The eMail surprised me, to say the least.
I had been posting erotic, sexy stories on the Internet into an old "usenet newsgroup," a system that doesn't even really exist anymore. On occassion, I received comments about my stories, many of them complimentary, and gratifying.
A few weeks ago, I received the following:
"Hello Susan. I am an avid fan of your stories. My girlfriend and I read them all – we practically devour them. In fact, we love them so much we have been sharing them with a group of friends at this University where I am a graduate student." (He mentioned the name of the University, which is located in a city a few hours from where I live.)
"Actually, we are more than just a group of "friends" – we are a club that engages in mate-swapping and group sex. Twelve of us in all, all couples. We have taken to reading your stories out loud at the beginning of our gatherings as a way to get into the "swing" of things (pun intended). Your stories have had a "rekindling" effect on our group; things have become a little placid for us, since our group has been meeting for over three years." (That was a little hard for me to believe, since I couldn't see how that kind of group could ever get boring.)
"We just wanted you to know that your stories have gotten us all very aroused, and we have determined to be more creative about our interminglings. The past few months has made us all big admirers of those stories of yours." (It was signed "Tim".)
I wrote back:
"Dear Tim,
Thank you for your support. I find it very exciting to imagine you all together reading one of my stories. My vivid imagination takes over, thinking about what happens when the pages are put down. Which story does your group like the most?"
Within a day, I received another note from him:
"Dear Susan,
Our favorite story is "Slippery When Wet," partly because it involves college age men such as ourselves, and partly because we are intrigued with your apparent fascination with large amounts of semen all over your body. This story has led our group to experiment with having several men ejaculate onto one of the women, while the others watched and made comments. We deemed the experiment a huge success! This line of exploration warrants further investigation, we think."
Those were his words exactly. From his phrasing, it was obvious that he and his friends were graduate students in science. But it was hard for me to imagine nerdy science students being liberated enough to be into group sex.
I had to send a followup message:
"Dear Tim,
Please pardon my skepticism, but – does this 'group' really exist? A dozen college age "swingers?" It's OK to tell me that you made that up, using your own fertile imagination. I will not be angry."
His response blew me away:
"Dear Susan,
We would love to prove to you that we truly exist. One week from (date of his message), you are cordially invited to join us." He inserted directions to the apartment where they would be meeting.
"Your complete anonymity is guaranteed – we will never discuss this outside our group. We are all completely well-behaved ladies and gentlemen, and your safety and well-being are assured. We adore you for the inspiration that you have given to the group, and your presence at our gathering would be a wonderful honor for us."
I decided to attend. It was hard to let go of my fear of strangers, but quite frankly, these people seemed totally benign and genuinely friendly. My curiosity was piqued. I wasn't sure if I would actually engage in their sexual activities, and I wasn't even sure if actual sex was on the agenda. Maybe this would be kind of like a book-signing party or something – lots of talk and congratulations and the like.
The day arrived. Before I left home, I put on a long back dress, velveteen lined with satin. It had spaghetti straps and it went down to my ankles, with slits up each side that reached halfway up my thighs. I never wore a bra, and the vee neck of the bodice extended deep into my modest cleavage. Well, maybe modest wasn't the best description. My breasts weren't so large as to leave a Grand Canyon between them. But there was enough to provide a nesting place for the long string of fake pearls that I draped around my neck and let fall into that valley, accentuating the mounds of my breasts. For panties, I chose scarlet satin panties with black lace around all the edges. All of this was rounded out by shiny red pumps, with no stockings. I was trying to play the part of a writer of titillating erotica out to meet her fans. It was a bit like dressing up for the prom.
I drove all afternoon. Fortunately, the weather that day was warm enough so that I could drive with the top down on my Miata. It felt great to let my blond hair stream out behind me, and the wind blew into the top of my dress, sort of inflating it and pulling it away from my chest. The breezes whipped across my nipples for all that time on the highway. It was the most slow and gentle and effective kind of stimulation, and my nipples never lost their hardness for the entire trip.
I had given myself plenty of time to find my way, but nevertheless, I got lost. So when I finally arrived on the doorstep to the apartment, I was almost an hour late. "Oh well," I thought, "hopefully, they haven't given up on me."
I rang the door chime. My heart was beating a little fast out of nervousness. Unbidden thoughts started percolating through my mind, such as, "I have never actually met any of my internet readers. Maybe I should have kept it that way. Followed by, "Maybe Tim's invitation is a scam, and behind the door are a bunch of macho, sex-maniacs who intend to include me in some sort of non-consensual BDSM episode that they can write up for the Internet." That was not my cup of tea at all. Stomach starting to ache, I decided to turn around and flee this potential fiasco.
When I had wheeled around and taken a couple of steps toward the elevator, I heard the door open. "Should I run for it?" raced through my mind.
Before I could decide, I heard a sweet and delicate woman's voice asking, "Is your name Sue?"
I turned my head back to the door, and saw the woman. I could only feel silly for being afraid of the occupants of the apartment. "This person is hardly menacing," I thought to myself. She was short (maybe 5 foot or so) and pretty and I guessed the best way of describing her would be to say that she was demure, even timid. She seemed more nervous to be meeting me than I was in being met! "OK, I'll go through with it," I decided. I turned around and walked back to the door and into the apartment.
In the living room, all of the seats were taken, and other people were seated on cushions on the floor. When I entered, they all stood up and welcomed me in. Crowding around me, they were effusively thanking me for coming. Tim introduced himself to me, and then to everyone else. All the names escaped me, going in one ear and out the other.
I'd never been so much the center of attention, and I found my focus wandering from person to person, responding to their questions with simple 'yes' and 'no' answers. My head was swimming. Eventually the woman who opened the door (this was her apartment) recognized my bewilderment, and offered me a chance to wash up in her bathroom. That sounded great. The three minutes in there gave me an opportunity to settle my nerves and get back into the role of vamping 'queen of erotica' that I had chosen for myself. I felt ready, so I rejoined the group.
One of the first things someone asked was, "Have you written anything new, Susan?"
Well, I hadn't, and they seemed a bit disappointed. Tim asked, "Will you read us one of your previous efforts?"
"I would be happy to do so. Which one would you all like to hear?" I said, smiling.