8:10 Wednesday Evening
Enjoying my morning coffee, I hear her off-key singing as she comes down the stairs. With the slapping sound of her bare feet landing on the hard floors, I look over my newspaper and see her dance to music I can't hear.
She makes her way into the kitchen, pours herself a glass of orange-juice and makes herself some toast.
"You came in late last night."
"Uh."
"Take those damn things off!"
She makes a face at me. "What?"
"I said...take those damn things off!"
"What?" as she removes the headphones.
"I said, take those damn things off! It is really annoying that you use your iPod when you are walking around the house. Just turn on the stereo."
"Whatever."
I glare at her.
"Um, sorry."
"You came home late last night."
"I was out with Monique."
"I want you home early this evening."
"I have plans." Between bites of toast and slips of juice.
"Cancel 'em. You have been out late too much lately. You need to concentrate on your studies and you need your rest."
"But, I can't..."
"You had best be here when I get home."
"Jeezus." She whines.
"Don't roll your eyes at me, young lady. Is your homework done?"
"Yes," she replies in a snotty tone.
"You need to hurry up and get ready. That college is costing good money; I don't want you late."
"Ok, Ok"
"I have to get to the office."
"I need forty dollars" she yells as she runs up the stairs.
"What for?" My enquiry falls short as she shuts the door to the bathroom.
Leaving two twenty-dollar bills on the entry table, I grab my jacket and bag and head out the door.
7:45 Wednesday Evening
"Hello?" as I walk through the door.
Silence. Putting down my jacket and bag, I notice all the lights are on in the house.
"Hello!"
Again, no answer.
I head upstairs to take a shower. As I pull off my pants, my cell phone rings, alerting me to an inbound text message from her. I retrieve the message. "with monique home later."
"God damn brat." I say to myself.
I call her cell. She doesn't answer and it goes to voice mail.
"Hi, I got your text message. This morning I made it clear that you should be home this evening. I suggest that you head home now!"
I then text message her.
"u should b home"
I expressly told her to be home, she has blatantly disobeyed me and I am now pissed. But I know her, I am pretty certain where she will be around 10:30 this evening.
While showering, my thoughts are of her. Why does she do this? I try to provide an environment that is supportive, secure, and safe and give her the opportunities she deserves. Sometimes, I wonder if I make it too easy for her. Maybe she does not appreciate or respect me. Or as all young people do, is she just testing her limits.
As I prepare dinner, I wait for her call that never arrives. Communication is something that is important to me, of which she is well aware. It is a rare instance in which someone doesn't know what is going on in my mind. If anything, I may communicate too much. Sometimes I make mistakes, perhaps reacting quickly when staying back a bit may be the better course. Nevertheless, you would be hard-pressed to call me passive/aggressive.
It is 10:00 o'clock and I still have not heard from her. By now she should be at a club on 4th St. This is the most likely place to find her on a Wednesday evening. I pull on my boots, grab a jacket and head down to the garage. I start up the truck and exit the garage for the 10-minute drive to the club.