." I said to the laptop; re-reading the email several times.
I started a reply and thought better of it.
No.
Jonathan had said that I could approach them as equals so tonight, I would. I put my personal emails aside and tried to concentrate on work but retuned to the email several times before I closed off for the day and started to get ready.
At just before 7pm I pulled into the driveway of 86, checked my appearance and knocked on the door. Catherine answered, smiling. Knowing.
"Wine?" She was normal, vanilla Catherine.
"Oh, yes please." I replied.
She gestured to the dining table for me to take a seat.
"I had a full report from Jonathan." She said.
I laughed. "The grapevine works well in The Code. I got the email from Christopher."
"You mean Master." The switch in her mode was seamless.
"Oh yes, sorry, Mistress."
She placed two glasses of Chablis on coasters and sat across from me.
"OK." She pursed her lips. "As equals now."
"Thanks." I took a sip of Chablis.
"Tell me all about the evening, Peter." She said, almost flirting. "Don't leave anything out. Intimacy is the key."
Slowly and carefully I retraced the conversation with Jonathan about The Code and the 'payment' I had made to Melissa.
"Mistress Melissa" She said.
"Sorry...Mistress Melissa." I corrected.
"Jonathan told you about our rules about intimacy?" She asked.
"Yeah, like I said earlier." I replied.
"Don't hold back, Peter. Don't be embarrassed about what you did. It's important you are open to us."
Reluctance left me. I told her about how I had been ordered lick and clean Mistress Melissa and drink her urine after she orgasmed.
Catherine smiled. "How did you feel?" She asked.
"Strange." I sighed, reflectively.
"Strange? In what way?"
"I'm still not sure." I said. "When I got home, I didn't want to wash the taste away. It's as if it was...hard to say, but it felt like I actually liked what was happening and didn't want it to end. I was holding onto the taste for some reason. I was being..." I searched for the word, hoping it wouldn't be an insult.
"Used."
"Used?" She raised an eyebrow. "Isn't that what you want?"
"That's why it's strange." I replied quickly.
"It's not what I intended but, for some weird reason, it is." I looked at Catherine who was smiling. Knowing.
"I understand." She said quietly. "The Code will help you work through this. I think you're about ready."
I knew what she meant. She wanted me to join. "Jonathan said I'd have no choice. Was he right?"
"Well you do and you don't." Catherine replied. "Anyway...before we get to that, oh and Christopher is just upstairs getting your pledge ready; what have you left out?" She looked at me earnestly; I was opaque.
"Left out?"
"Yes."
"I've told you everything."
"No, you haven't, Peter." She touched my arm.
"I have." I complained.
"No, Peter. You stopped when you told me about cleaning your mouth."
"Yeah, it was weird. I really wanted to carry on..." I drifted.
"You've left something out, Peter." Catherine jolted me from my thought.
"No, Mistress."
"You pleasured yourself." Catherines voice was calm and precise.
How the fuck did she know that? I thought. Caught out.
"I masturbated in bed...into a tissue, Mistress" I said, blushing.
"That's better." She nodded.
"I forgot to ask Jonathan about it."
"I know." She nodded quietly again.
"See, I can't work out if this is important or not. Does this belong to you or to me?"
"This?" She feigned puzzlement, drawing me further.
"My pleasure. Pleasuring myself. Don't I deserve it?"
"What do you think?" Her hand ran down my arm and met mine and she squeezed reassuringly.
I sat silently, looking into her eyes.
"it's yours, isn't it. Even when I'm alone."
She nodded. "We were hoping Jonathan would tell you but, oh well."
